TITLE: ill + Portsmouth AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/07/2007 05:37:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I was really ill yesterday. So much so that I feel asleep during High School Musical! Shock horror! Went to the dr's (well it was @ the hospital because nothing was open) and got some tablets to stop me being sick. Seem to be ok today, not 100% but ok. Right now I'm in Portsmouth with Ben, Ruth and Dan 00020510655611615615641851564986515645198- that was Ben's contribution I'm staying here til Tuesday morning then getting the train back to the interview. So hopefully the trains will be running on time, even though I have left enough time for 1 delay. I'd rather be early than late. Yesterday I had to cancel the viewing on the room in Bicester :'( Going to re-arrange it soon. Might ring her to see if I can view it after the interview. I have to go back to the doctor's soon to have some blood tests to find out why my ribs are still swollen. Really don't want to leave on Tuesday. I suppose it will be ok because of the interview. Oh well. Got 2 good days here :-) p.s. Jackie's got an offer on the house. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/08/2007 11:20:00 AM not to ill to go to portsmouth then :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 1/08/2007 01:54:00 PM Talking to you on messenger, however get well soon x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/08/2007 02:59:00 PM better pray you get a house in bicester then.

and the job, or you wouldnt be able to get to work.

and the pay rise if you dont get the job ----- -------- TITLE: Not much to say AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/04/2007 01:03:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Haven't really done anything interesting recently, except I haven't been home for 3 weeks. I'm still at the Hadlands :-) Think I should pop over and see Jackie, lol. Might drop her an email to say I haven't disappeared of the face of the earth. Uniglobe seriously sucks. I have been taking the Christmas decorations down, decorating the office with posters saying "January SALE on now!" etc, and haven't done anything else. I'm SO bored. I'm all excited about the interview on Tuesday. I really really hope I get the job. In fact, next week should be quiet a good week even though Dan's back in Portsmouth. Looking round the room in Bicester, Job interview AND Steve + Tammi's house on Thursday for our 'Alpha' evening. (I can't remember what the course thingy's name is but it's not Alpha, we've done that! 'Searching', 'Looking deeper' or something like that. Probably completely wrong but oh well!) Oh and I can't forget, I'm making/baking/cooking/whatever the pudding. Someone please help me with a SIMPLE but nice recipe that I can do! please?

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/04/2007 02:55:00 PM I'll ask Mum and see what she suggests and it's been great you staying here :-) ----- -------- TITLE: 2007 is ok AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/03/2007 08:39:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: so far. Yesterday things started to pick up. Speaking to friends online that aren't in Oxford helped last night. Also went out for Rachel's 19th B'day. Work just seriously sucks. I forget how boring it actually is when I'm not working but when I'm here time seems to drag. Every second seems like a minute etc. I just hope I get this new job and room. It would do me the world of good. Jeez it's only 08:51 and I'm bored already. I've been at work 20 mins and there's just nothing for me to do! Please, if anyone knows how to cure boredom, tell me!

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----- -------- TITLE: New Job & New Room *fingers crossed* AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/02/2007 11:01:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I got an email from my Dad today saying, 'I hope this interests you= Single Room to rent in Bicester. Suit young professional female. £290 pcm inc. bills (exc. telephone). Near city centre' (not exact words but along those lines). So I phoned and spoke to a lady (about 25-35 yrs *I think*) and I'm viewing it on Saturday morning. I've got my job interview on Tuesday (kinda lied to Jo to get it off work, told her I had the dentist so could I just book it off Annual Leave because there were going to be 3 of us in). So at least I have something to look forward to when Dan gets back home.

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----- -------- TITLE: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/01/2007 12:36:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/01/2007 08:43:00 PM And to you, lass.

:-) ----- -------- TITLE: Hopefully new job and new house AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2006 11:43:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: but things seem to be getting in the way. If i get this new job (which i really want) then i need a new place to live, nearer the job. But Jackie (landlady) is moving house, so i need to move out anyways, and finding a new place to live is very hard; I can't afford it, to put it bluntly. So what do I do? (*thinks* tiredness and feeling ill is kicking in and heightening my worries, which isn't helping but I am really scared that I'll have to be dependant on other people again. Like moving home, which i really REALLY don't want to do.) I'm just doing circles in my head. It's not really helping because I keep ending back at, I can't afford to move out, but I have to, etc etc. I should shut up. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/31/2006 11:50:00 AM buying/renting a house sucks.

try to look at house sharing, you'll meet some interesting people at least. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 12/31/2006 02:36:00 PM You know our thoughts Kita. Just posting to remind you.

:-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/01/2007 06:11:00 PM Move back home...? ----- -------- TITLE: shopping Shopping AND MORE SHOPPING!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2006 12:15:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm ill so I'm going shopping! Nah I have a sore throat, swollen tonsils and I just generally don't feel great. I keep coughing. SO Sue and Frankie are going shopping and me and Dan are going along (well I'm dragging Dan shopping :P) I phoned in sick to work. Oh well! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 12/30/2006 09:05:00 PM Uou disgust me: there should be an apostrophe after the first 'shopping'! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2006 11:02:00 PM Sorry Liv, my grammar isn't 100% right :-P ----- -------- TITLE: BBC Grammar AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/28/2006 01:46:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I was testing my grammar on the BBC site today and found a competition. I read through the small print and found this= "The competition is open to anyone between the ages of 12 and 18 inclusive who is learning English." Surely it should be "The competition is open to anyone between the ages of 12 and 18 inclusive who ARE learning English." or am I wrong? Read it yourself= http://www.bbc.co.uk/worldservice/learningenglish/generationnext/

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/30/2006 03:52:00 PM you are wrong they are right ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 12/30/2006 08:27:00 PM Who are you? ----- -------- TITLE: End of the Christmas period AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/28/2006 09:18:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: For me, the last of the Christmas's was last night at Toni and Chris's. It was very cool, seeing everyone. The Thursday four group hadn't been together in aaggeess, and we had a few new people aswell :-) Today once again I'm bored at work but this is keeping me going. Plus SHOPPING(!) with Johanna in town after work! :D Which I'm looking forward to. I really want to go into the covered market and show Johanna my fav shop but I don't know if they stay open later because it's a Thursday. I hope so. If not, there's Debenhams, Primark, Next, BHS, Topshop etc. :-D YAY shopping! lol. BTW I think I've caught whatever Dan's got. I have a sore throat. I really really hope I don't have it because the timing, I'll be ill over New Year :-(

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/28/2006 01:01:00 PM :) all of u back together again.... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 12/28/2006 02:55:00 PM FWIW Johanna's going to the doctor this afternoon - has a red and spotty throat.

:-(

Hopefully she'll be OK later. ----- -------- TITLE: wooOOoo!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/27/2006 11:03:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: YAYNESS!! I have been selected for an interview at the Thomas Cook shop in Bicester!! :-) I can't wait! How FAB will that job be!! YAYNESS!!!!!

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/27/2006 11:28:00 AM woo yey! i hav no idea where bicester is :S :P
hope u had a gd christmas, and that clippys well :P :D
xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/27/2006 11:35:00 AM Fab? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/27/2006 11:48:00 AM Mr/Mrs Anonymous, please can you leave your name!!
Fab = fabulous. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/27/2006 11:49:00 AM p.s. Ineke! How cool are our teddies!!! what your's name? Clippy is very well :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/27/2006 11:55:00 AM hehe theyr gr8!
how did dan get urs 2 oxford wihtout u seein?!
mines called graham cos hes the colour of golden grahams!
ys urs called clippy? :P
xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/27/2006 04:13:00 PM ah thanks ----- -------- TITLE: Dad and Dee's Christmas AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/23/2006 08:51:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: OK, this is the start of my 4 days of Christmas. Today is with Dad and his wife, Dee. I don't really want to go round TBH. I suppose I should want to go round, me being his daughter and all but frankly I don't care. Dad's are people who take care of their children not push them away. *sigh* Ya'kno, it's really hard to change your views on someone when you've had these views for 7 years. It's even harder to forgive them. Let's just say I haven't got to that stage yet. I can be civil and even nice towards him and Dee, but I really don't see why I should be. But I can also see that I'm kind of bitter inside because I can't forgive my Dad (and Dee). But anyways, lighter subject; Mum & Stu's tomorrow, with Stu's two kids :-) We're having another mock Christmas, (my 2nd) Then on the 25th, I'm going to Grandma and Grandad's like we always do :-) Boxing day I'm spending with Dan and his family :-) Then on the 27th(?) we're spending with Toni, Chris, Ben, Johanna, Livi and James (I think) for and extended family Christmassy thing. But all is good. I just need to pray a little harder and a little longer about wanting to want to forgive Dad.

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 12/23/2006 12:53:00 PM Praying for you - that you will be able to get on with them OK.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/24/2006 02:07:00 PM aw lucky ----- -------- TITLE: Christmas is goming WAY too fast AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/21/2006 11:11:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It's the 21st!! I can't believe how quickly Christmas is coming. It's nearly here already! Kinda crept up on me. I haven't wrapped my presents. I haven't got anything properly planned. *throws a tantrum* It's not fair! Why doesn't time just s l o w down. Dan's going home in just over 2 weeks :-( ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/22/2006 01:38:00 PM life sometimes goes past in a blur...part of being human I guess... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: danhadland DATE: 12/22/2006 02:35:00 PM your name please? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 12/22/2006 07:22:00 PM Kita, what exactly is 'goming'?

James wants to know if it's coming and going at the same time.

I want to know too now! ----- -------- TITLE: Nice food :-) AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/19/2006 09:03:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Sue's cooking is yummy! ----- -------- TITLE: Christmas music!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/18/2006 03:05:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I wana listen to Christmas carols!!! (I just heard some whilst I was on hold to a Tour Operator and it's made me want to listen to more!) Except we don't have a radio/CD player etc AND we have no speakers on our computors :'( I WANT TO LISTEN TO CHRISTMAS SONGS! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/18/2006 03:57:00 PM got an old tape player or radio or walkman or nethin u can take in? :P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/18/2006 07:34:00 PM I hate christmas music, overly cheesy and just boring...and for modern christmas music...well thats just worse ----- -------- TITLE: Really good weekend AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/18/2006 09:44:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
with Ben, Ineke, Ruth and of course Dan. Ruth's friend Steve was there too. We shopped, played pool (Ineke won!!), shopped some more, went to see Dan at work, urm... what else did we do? Said goodbye to Ruth/Clare and Steve :-( After all that the two couples (me + Dan and Ben + Ineke) where going to watch a movie and go to Frankie and Benny's but we decided to go to Tootsies instead (eat quicker) then we went and watched iRobot at Dan's flat :-) :-( then Ben and Ink had to go home so we won't see them before Christmas, but hopefully they'll come up for New Year :-D so ... what am I doing now? This morning I got up for work after staying at the Hadlands (BIG YAY) and I'm reading brochures because there's nothing else to do. but guess what?
I'M HAPPY!
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/18/2006 11:13:00 AM yey! this weekend was wel kl, thanks 4 my pressies n stuff :D
after a couple of ealry starts iv just got up for my first proper lie in in forever!
hope works not 2 dull 2day, glad ur happy :D
xx ----- -------- TITLE: trying to get through AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/15/2006 04:22:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: my posts sounds really depressing at the moment, I should lighten them up but ... I want to blog what I feel. I'm finding it very hard to get through the days at the moment. Work is just draining me, with nothing to do, I just look forward to the evenings. I loved last night. I really do enjoy going along to Alpha. Tonight I'm at Dans then he's back for Christmas so I know it won't be too hard. It's just... I don't know. I just feel extremely low and I'm trying really hard not to fall into my old way of thinking/being. I just feel a bit empty. Left out. Alone? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/16/2006 09:54:00 AM yer, not a nice feeling is it. you wonder if your exsitance is just to work and nothing else...and then you have people called freinds,its hard to trust anyone these days ----- -------- TITLE: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/15/2006 08:50:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: "When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you" From the Coldplay song and Randall's blog. Words I really need to hear, I know God will guide me home and 'fix' me but it still hurts. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 12/15/2006 01:24:00 PM {{Hug}} ----- -------- TITLE: Work's Christmas 'do' AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/14/2006 09:54:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: with the Oxford office last night. We went to La Tasca in the old castle and it was really nice. It was the flamenco (sp?) evening there with dancers and live music so was good fun :-) Me and Jo have been getting on a lot better recently so all's good (except Paul's in this week and there's nothing to do. He's not the most talkative chap I know! So I'm sitting here not talking to anyone). At work at the moment I'm just so bored in work. There's seriously nothing to do. So I sit infront of the computor searching to decent internet sites that I don't get told off for going on (a site that I can't pretend it's about travel). Now the internet's getting boring. Jo now lets me bring in a book to work because there's nothing to do. I've finished one book and now I'm bored on the second. It's just so tedious. I hate coming to work at the moment, I just want some excitement... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 12/14/2006 10:13:00 AM It may be a boring day, but at least we'll see you tonight.

Last Alpha of 2006.

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: Snakes and Ladders by Barney Coombs AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/13/2006 08:37:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Was reading this book on the bus this morning and something jumped out at me. I'm a failure, yes, but I can learn from it and work on it. This is what stood out to me;

" Albert Einstein was so backward in learning to talk that his parents regarded him as abnormal and his school teachers referred to him as a 'misfit'. At school the other children went out of their way to avoid him and hardly anyone ever invited him to play with them. To make matters worse, he also failed his first college entrance exam.

Walt Disney experienced several financial failures before he succeeded with his famous animal cartoons. Surely, someone like Winston Churchill must have been always a success? History will remember him as an outstanding man of uncommon valour, a high achiever. So he was, but he was not a success at school; he talked with a stutter and a lisp and he did poorly in his school work. At the age of 12 he became a pupil of Harrow; he began as the lowest boy in the class and in that unhappy position he stayed. At the age of 18, Winston entered the Royal Military College at Sandhurst but not before he had failed the entrance examination twice."

This doesn't mean I will go out of my way to fail or just not try my best in my studies. It just means to me that even some the great leaders of Britain and one of the most famous scientists' failed once in a while. *edit*
Would be good to know what I was aiming for though. Or what I should be studying... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 12/13/2006 09:19:00 AM Precisely.

I left school with 2 'O' levels, yet here I am doing all kinds of interesting things. But there's also a lot of the grace of God in it, and we tend not to take account of that. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/13/2006 09:31:00 AM That's very true. ----- -------- TITLE: Weekend, yesterday and today AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/12/2006 10:20:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: were all soooo busy. But I'm happy! :-D Weekend was great, meeting Ineke for the 1st time and chilling with Ben, Ink and Dan. (Beating Dan AND Ben at pool, me vs. them. I won!) Yesterday, train back from Portsmouth and work. Today, work and then Grandma's cheese, wine and crafts evening which I'm looking forward to :-) Urm... Don't know what else to say... Apart from- "A bus driver goes past a stop sign without stopping, passes a policeman, and makes a left hand turn right in front of a 'no left turn' sign, and goes the wrong way down a one-way street. Why didn't he get a ticket?" answers in comments please :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/12/2006 11:48:00 AM he was walking :D :P

was gd 2 finally meet u this weekend :) xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/12/2006 02:44:00 PM tut! spoil it Ineke! lol! only joking, but yes you're correct.

:D and it was very cool meeting you finally!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/12/2006 03:10:00 PM hehe feel free 2 delete the comment if u want other ppl 2 hav a go :P ----- -------- TITLE: YAY! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/09/2006 10:27:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm seeing Dan soon :-D ----- -------- TITLE: Just to say AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/07/2006 10:54:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm alright, just busy ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 12/07/2006 01:12:00 PM i no the feeling :P posted a very similar blog last week!
xx ----- -------- TITLE: Feels good AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/03/2006 09:54:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: to be at home. Wasn't my home but it felt very lovely to be at Toni and Chris's (and Ben's of course) this weekend. :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 12/04/2006 11:53:00 AM It was good for you to be with us, lass. ----- -------- TITLE: How do I explain to people AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/30/2006 11:43:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: that my happy face on the outside is a unhappy face on the inside, without getting all emotional? I just can't. So ATM I'm avoiding the subject, just to let you all know. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 12/01/2006 12:06:00 AM *hug* we all love u kita :) ----- -------- TITLE: hmmmn... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/29/2006 10:49:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Some days, I wish that I had never woken up, Some days, I wish that I didn't have the most boring routine in the earth, Some days, I wish that I didn't have a heart so it couldn't be hurt, Some days, I wish that I was somebody else... Today it felt like I hadn't even gone away for the weekend. I dragged myself up out of bed at silly-o'clock, (after going to bed at 8:30pm) then realising it wasn't silly-o'clock but really nearly-missing-bus-time. Run out of the house to find whilst I've been away (for those 5 days) they've changed the bus timetable, so all that running round frantically trying to brush my teeth and put on my socks at the same time, was pointless. I waited at the bus stop for another 10-15 minutes. Fab. On a happier note, T+C's was good last night :-) Put a smile on my face. And me and Ben E are going to see Casino Royal (new James Bond movie for all that don't know) tonight as it's Orange Wednesdays and we get one ticket free :-) that's another reason to have a smile on my face. The Kings Bible College have got there open day tomorrow. I REALLY want to go but I'm working. I feel too guilty to pull a sicky (never done it) because they would have to close the office if I do (can't have only 1 person working at one time). But I REALLY REALLY want to go. I know I could go some other time, but ATM I'm so jealous of everyone else, going to Uni and joining CU's and all the stuff I wish I was doing but I'm not. I'm just sitting in this office doing jack shit (excuse my language) and I'm bored out of my brains. If I don't go to KBC tomorrow I know I will just be bored in the office, like today, with nothing to do, and wishing and praying that I was there. Hmmmn... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/29/2006 11:30:00 AM {{huggle}}

Some days, I wish that I didn't have a heart so it couldn't be hurt. I'm glad you have a heart that loves :)

Love you

Dan ----- -------- TITLE: wooot! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/28/2006 02:20:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: my address to this NEW blog is www.kitasixteen.co.uk/blog Just to let you all know :D ----- -------- TITLE: I wish ... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/28/2006 12:37:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'd stayed in New York. ----- -------- TITLE: New York AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/27/2006 02:04:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Is FAB!!! I'm loving it. We're flying home today but going on a helicopter tour before and I've shopped soooo much (spent far too much money) lol! Anyways I'll blog more tomorrow when I get home, my flight gets in at 09:05 but I can't receive any calls, my phone battery has died and I didn't bring an American adaptor (duh!). Speak when I can, hope everyone's well :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 11/28/2006 09:24:00 AM Welcome back lass. Hope you survive the day OK and stay as awake as you need to. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/28/2006 10:17:00 AM Welcome back :D :D :D Sorry couldn't answer my phone a lecture literally just started, I love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxx ----- -------- TITLE: off to NY tomorrow. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/23/2006 02:40:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Don't really want to go but I know I'll enjoy it when I get there ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/23/2006 03:59:00 PM *hug* how come u dont wana go?
ud beter b takin a camera :P
who u goin with agen? :P
sorry!
XX
hav a gd time :) x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 11/23/2006 09:39:00 PM Wow, I'd forgotten when you were going. I didn't realise it was this soon! Have a great time, ok! Love you lots, be safe. XX ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 11/24/2006 07:57:00 AM Have a great time - eat a hotdog for me and don't get frozen!

Love

Toni & Chris ----- -------- TITLE: Lunch with Dad? AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/20/2006 10:59:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: He hasn't called yet, he said he would. Should I call him? *edit* It got to lunch time and caved in and called him. He has both mobiles turned off and no-one is answering the house phone. I left a message but it looks like he won't be meeting me for lunch then. Nice of him to tell me, again. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 11/20/2006 11:21:00 AM It's just our opinion, but maybe you need to be the grown-up and call him to find out if he's meeting you.

Sorry lass, this is all on its head. Sometimes you seem to be the parent to the parent.

Toni & Chris ----- -------- TITLE: Weekend AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/20/2006 09:24:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Was good. Really busy but good. I helped move Dan's great uncle Peter yesterday, which turned out to be quite fun with Justin and seeing Sally & Todd etc. On Saturday I had work (after catching a 7:24am train back from Portsmouth) and Dan caught another train after he finished work which arrived in at just gone 9pm. Saturday evening ... urm. What did we do? Oh yeah, Lee picked me and Dan up from the station and Justin got a take-a-way (yum!) and I went to bed early (2 early starts and 2 late nights soooo don't work for me). And then it's now. This morning I have work so Sue dropped me in on the way to drop Dan at the rail station. I'm supposed to be meeting Dad for lunch but he hasn't rang as yet, mind you, it is only 9:35am! Should I give Dad all these 2nd chances? Will I just end up hurt again, like last time? But he's my Dad, I want to let him into my life, I want to be pat of his, but... ----- -------- TITLE: This is what I've been longing for all day AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/16/2006 10:22:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It's really bad but I can't survive without a 'cuppa' in the morning. I know I haven't started my working day until I have a nice cup of tea. Milk + 2 sugars. Yummmmmmm....
(and not, Earl Grey, or horrible herbal rubbish.. PG Tips is the best)
The problem is I am started to have at least 3-4 cups of tea during work, then when I get home I have another 1, maybe 2. If I get up early enough I will have another one.
Is that too much tea?
Can a girl ever have too many shoes cups of tea?
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/16/2006 10:34:00 AM Well at least tea is cheaper than shoes, so do you want a tea caddy for Christmas?

Love you ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/16/2006 12:21:00 PM dw! my dad has at least tht each day, plus a few coffees and a mars bar or 2


...im not exagerating!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 11/16/2006 03:40:00 PM tried decaf?

*assumes defence position* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 11/17/2006 02:41:00 PM Depends on the kind of tea, green and white tea are great for you, black tea is good within reason -there's a lot of caffiene in it though, even more so than coffee! ----- -------- TITLE: Remember when AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/15/2006 06:15:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: you fell over as a little kid and your parents were always there to pick you up, give you a magic kiss/hug and put you on your feet again? Remember when you got to that age when your parents were there but said "your a big girl/boy now, just stand up, you'll be fine". I felt like that today. I fell over (not literally) and normally Dan's there to pick me up and give me a hug, wipe my tears and tell me it'll be okay. Today he wasn't. I'm a big girl now, but I still want that magic hug that make everything better all at once. Just distance hurts sometimes, especially when I make stupid decisions. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/15/2006 06:32:00 PM {{Big Magic Hug}} ----- -------- TITLE: in 10 Days I'll be here AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/15/2006 11:06:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 11/15/2006 11:41:00 AM I suspect your photo may be optimistic.

;) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/15/2006 01:57:00 PM Wish I were going with you :( one day :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 11/15/2006 03:42:00 PM I want a doughnut!!! ----- -------- TITLE: b-o-r-e-d spells BORED! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/14/2006 04:07:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: You really don't know how bored I am in this office. I have nothing at all to do. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/14/2006 06:55:00 PM bet im more bored :P ----- -------- TITLE: Good Evening AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/11/2006 10:03:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: yeah, Mum's was good last night :-) Tonight I'm round Rachels and then we're off to Chris Ertl's to stay the night and then, in the morning, we're going to HobbyCrafts at Birmingham NEC !! :-D yayness! :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 11/11/2006 09:24:00 PM Ahem, I am too!

Glad things went ok with your mum.

We get to see lots of beads tomorrow!! Ooooh, beads... ----- -------- TITLE: Mail AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/10/2006 08:43:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I got home last night after a really good Alpha evening to find 2 letters on the doormat, one who's writing I recognised and was expecting and another that I've know for years but it was a suprise to find it. The first was a lovely letter from Dan. He'd written me a letter and stuck on some photo's and the cinema tickets when I was last in Portsmouth and it was soooo sweet! I phoned him up straight away in tears! (How soppy am I?!) The second letter was from my Grandma (Joy) and Grandad. Grandma had sent me a card that's one of her paintings of Scarborough and written a note inside saying "hope you have a great time in New York and here's something to spend whilst you're out there", and put £100 cheque inside! :-O :-D Not expecting that at all!! Unfortunately it was 10:30pm by the time I got home so I couldn't give them a call to say thankyou so I've written them a letter that I'll post today :-) But bless them, they're so lovely :-) Today I just know the office is going to be quiet so I'm going to write a letter to Dan :-) But right now, I'm going to made myself a cup of tea and try and warm myself up. p.s. I'm going to my Mum's tonight :-) Hopefully it'll go a bit better than trying to meet up with my Dad... It should be. ----- -------- TITLE: I'm meeting my Daddy for lunch AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/09/2006 11:27:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and guess what?? HE RANG ME!! :-D *Edit* After 20 min's waiting when he was meant to meet me midday, I rang him to see where he was. He was still at work in Milton Keynes (about 45- 1hrs drive away). I had to ask whether he could meet up next week but he's busy. Maybe another time... I'm really upset, but more disappointed. I suppose I shouldn't get my hopes up when my Dad's involved, I should have learnt that by now. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 11/09/2006 01:03:00 PM oooooooooohhhhhhhh! Yaaaay you!!

yum yum yum lunch!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 11/09/2006 03:03:00 PM eeeeee... that's not nice. It's so horrible when someone lets you down. I'm sorry. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Randall DATE: 11/10/2006 01:49:00 AM I'm sorry Kita.

That's a hard one to live through. I hope it gets better with him.

One really good thing about him though. Seems he has a great daughter. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/10/2006 08:36:00 AM thanks you guys :) ----- -------- TITLE: Who am I? AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/08/2006 08:01:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I was talking to Dan about this last weekend. Chris Hadland got some business cards printed saying "drummer" etc and I thought, wow that's a cool idea, why don't I get some for myself, being free and all. Though about it for a sec... Then found, I'm not 'anything'. I'm not a drummer, musician, travel agent, hairdresser, I'm not anything. This is what I am= "I am a flower quickly fading Here today and gone tomorrow A wave tossed in the ocean A vapor in the wind Still You hear me when I'm calling Lord, You catch me when I'm falling And You've told me who I am I am Yours, I am Yours" This really touched me tonight. Can't really put it on a business card though. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/08/2006 11:00:00 PM 1 of a couple, I think that is what we ended up with by Monday?

Miss you my love, xxxxxxxxxxxxx ----- -------- TITLE: oh... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/08/2006 07:01:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Not had a great day today. Mainly because Jo was in and I can't piss around when she's there. She kept telling me off for things that weren't my fault. For example, my tutor came into work on Monday and noticed we have nothing in the office that complies with health and safety standards, so asked if we could put fire exit signs up, the heater to be tested and certified by an electrician and if we could get smoke detectors etc etc. Jo had a spazzy when I told her politely, not forcingly or anything like that. I also said to her that it was 17'c yesterday in the office and can we please get a heater that heater the office. One word answer to sum it up "no". Ok, fine, whatever. Plus I know I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up etc about Dan coming home for the weekend, but I did and I'm kind of a but bummed. But oh well. I should hopefully get to see him before I go to New York. Plus I've got Hobbycrafts to go to this weekend with Chris, Rach and Livi. Oh BTW IF ANYONE CAN COVER CRECHE FOR ME IT WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED and i'll cover yours next time! (Tracey can't do it and I don't know who else to ask :-S Jackie's got her boyfriend over so I'm confined to my room tonight. Don't really care because all I want to do is snuggle up in Dan's arms but I can't do that, might just go to sleep anytime soon. Then when I wake up it'll be time to go to work again and I don't have to think about anything... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/08/2006 10:58:00 PM {{Huggle}}

I know it's not the same as 'real' arms but my heart is in it just as much.

I love you xxxx ----- -------- TITLE: Jo's back tomorrow AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/07/2006 10:07:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: so today I'm tidying to office and doing all the paper work so she's in a good mood! Paul's off tomorrow (I'm working a six day week) so it's just me and her :-( Never mind! Today I'm going to search for places to rent for me and Rachel, search jewellery websites for a vague design I like so Dan and Ben C can have fun making me one :-) and I'm going to get lots of mugs of tea because this office is freezing cold! brrr!! Thankfully I'm wearing my thick pink socks, a cardigan and t-shirt and my black pinstripe trousers which are very warm but it's still very cold and I have goose-bumps on my arms! (And I'm shivering!) We've only got one small plug-in heater which doesn't even warm 1/2 the room up! Winter's definately here! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/07/2006 11:40:00 AM hey, i was online earlier! and i was tlkin! it obviuosly jus didnt get thru :( yea im in a permenant scarf and winter coat wenever i go out now :(
do i hear theres a chance of u goin down this weekend after all?
xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/07/2006 12:00:00 PM Maybe this isn't the best time to say it but it's quite a nice day here :)

Love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: p***-off Livi >:( DATE: 11/08/2006 09:15:00 AM You realise the intensity of cold when waiting for buses! Buses are a bloody pain in the arse right now for me as they truly seem to turn up when they want to. I've waited more than once in the past 2 weekls for the 7.45 bus from Bicester and for it not to turn up, and consequently the 8.00 bus arrives packed and uncomfortable.

And whilst you wait for an imaginary bus you realise that you've frozen to the bench... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: amused Livi DATE: 11/08/2006 03:46:00 PM hee hee even though I'm sure this shouldn't be here (I'm on school CPU) there's a button in the tool bar that can change your cursor!! Mine's now a frog that grabs the arrow with his tongue!! ----- -------- TITLE: Today, yesterday & tomorrow AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/06/2006 03:01:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Had a fabbity fab weekend. Spent lots of time just cuddling Dan. He kept saying it's like Christmas etc! Seems weird, it might be next time I see him in Oxford it will be Christmas! :-P But now, I've just had a 15 minute lunch break because I've got demanding customers, and Cheryl from TTC training has just left. She's taken me off my NVQ level 2 (so I'm not getting that qualification) and putting me onto NVQ level 3 to start training on the 1st January 2007. Should be good. The down side is, that I won't be finished until August/September 2007 at the earliest :-( AND that's if work actually back me up and give me opportunities to book etc. :'-( might mean I can't start my theology course until NEXT academic year (08). Suppose I would be able to earn more and be able to pay for my accommodation etc. Sucks though. I really want to do this course. On a minor up side, I'm going to hand in my CV's round Oxford, Kidlington, Bicester etc on Sunday or shortly to see if I can find a agency that I can enjoy working at. But oh joy of all joys, I've got to get back to work. p.s. Thankyou Sue & Dave Hadland for putting up with me at the weekend :-) (and to all Dan's family) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/06/2006 07:04:00 PM :) Was a really great time we got together, love you :) xxxxxxxxxxxxx ----- -------- TITLE: I feel... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/04/2006 12:49:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: all warm and fluffy inside ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/04/2006 01:53:00 PM aww yey :)
xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 11/06/2006 08:58:00 AM Nice pic. ----- -------- TITLE: To avoid putting anyone at risk, please avoid hugging AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/03/2006 04:24:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/cornwall/6113830.stm

I can't believe what this world is coming to. We're now not allowed (well it's not advised to hug at school!! )

I certainly will be hugging Dan as soon as he steps off his train today :D

I will certainly hug my Dad when I meet up with him on Thursday next week :D

Stupid, silly teachers. They're just jealous that they're not getting a hug.

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/03/2006 05:08:00 PM i thort that was the case neway :S, it is stupid, tho it mite b difrent in infact skls, i cant remember
btw i cant get that link to work :S
hav fun with dan this weekend :)
xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/03/2006 08:35:00 PM ok iv now read the article and i apologise
i thort u ment teachers hugging students

thats just STUPID!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 11/05/2006 08:27:00 PM Teachers are stinky poo-heads! LOL there's the maturity.

I think they're scared that if someone gets assulted and then they'll get blamed. It's all too American...! ----- -------- TITLE: Dan's coming home tomorrow AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/02/2006 05:20:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: :D :D :D SOOOOOO HAPPY :D :D :D I get to hug Dan again :D YAY!! Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow, Dans coming home tomorrow!!!!!! YAY YAY YAY!! :D I get to hug Dan again!! 12 hours 'til I see him again :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 11/02/2006 06:21:00 PM yey :D xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 11/02/2006 06:37:00 PM i wanna see ineke :( ----- -------- TITLE: It's amazing AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/02/2006 08:40:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: how much better would I feel after a nice warm cup of tea :-) Wish I could always feel like that. Then again maybe not. I wish I was happy more often, or just more optimistic.
I went to Sue and Dave's house last night. Was good to see them.
Going to Mum's house on Friday which should be good. ish.
Was talking to Dan last night. It feels like if I left, or just didn't talk to anyone, no-one would make the effort to talk to me.
I haven't spoken to Mum for a week. Nor Zach. I have spoken to my Grandparents (apart from I called them yesterday) for 2-3 weeks. Same with my Dad. It just feels like... shit really. It feels if I went away no-one would miss me apart from if they saw something that reminded them they hadn't spoken to me in ages.
If I went missing, how long would it take for someone to realise I wasn't here?
(sorry for being so depressing and OTT)
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 11/02/2006 09:56:00 AM 1 maybe 2 seconds, there are many who would miss you and I would be at the top of the list, I love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Olivia DATE: 11/02/2006 09:56:00 AM I miss you!

I do see what you mean though. I'm kind of lucky, because I go to school and see lots of people, and someone is BOUND to notice a lack of Olivia! (I hope!)

Waa. I'd notice. :( ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 11/02/2006 01:29:00 PM Kita - FWIW we all feel like that sometimes - even me.

We're still here for you too. ----- -------- TITLE: urm. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 11/01/2006 09:18:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:

Don't feel particularly great this morning. Went to bed unhappy and woke up unhappy. I kind of half know the problem but it's not something i want to broadcast to the world. (BTW I don't have some sort of disease or fungus growing on my face, coz that's what it sounds like)

All of the effort I put into making the Halloween decorations, I now have to screw up and put in the rubbish, and that's all I seem to be doing in my job, my life, nearly everything; screwing it up.

BTW if any one of you asks me 'are you okay?' or, 'how are you today?' etc. The answer is 'fine thanks'. Please don't go any further. I don't want to answer, I want to forget and enjoy the moment rather than dwell on how I'm feeling.

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 11/01/2006 11:06:00 AM Huggle, love you Dan xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 11/01/2006 11:29:00 AM (((hug))) from us as well.

Want to come over this evening to get you out of the house and in company? ----- -------- TITLE: wooOOoo!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/31/2006 10:08:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm on minimum wage now!! :-D yayness!! :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 10/31/2006 12:30:00 PM What is minimum wage now?

Lalala la lalala lala lala I'm bored lalala.

forgot my sociology homework to do so can't do it. May either have to cram it in tonight or do it tomorrow morning. Hmmm... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 10/31/2006 06:13:00 PM hey, i hear ur not comin down that weekend now :(
i wil hav 2 c u sumwen!!!
at least u dont hav 2 get that 6am train now :P
xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 11/01/2006 06:52:00 AM w00t ----- -------- TITLE: @ work... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/30/2006 03:31:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: zZZ. I'm doing halloween decorations in the office today, cutting out 'Happy Halloween' in coloured paper and pictures of pumpkins etc. We've got a work experience girl called Chorley in for this week so once again I'm not doing any travel agent work. I'm really unhappy in my job ATM. My TTC tutor is coming a week today so at least I can tell her everything that's going on. Seriously sucks though. I just want to finish my course but I'm scared that it won't be done in time to go onto Theology at KBC. I really don't like my job. I haven't booked anything all day apart from 1 flight (which Paul gave to me because he was on the phone). *sigh*... I would get back to work if there was work for me to do. I can't wait to get stuck in and do Theology & Biblical studies, (something I enjoy for once!) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 10/30/2006 11:39:00 PM Huzzah!

I shall come and meet this work experience girl, and quiz her on her tea making abilities.....

Lol


PS - cant work out (tried once) how to change my blog to a beta blog.

Karl -x- ----- -------- TITLE: Great weekend, just went too fast AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/29/2006 10:47:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I can't believe the weekend went so quickly. I had such a great time. 'Time flys when you're having fun'. I'll update at work tomorrow, if I'm not busy, which I shouldn't be :-( Jo's away so I can get on the net. But it also means I won't have much to do. If you need ANY travel arrangements then please email me and save me from boredom tomorrow!! Anyways, night night! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 10/29/2006 11:15:00 PM can you arrange for Ineke to travel to Portsmouth for free and v. quickly whenever she/I feel(s) like it? ----- -------- TITLE: Well... I WAS happy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/28/2006 06:26:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: lol! We (me, Dan and Ruth) all went for a stroll along the beach to explore. It turned out to be a hike and we turned out to be in Fratton!!!! :-O (miles away for all you people that don't know Portsmouth). Was quite funny but got very annoying as Dan's shoe squeaks and was VERY irritating all the way back to Dan's and Ruth's halls of residence! Now my feet ache as we left at 1:45 and we've just got back and it's *checks watch* 6:30!! We only went to go on the beach at Southsea!! Me and Dan are going to go to the cinema now (after he cooks tea :-P ). We're going to watch the World Trade Center film thats been out for about 3 weeks *I think*. Jo said it was moving but good. Lets see. p.s. I love Dan!!!! :-D ----- -------- TITLE: happy happy happy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/28/2006 11:02:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: that's all I wanted to say= I am so happy :-D ----- -------- TITLE: Good time :-) AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/27/2006 08:39:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I just cooked for Dan and it went well!! :-O Shock horror!! lol I cooked prawn thai curry but by the time I had cooked it I wasn't hungry. We're going for a stroll down to the beach to take some photo's now :-) I'm so happy when I'm with him :-) I wish I could stay here all the time. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 10/28/2006 07:25:00 PM So that's why you didn't call to ask for help - you didn't need any!

:-) ----- -------- TITLE: I have just had my whole post deleted AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/26/2006 08:53:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: because IE crashed!! grrr! I was going to say= Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, I haven't been round a computer when I wanted to blog. Been kinda busy lately. Went to Mum's last night. Was OK. Mum bought me and Zach a take-away curry :-P very nice. But then I brought up about about me wanting to study Theology next year (Sept) and they both don't like the idea. Well that's putting it nicely. They hate the idea. I daren't even bring up the idea that I don't want Christmas presents this year, (I want to ask for money so I can get a refugee off the streets so they can have a roof over their heads this Christmas, it's something we all take for granted). So yeah anyways, I told Mum and Zach that I want to study Theology at KBC and they said things like; "Why study something that's not going to get you a job at the end of it?" and "I don't think it's a good idea because you should have done this 3 years ago when you could go into full-time education and get funding, you won't be able to afford it", ""Don't study something that's your hobby, study something that's going to get you somewhere in life" etc etc. I can see where they're coming from but I'm really upset. It feels like everything I have ever wanted to do, Mum doesn't like. She wants me to be a lawyer or a well-paid business woman. I'm not that person. I haven't a clue what I want to do in life and I'm doing the Theology & Biblical studies course to guide me. If it doesn't do that then I can at least put it on my CV. I'm sick of the travel agents, I can't get much higher than I am now and if there's a stronger word than hate then I 'hate' my job. Even Dad said he would support me in doing the KBCTC course. "If makes you happy, that's what counts. You're still young". Mum's going along the line of; "You're still young. You need to settle down and build yourself up in a career". :'( If I could work my way up in a career I would but I haven't the foggiest what to do with my life. I don't know what I want to be this time next year. I don't know what I want to do as a job. I don't know what line of work I want to be in. I don't know anything. I need guidance but I'm not getting anything. I really want to do this course but I want my family behind me. Even if they don't say "oh yes, we love the idea of studying Theology" but just saying "if that's what you want to do, then you've got our backing". I know I've got a lot of people that will support me but I want my Mum to say the same things as others and it's never going to happen. I wanted to go to Sixth form, she hated the idea. I wanted to be a Travel Agent, she hated the idea. Now I want to study Theology, she hates the idea even more. I've got an open day for KBCTC on the 30th November, I want Mum to come with me and just see what I want to study. I suggested it. Didn't force it. Just left it open to her but she's already said "I don't think it's a good idea." I asked Dad, and he said; "As long as I'm not busy and it won't get forced down my throat, then I'll come". It won't get forced down his throat but I guarantee he'll be busy. I'm going to ask Grandma and Grandad but I know they'll be upset that I'm the ugly duckling of my family, I'm the one that is doing a course that someone off the street can take. All I want is them to just say "it's OK, you can do that, we'll be there for you" etc. But it's never ever going to happen. :'( ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 10/26/2006 11:33:00 AM :(

in the end it's up to you, regardless of who's behind you and who isn't...

just following your heart! :P

*hugs*

Ben ----- -------- TITLE: Yayness! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/21/2006 03:12:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: 3 hours 'til I get on the train to see my lovely boyfriend!! :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 10/22/2006 04:33:00 PM w00t ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 10/23/2006 10:34:00 AM I hope you both had a great time. I was thinking of/ praying for you lots. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ineke DATE: 10/23/2006 11:18:00 AM hope u had a gd time! sorry u had ben inflicted on u for sum of it, and i duno *why* u cleaned his kitchen :S :P, we so have to both go 2 portsmouth at teh same weekend sumwen so i can meet u at last! ----- -------- TITLE: Photo's AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/20/2006 01:57:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: None of these photo's are anything to do with me, I just wanted to share them. I think they're gorgeous.
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris E DATE: 10/20/2006 10:18:00 PM Lovely photo's, they made me smile...............& so do you!
Chris ----- -------- TITLE: At last, the almighty pay rise has come! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/20/2006 09:13:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: well, if you class the 'almighty pay rise' as an extra £11.39 a month fantastic, then it has. Wow. That will get me to and from work for, oh, 2 days??! Yes thankyou SO much Mandy and Fred, I have worked so hard over the past year and a half so you reward me with a wage that's less than a toilet cleaner gets and a rise that is non-existent THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT IN MY TRAINING, I AM GOING TO STICK WITH YOUR AMAZING COMPANY FOR THE REST OF MY CAREER. not. Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! I want to scream. "yes you're a benefit to the company, yes I think you've worked really hard, yes you're college work and exams were really good, but you only deserve an 9p per hour increase." oh yeah and the government still manages to take £858.06 away from me per year. How on earth does that work?? I'm on way below minimum wage but they still think I can afford to pay them to get John Prescott 3 Jaguars. >:( Do they think I can survive on that much per month? I'd like to see them try. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 10/20/2006 10:47:00 AM leave and stop whinging ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 10/20/2006 03:58:00 PM "leave and stop whinging"

You, my dear, suck harder than a hoover dustette.

:-) ----- -------- TITLE: fighting it AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/18/2006 07:53:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I really want to self harm right now. I feel so crap in myself. I have been such a bitch today. It is so hard to fight against these feeling of wanting to cut myself. I can't cry but if I could I would be in floods of tears. Everything has gone wrong. I mean everything. Not just little things like; 'oh I've had such a hard day, I broke my nail and my hair's a mess', (what a load of crap). And it's not like it's just been 1 day or 1 week when I've felt like this, it's been a while. I've got a lump in my throat. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 10/18/2006 08:12:00 PM *hug* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 10/18/2006 08:36:00 PM Huggle

I love you xxx ----- -------- TITLE: Yesterday was ok AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/18/2006 07:24:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Talked things over extremely quickly with Mandy (director) and Alex (manager) but didn't get time for my appraisal. Oh well At least I'm getting a 2.5% pay rise. *sulks* Jeez I sounds so depressing recently. ATM I'm not particularly happy as most can tell but life goes on. I cannot wait for this weekend. *grins* I'm getting the train after work on Saturday to see Dan, then I'm back on Sunday night but I really can't wait!!! It's going to be fab just hugging him again and generally being around him :-D Yayness!! So there you go, I DO have something positive in my life. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 10/18/2006 08:11:00 PM train? that's got to be quite a long journey!! but it's worth it to see Dan, i'd travel the world to see him ;) lol ----- -------- TITLE: Work today AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/17/2006 09:14:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I have another appraisal and the open day is today. I'm working til 19:30 and then have to go out for drinks with Jo, Paul, Mandy and Alex. Oh joy. not. I'm really worried about today though, because of my whole appraisal thingy. I hope and pray it goes ok :-S ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 10/17/2006 09:41:00 AM Huggle, and good luck

Love you

Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 10/17/2006 01:28:00 PM Thinking of you today. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 10/17/2006 03:33:00 PM hope it goes well!

let me know ----- -------- TITLE: owwy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/16/2006 07:41:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Sorry to be so depressing again but ooowwww!! My chest hurts! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 10/17/2006 12:23:00 AM (((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: feeling extremely low AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/13/2006 07:01:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've just found out a guy I know commited suicide on Monday night. I'm really missing Dan, more than ever coz I'm listening to Aerosmith. And somethings aren't going well with a close friend. I really want to cry. I'm just going to eat coco pops, sit in front of the TV and I think Ben E might be coming round later to help me smile. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 10/15/2006 09:09:00 PM y'know, you can talk to me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 10/15/2006 09:28:00 PM You'll be with Dan again before you know it Kita... Just keep smiling until you see him :)

I don't know when Ineke's down next, we'll chat about it and let you know :) ----- -------- TITLE: Portsmouth AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/09/2006 03:17:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: is cool. Really good to see Dan again except he's in lecture ATM so I'm sitting with Andy in his room and doing Dan's washing!! Dan hasn't done any laundry all week so I had quite a bit to do (and pay for)!! Ahh, all for love :-) It's really weird being here still. Kind of like, I should be aking him back home today. Like he's just got back from holiday or something. I suppose I'll have to get used to it. Had a interesting weekend. Kat's party. Then Ali + Jenny's party. Stayed at Mum's house. Uncle David and my cousin Ginny gave me a lift to Church. Church itself was really good. People were quoting bits from the Bible etc and they were really appropriate for the things I'm going through. I couldn't say much or talk to people afterwards because I was doing tea's and coffee's and had quite a few other things on my mind. Anyways, I've got to go and get Dan's clothes from the drier. 30min's 'til I see Dan again :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jon DATE: 10/10/2006 10:29:00 AM :-D come do my washing??!!! you can do it out of......freindship :D
hehe

Jon x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ben DATE: 10/10/2006 11:19:00 AM see, Portsmouth is great! it was nice meeting u :):P thanks for the crunchies ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 10/11/2006 05:04:00 PM Now Kita, you have got it all wrong! It is important to start the way you mean to go on, & that really shouldn't be by doing Dan's washing for him 'cos he can't be bothered!
When he is out hard at work to support you & your babies, well, fair enough, but just 'cos he's too lazy? No way! ----- -------- TITLE: Quickly slow. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/07/2006 11:14:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Ugh. The weekend and this week feels like it's gone so fast, but when I'm at work I count the hours 'til I can go home again. Last night was fab :-) I got out all my crafty bits and felt like a 8 yr old kid again :-) I was reading Johanna's blog about how she managed to distract one of the kids she's looking after by colouring in a page then making it into a stained glass picture thingy. So, all inspired and everything, I got out my craft bits and bob's box and made a picture for Dan. I had glue and paper and pens and material everywhere! I was clearing up and I kept finding bits of the picture stuck to my elbow or back of my hand etc. Thankfully I was wearing my PJ's but now they're got glue stuck all over them! LOL! I love acting like a kid once in a while :-) This weekend I'm doing so many things. Tonight, after work, *takes deep breath* I'm getting the bus to mum's house, going to Kat's party (who I haven't seen in about a year), crashing in my old room (gunna be very strange now it's been redecorated), then mum's taking me home in the morning, I'm busing to Church, getting picked up from Church, driven to Portsmouth to see Dan and then I'm back on Monday night! *sigh* So... if you don't here from me over the weekend, that's why. And just because Toni has passed this onto me = 1. One worship song that has changed your life. "Through the Valley" by Lex Buckley. I heard it for the 1st time @ Soul Survivor this year. It's really hard to explain why when you're not there but basically because I was really scared of everything that was going on (screaming, people falling to the floor etc) and God kinda spoke to me through the song and said "when I walk through the valley, I won't be afraid, for Jesus you are with me, holding me close, and you can give a peace that passes understanding, Lord you will protect and comfort this heart". 2. One worship song that you rarely get tired of playing. Well I don't play so... song that I get tired of hearing?... urm... can't think of one TBH. Prob some old one that I've learnt in Church that when everyone sings it sounds like they're singing a lullaby and trying to put someone to sleep. lol. 3. One worship song you wish had never been written. none!! hehe! I love the kids ones. But that's probably because I never grew up with them, so if I had been I would probably hate them. 4. Best worship experience you’ve ever had. SOUL SURVIVOR!!!! 100% 5. Worship songs you wish there were more of. one's where you can worship in your own way at the end of the song without getting cut off. If you get what I mean. 6. Pass it on. Dan, Randall, and Livi HA! have fun ;-) ----- -------- TITLE: On my own AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/06/2006 07:17:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and loving every second. Jackie and Sarah have gone out so I can sit back, relax, watch whatever TV I want, cook what ever I want, listen to whatever music I want however loud I want :-) WOOOO!! I thought I'd hate being on my own but I actually quite like it :-) I am always around people, even when I'm on my own in Oxford, or on my lunch break etc, there's always loads of people surrounding me. But right this second all I can hear is silence, no-one but me in the house. There's nothing good on TV. Jackie has got digital but I don't know how to work it, LOL, but that's beside the point. So I'm sitting infront of her laptop, in my PJ's, eating pizza :-) This is the life :-) I'll probably get lonely later on but ho hum pigs bum... never mind! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 10/06/2006 11:58:00 PM Kita - I completely understand. It's one of the things that makes me want to stay up 'till 5 in the morning.

Just me.

And a billion internet users, but hey ho.

The one downside is that I can't play guitar. I like it when people go out in the day and then I can *really* crank it - my ears seem to ring easily these days.

Off to bed now for me - hope you sleep well.

:-) ----- -------- TITLE: Scars AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/05/2006 04:26:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Some years ago on a hot summer day in south Florida, a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore. His mother was in the house looking out the window, and she saw the two as they got closer and closer together. In utter fear, she ran toward the water, yelling to her son as loudly as she could. Hearing her voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his mother. It was too late. Just as he reached her, the alligator reached him. From the dock, the mother grabbed her little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of-war between the two. The alligator was much stronger than the mother, but the mother was much too passionate to letgo. A farmer happened to drive by, heard her screams, raced from his truck, took aim and shot the alligator. Remarkably, after weeks and weeks in the hospital, the little boy survived. His legs were extremely scarred by the vicious attack of the animal. And, on his arms, were deep scratches where his mother's fingernails dug into his flesh in her effort to hang on to the son she loved. The newspaper reporter who interviewed the boy after the trauma, asked if he would show him his scars. The boy lifted his pant legs. And then, with obvious pride, he said to the reporter, "But look at my arms. I have great scars on my arms, too. I have them because my Mom wouldn't let go." You and I can identify with that little boy. We have scars, too. No, not from an alligator, or anything quite so dramatic ... they are the scars of a painful past. Some of those scars are unsightly and have caused us deep regret. But, some wounds, my friend, are because God has refused to let go. In the midst of your struggle, He's been there holding on to you. The Scripture teaches that God loves you. If you have Christ in your life, you have become a child of God. He wants to protect you and provide for you in every way. But sometimes we foolishly wade into dangerous situations. The swimming hole of life is filled with peril, and we forget that the enemy is waiting toattack. That's when the tug-of-war begins, and if you have the scars of His love on your arms, be very grateful. He did not ... and will not ... let you go. 'And now he has made all of this plain to us by the coming of Christ Jesus, our Savior, who broke the power of death and showed us the way to everlasting life through the Good News'.2 Timothy 1:10 (NLT) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 10/11/2006 04:58:00 PM Wow! ----- -------- TITLE: Winter in October?? AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/04/2006 08:57:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: The first time for a few months I've been so cold I had to wear PJ's in bed instead of just t-shirt n shorts. I was SO cold!! I woke up this morning even colder and when I stepped out of the house I could see my breath in the cold morning air. What's happening to the weather this month?? It's only the beginning of October and it already feels like it's winter! What's even weirder is that I came back from St Lucia a week ago and I was wearing strap tops and skirts. Now at work I'm wearing t-shirts, trousers, cardigan and I'm freezing! Tomorrow I'm going to wear my furry boots at dolly shoes aren't particularly warm, considering wearing a scarf as well as my winter coat to work tomorrow. Dan said in Portsmouth that it's windy but not cold. Damn Oxford weather. ----- -------- TITLE: Guidance AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 10/03/2006 10:41:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I really need guidance ATM about what to do after I finish college or what to do with my work. I am really not liking work at the moment and find it really boring. College work just sucks. I am really unhappy at work. Whether to go into a completely different line of work because the travel industry is really boring me, whether to go and complete my course and carry on in Uniglobe, whether to leave travel completely and do a full time course at college (if so what subject). Someone the other day mentioned to me about going to Bible College, and I think that would be really interesting but then what can I do at the end of the course? Will a be able to use that course to get a decent job? Will it help me in the future. I should have thought about this before I started my apprenticeship because all I can see now is that I've wasted 2 years doing NOTHING and that's going to get my NOWHERE. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 10/04/2006 11:25:00 AM Lets talk about things when we get together on Thursday. I've had some thoughts for a while, but not wanted to push you in any particular direction so you had freedom to hear God for yourself. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 10/04/2006 08:38:00 PM You haven't spent two years doing nothing. You have spent two years earning the money to support yourself whilst growing up & learning an awful lot about life. You are in a very different place now, on many different levels, than you were two years ago. None of the last two years has been wasted, and you will have learnt all sorts of things to equip you for your future.
I know you wish that you could have gone straight in to whatever you finally decide is right for you when you 1st left school, but you weren't ready for it then. Now you are. You need have no regrets. ----- -------- TITLE: :'( AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/30/2006 12:54:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I don't want him to go but I know he'll love it whilst he's down there. I'm going to miss him so much :'( Sue say's I've got to look at it like; he's only going to be away for 10 weeks and then he'll be back, and I will see him inbetween that. Just wish I could follow him down there. I don't want it to be the last night here with him for a long while. I don't want it to be tomorrow that Dan's going to Uni. I want to pause time. :'( ----- -------- TITLE: Well as you can gather, AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/29/2006 11:23:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm back from St Lucia :-) Will blog properly when I get back from taking Dan to Portsmouth :'-( Please pray for him that he settle's in and everything gets off really well, and please pray for me. (Sorry that it sounds selfish). "Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version)

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." - i need to keep reminding myself this. ----- -------- TITLE: Caribbean and missing home AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/24/2006 12:14:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It's amazing out here, but boiling hot! I'm working really hard so can't really be long at all. I'm missing everyone. Love to all xXx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 9/24/2006 11:01:00 AM Sorry I wasn't online, I was at work till 12:30 my love :(

I cant wait to see you

I love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 9/24/2006 11:52:00 AM Hey, it's great to hear from you, however briefly. Thinking of you,
Love Chris ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 9/28/2006 12:06:00 PM Welcome home already.

:-)

Toni ----- -------- TITLE: :'( AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/17/2006 03:35:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: don't feel to great today. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 9/22/2006 02:09:00 PM Hi Kita, I know you probably won't get this until you are back, but I hope you have a great time in St Lucia. Thinking of you,
Love Chris ----- -------- TITLE: *sings 'Everything' by Tim Hughes* AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/15/2006 09:55:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: "God in my living There in my breathing God in my waking God in my sleeping God in my resting There in my working God in my thinking God in my speaking Chorus: Be my everything Be my everything Be my everything Be my everything Verse 2: God in my hoping There in my dreaming God in my watching God in my waiting God in my laughing There in my weeping God in my hurting God in my healing Bridge: Christ in me Christ in me Christ in me the hope of glory You are everything Christ in me Christ in me Christ in me the hope of glory Be my everything" I'm listening to Dans' CD from Soul Survivor, worshipping (or as others would call it screaming) and tidying the room at the same time. Is cool :-) Mum came to visit me today, after work, which was very cool. She hadn't seen my room since I put everything in it etc. She chatted to Jackie and also bought some my jewellery for a pressie for a friend. Just nice to chat and catch-up basically. Same with Grandma and Grandad at lunch, it was just nice chatting to them and spending time with them. It's really strange, as soon as I get along well with 1 side of the family, it mucks up with the other side. I'm OK with Mum's side at the moment and not with Dad. But then 2 weeks ago I wasn't OK with Mum's side but good with Dad. I don't get it. It would be lovely, for just once, I could get along with both sides of the family and they get on with each other as well. I pray that one day that will happen. That there will be no anger towards either side of the families, that no-one will hold grudges and that only peace and love will be there. I pray that they come to know God and know how amazing His love is. I pray that they will draw closer to him everyday. Back to worshipping :-) ----- -------- TITLE: Grandma and Grandad AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/15/2006 11:13:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Have just come in the office to say have a great time in St Lucia and they gave me $173 USD!!! I can't believe it! I never thought they'd give me THAT much money! (Grandad told me on Monday he'd pop in with some spending money for me, I thought it would be able $20! not $173!!) Wow! *edit* I've just bumped into them by accident when I went on my lunch break. They asked it I'd had lunch yet (which I hadn't) so they took me to Mamma Mia Pizzeria! It was really cool, chatting to them for an hour, I really enjoyed it :-) ----- -------- TITLE: As I arrived into work early AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/14/2006 08:37:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I thought I'd take the opportunity to blog. Paul's not in work yet; the traffic has been really bad in Oxford/Summertown the past couple of days. Because it rained quite heavily last night it's even worse. Don't really know what to say. I've been really busy working and then at Vickers aswell. Got paid £42.50 last night so it's not too bad. (*mental reminder* I have to get the money into US dollars soon.) Might see Mum tomorrow night depending on what time she finishes work and what time I'm babysitting Frankie. Paul's arrived at work now so I better get offline. Hope everyone has a good day. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 9/14/2006 02:47:00 PM Looking forward to seeing you soon lass. ----- -------- TITLE: Work & life in general AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/13/2006 02:25:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Seems to be traveling very fast at the moment. I worked at Uniglobe yesterday and Vickers at night and I got home at 11:00pm after setting off for Uniglobe at 08:00am. Today I'm doing the same except I hope I don't finish as late as last night, even though the money would be nice. (BTW if you don't want a big talk with me about Dad and money then please don't mention those two words). I would feel really low and depressed at the moment but I can't be arsed to feel that way. I'm going along the lines of "I don't give a damn, I'm going to be in the Caribbean in 6 days. I won't care about work/Vickers/Dad/money/family etc when I get out there". I really wish I could either stop time, or fast-forward/rewind it. Like, I would love to stop time and stop everything around me, sit back and take a deep breath, count to ten, and start the day again. Or, I would love to stop time and the only things that wouldn't stop is me and Dan so we can spend a whole day together, without worrying about anything and the thought (for me) that Portsmouth is just over 2 weeks away. (By the time I get back from St Lucia, Dan will be going in 3 days). Or, I would love to fast-forward time, make Uniglobe go really quickly, get Vickers over and done with and then, sleep. I really need it. Oh and a nice cold glass of Orange juice just before bed :-) That would be heaven :-) I have got £25.78p to my name at the moment. It's great. Not. that's got to get me through, this week, and Monday of next week. That's also all the spending money I've got for St Lucia. Great isn't it! (Looks like I won't be shopping while I'm out there, like it says on the itinerary below). Sorry for the whole rant in this post. As you can probably tell, I'm not in the happiest of moods. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 9/13/2006 05:18:00 PM Huggles, lots of.

Love you Dan xxx ----- -------- TITLE: (if anyone's interested) Fam Trip to St Lucia AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/12/2006 09:48:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
GRAND FAM 19th – 26th September 2006 Escort Debbie Melchor, St Lucian Tourist Board Draft Itinerary
Tuesday 19th 06:45 Meet at the ticket desk in zone A at Gatwick South Terminal where Debbie Melchor will distribute your tickets. 09:00 Flight VS31 departs for St Lucia Arrive at Hewanorra Airport, St. Lucia. Met by SLTB staff Transfer to North of island Group check in to St Lucian by Rex Resorts Dinner at Papillion Wednesday 20th Breakfast 09.00 Site inspection of Rex Resort properties SLTB driver to collect Group from The Royal Arrive East Winds Inn for site inspection Leave East Winds Inn Arrive Windjammer for site inspection and lunch Depart Windjammer Arrive Coco Palm for site inspection Depart Coco Palm Return to St Lucian by Rex Resorts 19.30 Meet in reception for dinner at The Oriental Thursday 21st Breakfast 09.00 Check out of St Lucian by Rex Resorts SLTB driver to collect group and luggage Arrive Club St Lucia for site inspection Depart Club St Lucia Arrive Sandals Grande for site inspection and lunch Depart Sandals Grande Arrive the BodyHoliday@LeSport Depart TheBodyHoliday@LeSport Arrive Discovery @ Marigot Bay and check in 19.30 Meet in reception for dinner Friday 22nd Breakfast 08.00 Check out of Discovery at Marigot Bay Site inspection of Discovery at Marigot Bay SLTB driver to collect Group and luggage Arrive Castries Market – Arts & Crafts Shopping Depart Castries Market Arrive Pointe Seraphine – Duty Free shopping Depart Pointe Seraphine Arrive Rendezvous for site inspection and lunch Depart Rendezvous Arrive Sandals Halcyon for site inspection Depart Sandals Halcyon Arrive Almond for site inspection then check in to hotel 19.45 SLTB driver to collect group from Almond Arrive for dinner at Club St Lucia Depart Club St Lucia for Gros Islet Street Party Saturday 23rd Breakfast 08.45 Meet in reception for Seminar 09:00 Seminar begins End of Seminar Depart Almond for lunch at Coco Palm Lunch at Coco Palm - Ti Bannane Restaurant SLTB driver to collect group from Coco Palm and take agents for relaxation afternoon SLTB driver pick up group and return to Almond Morgan Bay 19.30 Dinner at Almond Morgan Bay Visit Rodney Bay night life - Optional Sunday 24th Breakfast 08.30 Check-out of Almond Morgan Bay & met by SLTB driver for transfer to south of the island. Arrive in Soufrière and go to Jalousie Plantation hotel for site inspection Depart Jalousie for Sulphur Springs for ‘mud bath’ Depart Sulphur Springs Arrive Anse Chastanet for lunch and site inspection Afternoon spent jungle biking or snorkeling Transfer to Coconut Bay and check in 19.30 Meet for dinner at Coconut Bay in hotel reception Monday 25th Breakfast 09:00 Site inspection of Coconut Bay Depart Coconut Bay for Zip Wire Ride in Dennery Arrive Latille Waterfall and Gardens Depart Latille Waterfall and Gardens Return to Coconut Bay Afternoon at Leisure 19:30 Meet in hotel reception for hosted dinner at Coconut Bay Tuesday 26th Breakfast Morning at your own leisure Check out of hotel 15.30 Met by SLTB for transfer to Airport 15.40 Arrive at Hewanorra Airport, Vieux Fort 17.20 Flight VS32 departs St. Lucia to London Gatwick Wednesday 27th 06.25 Arrive London Gatwick South Terminal
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni DATE: 9/12/2006 01:26:00 PM That sounds like such a rushed itinery - how will you cope? 3 hotels a day, and on Sunday you have an 8.30 am start, a mud bath AND biking or snorkeling.

Lucky bag. ;)

This really looks like fun. Hope you can have a great time. ----- -------- TITLE: *sigh* AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/10/2006 06:46:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I don't really know what to say, I've been at Grandma and Grandad's today with Dan. All my family were there. It was good but 'ok' at the same time. Good to see everyone, good to catch up, good to be part of the family. Then I feel really crap. I don't actually want to go into it. I've realised it's not my whole family that I don't get on with and don't connect with, it's just my mum. On a completely different note; why do catholics call the pope 'the Holy Father'? Surely that's God not the pope? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 9/10/2006 09:00:00 PM you'll always be a part of my family. And it's a REALLY big family.

And it's the best. ----- -------- TITLE: ** SAD NEWS ** AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/09/2006 11:54:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: With all the sadness and trauma going on in the world at the moment, it is worth reflecting on the death of a very important person, which almost went unnoticed last week. Larry LaPrise, the man who wrote "The Hokey Cokey" died peacefully at the age of 93. The most traumatic part for his family was getting him into the coffin. They put his left leg in - and then the trouble started... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 9/10/2006 12:49:00 PM LOL! ----- -------- TITLE: The happiest I've been in a long time :-) AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/08/2006 11:06:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I went to see Mum today, was really nice to see her etc. But what I really want to say is I got this most amazing letter from Grandma and Grandad :-) It's so good I'm going to blog it=
" My Dear Nikita, Grandad and I are on holiday in Scarborough - we are into our second week, which is unusual as er don't usually have this long at a stretch. The next few days we hope to go to the cricket and see Yorkshire play (we'll miss Zach, as he likes to see them). Shirley and Albert [Mum's God parents] are coming maybe tonight or tomorrow. You will be amazed to get a letter from me for no apparent reason!! I seem to have had you on my mind rather a lot lately. I do hear news of you from Debi [my mum] and she said you weren't happy working at Uniglobe, they were always a weird bunch. I hope you can get that sorted out. It's a shame to be miserable at work. What I really need to say is, that, I feel you have had a bad time that last few years (since the split up between your Mum and Dad) and I think that you felt that none of us supported you with it all. I think maybe you were right and that we did all fail you. We could see that Zach was very distressed, but you always put on a "couldn't care less" attitude and we all (mistakenly) thought it wasn't bothering you very much. I feel now, that we were very wrong -that you were very upset, that you positively felt let down by us all. If you did, then I for one, am very sorry. We ought to have realised what was going on, but we didn't!! All I can say is that we all love you so very much, I hope you have sorted yourself out and managed to come to terms with all the issues. We'll always be there for you and support you in whatever you do. We are also very proud of you (even if you haven't got loads of A-levels) we still think you've done very well and turned out a lovely, lovely person. So be happy Nikita, remember that you are very much loved. Good luck in changing your job. See you soon. (Hope you had a good holiday). Please tell Dan we were pleased that he got the results he needed. What a tough time he's had -and how very well he's doing -You've got a "good lad" there Nikita [my Great Grandad used to say 'good lad', he lived in Yorkshire]. Love to all Grandma and Grandad xxx"
I can't wait to see them on Sunday (even though I was dreading it!!) I'm going to run up to them and give them the BIGGEST hug ever. I'm crying I'm so happy :'-) *edit* I was thinking about this last night, this letter is all I've ever wanted to hear from my family :-) I am the happiest I've been in a long time :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 9/09/2006 09:13:00 PM WOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!! Yay happy for you!! ----- -------- TITLE: Prayer for today AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/08/2006 08:37:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Lord please guide me today, stop me speaking out before I think and help me keep a level head. Please help me not to get angry at work and help me do my work as if it were for you. “Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.” (Psalm 143:10) ----- -------- TITLE: rant- sorry AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/06/2006 11:06:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: had a really bad day. Stressed, family problems & work is really crap ATM. Don't want to open up much. Don't want to post a rant online. Struggling with stuff going on in my head. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: liv DATE: 9/07/2006 02:34:00 PM mamamamamamamamamamamamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ----- -------- TITLE: Blogger Beta AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/05/2006 12:58:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Dunno what difference it makes. I've just changed my blogger account to Blogger Beta. Hmmpf... no difference really. (well none that I notice.) ----- -------- TITLE: Soul Survivor 2006 AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/04/2006 11:08:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Lex Buckley singing :-) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N879PQBzO-Q ----- -------- TITLE: Dreams/nightmares. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 9/04/2006 10:19:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I seem to be having very strange dreams ATM. I woke up this morning in a sweat and had a dry throat etc. I had another nightmare. I dreamt that I was walking home from the shops in Woodstock and I took a wrong turn because there was a man following me and I was trying to loose him. I turned a corner and he grabbed me and told me that he wanted me to be quiet or I'd get hurt. I screamed as load as I could. There were 2 girls along the road we had turned down that I knew from yr 11 at school. Marianne and Kayleigh. I was never really good friends with them but we were always nice to each other. So when I screamed this guy ran away, but he had a limp. I phoned the police telling hem of what he's done and I said I didn't want it happening to anyone else. The police said, go home, get an hot chocolate and we'll be road shortly. So I tired and Marianne and Kayleigh said they would come with me. So I tried to find out where I actually was but I couldn't find m way either back to the shops or to the Woodstock house. I was completely lost and very scared. Basically the dream ended by me getting well and truly lost and not being ale to find my way home, Marianne and Kayleigh left me and it was dark. Normally in scary dream, everything gets sorted out in the end, but this one it didn't :-( Don't know why I'm blogging this. Just wanted to get it off my chest, I think. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 9/04/2006 11:26:00 PM Not sure what to say exactly, although there are various ways this could be understood.

Will keep praying for you lass.

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: The Sun'll Come Out Tomorrow... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/31/2006 12:43:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: (Frankie's watching Annie on TV). Had a really good time in Cornwall, we did loads of stuff, like we went to Lands End, St Ives & Newquay. I shopped, walked, ran up & down sand dunes :-) Just had a good time with Mum, Stu, Dan, Zach, Gabrielle, Jordan, and friends. (Thinks: wow I've got a big immediate family!) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 8/31/2006 11:00:00 PM Glad you had a good time lass. look forward to seeming you soon.

:) ----- -------- TITLE: dreaming AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/26/2006 12:47:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I had a really weird dream this morning/last night. I can hardly remember it but it wasn't nice. I dreamt that there was a big gathering with all my friends and family and everyone that was close to me in a big hall. It was a play but the actual play was a suprise to me because it was my birthday or something. Livi was there, telling me to sit and read the script before I saw the play. She passed me this big A3 size scrap book and said "this is what the play's about." It was my life, all in this scrapbook. Pictures that I drew when I was little, stories my friends etc had told, photographs etc. But the thing that worried me was that EVERYTHING was in there. things that I haven't told everyone. Personal things that I didn't want the whole room to know. Actors where standing on stage and telling everyone I knew about every single part of my life. And I hated it. I am so ashamed of my life etc and I wish I had made better choices, taken people's advise (mainly mum's) and I wish I could change it. But I couldn't and everyone in that room now knew everything about me. Maybe it was a prompt to tell Mum and Dad things. But in the dream, when they read out about me & Mum, Mum's side of the family turned their backs on me and called me a liar. And I'm scared that if I tell them that is what will happen with all of my family and friends. Stupid dreams. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Rach DATE: 8/27/2006 08:39:00 PM Well its only a dream so you don't need to worry. Hope you enjoy Cornwall. See you when you get back. Oh this is my new blog shock horror: http://rach4me.blogspot.com/ ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 8/29/2006 12:41:00 AM Thinking of you -hope Cornwall IS good for you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 8/31/2006 07:57:00 PM so you may have chosen to do some wrong things, or had them put upon you, but they'res so much to see and do in life, so whats wrong with taking a few back streets instead? ----- -------- TITLE: Happy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/25/2006 05:03:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy :-D because I'm going here= St Lucia ----- -------- TITLE: hmmpf... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/25/2006 08:39:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: not having a particularly great time at the moment. Just generally unhappy with most things which kinda sucks. Just suppose the 30th Sept is coming up too soon. This week has gone so fast and now it's only 35 days time 'til he goes to Portsmouth :-( Karl says we're going down when Dan's on freshers fortnight which should be good. And I'm (fingers crossed) going down with Sue and Dave when they drop him off and settle him into his new room etc. I'm still going to miss him so much. I hate being in Woodstock when he's in Shipton! What's it going to be like when he's 3hrs train ride away!! This is what I'm most scared about TBH. I love Dan so much and I really want our relationship to last but I'm so scared. ~ I'm looking forward to tonight, we're just going to chill in his room, watch a DVD and chat. Things that we haven't done in a long time. I can't wait just to spend some time with only him. ATM we're always around people and I find it really hard to talk etc when it's like that, so I can't wait to just talk and talk and talk with Dan tonight :-) :-) I love Dan :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 8/25/2006 11:27:00 AM Aaw I love you to and whilst I perhaps don't say it that often I'm scared as well, I love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/25/2006 01:20:00 PM just checking emails and this came into my inbox=
Love and the Pain of Leaving

Every time we make the decision to love someone, we open ourselves to great suffering, because those we most love cause us not only great joy but also great pain. The greatest pain comes from leaving. When the child leaves home, when the husband or wife leaves for a long period of time or for good, when the beloved friend departs to another country or dies ... the pain of the leaving can tear us apart.

Still, if we want to avoid the suffering of leaving, we will never experience the joy of loving. And love is stronger than fear, life stronger than death, hope stronger than despair. We have to trust that the risk of loving is always worth taking.

:-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 8/25/2006 02:28:00 PM That made me smile :D ----- -------- TITLE: At 'home' AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/21/2006 08:48:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Haven't been here in a while. *sings* "wonewy oh so wonewy" (from Team America for those who don't know) Jackie & Sarah have gone to the gym, Dan's with Karl, Andy and co at Mariannes house (please excuse spelling of her name!!) and Zach's out. Rach's having her tea and I have no credit on my phone to call Livi. I don't like being alone. Especially straight after Soul Survivor when everyone was around me and you couldn't get any space at all, it's one extreme to the other. I'm missing Olivia loads, prob coz I shared a tent with her and she's the bestest buddy in the world!! :-P ... bored. This time last week I was singing (if you can call it that!) and praising God. Now I'm eating white chocolate and reading my Bible. I'm going to make myself a notebook of my fav quotes from the Bible and carry it round so when I'm low or need to know how much God loves me I can grab it out of my notebook. Thought that was quite a cool idea. Message to Toni sorry I missed you off the blogroll when I redesigned my page, you're on there now! I didn't realise 'til I went to find you on my links!! SORRY!! I don't feel like a meal but Jackie's cooked me some pasta sauce, all I have to do it cook the pasta but I don't feel like eating anything. (Even though I've just had a Milkybar! haha) I miss Mum. I miss Zach. I miss Soul Survivor. I miss my extended family. I miss my teddy bear (bit different but never mind!!) Life drags on.... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 8/22/2006 12:23:00 PM Awww!!! I missed everyone when I got back too. It was so weird being alone in my room. Not having a giant tent to go to. Not having to decide what to have for lunch or if anyone's washed up. Not having other Christians around to discuss God or the Bible or praying or worship.

I got lonely at night (even though we didn't really talk at night, except for the wasp incident...) and in a way sleeping in a bed was worse than sleeping on the floor because I could move around more.

Prank me next time! I have about 10 hours of free mins so I can call you! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 8/22/2006 05:36:00 PM am i part of your extended family? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 8/23/2006 05:42:00 PM Hey lass - sorry you've been feeling lonely.

I didn't even notice you'd de-rolled me. ----- -------- TITLE: We're back!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/19/2006 01:17:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and so tired. I can't wait for real food. AND EVEN BETTER I'VE GOT SUE'S COOKING!!! :-D Sofa's are so nice :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 8/19/2006 10:20:00 PM Welcome back - now presumably clean and well-fed again.


;¬) ----- -------- TITLE: Soul Survivor AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/17/2006 02:30:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: is great. I love God. HEHE!! having a great time. :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 8/18/2006 12:29:00 PM you woke me up! ----- -------- TITLE: Wow. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/15/2006 01:16:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: the first nigth was so weird. Like I got so scared about people screaming and crying etc after worship. OK let me explain; After worship we (well Mike, the leader) asked for the Holy Spirit to come etc and we had like a quiet/prayer time. People started crying and things and then some started screaming and wailing. It really really scared me but Mike kept saying 'its how some people release things to God' etc. I left the meeting. But I went to the meeting at Lunchtime today and Mike was talking about God's love. We prayed and he said that some people in this room find it really hard to face that God love's them eventhough they hate themselves. I have doen so much wrong in my life, I find it hard to face that Dan love's me never mind God!! I cried so much, I went up to the front and got prayed for etc. It's really weird. It was kinda like a release but then that's someone else's words in my mouth... I loved it. That's the only way I can explain it. I've got 2 min's left at the Cafe (it's taken me 8 mins to type this far!!) so I can't say much else. I really miss Toni and Chris right now, I wish I could hug them both (sending btoh of you cyber hugs). Speak soon pple. Byeeeeeeeee :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 8/17/2006 10:40:00 PM Consider yourself hugged then lovely Kita.

:) ----- -------- TITLE: bleugh! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/13/2006 07:41:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: As soon as I get back from church I went straight to bed, I'm really not feeling great. Sick, headachey and just generally ill. Not good for Soul Survivor. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 8/13/2006 09:27:00 PM we'll be ok. I was feeling bad this morning but I got better-ish.

We'll have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ----- -------- TITLE: Soul Survivor!!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/13/2006 01:33:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: WWWWOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I so can't wait. I'm pretty stressed out about it but I really can't wait. Please pray for us that it goes well :-) ----- -------- TITLE: At Toni & Chris' AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/10/2006 10:23:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and there's a HUGE spider at the top of the stairs. Chris went to get it and ran down the stair going "eeeeeeeewwwwwww!! aaarrrgghhh!!!" (Dan says, doing dance to match) LOL!! Toni's saved the day and caught it for us :-) And I'm sitting on Dan's knee, typing this blog! I CAN'T WAIT 'TIL SOUL SURVIVOR!!!! wwwwwwwwooooo!! :-D. byeeeeeeeeee ----- -------- TITLE: well, at least nothing's changed AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/03/2006 06:33:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: ... that's for sure. urmm.. what else, let's see: *sarcasticly shouts* "oh yay! how fun!" ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 8/03/2006 11:44:00 PM :D
:D
:D

[peterkay] how dare you [/peterkay] - i'm undergoing a massive redevelopment!

bollox!

i'm just sitting back and admiring the scenery in life at the mo - love watching the way people act and behave.

sure you dont want to elope to mexico dear?

Karl -x- ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 8/07/2006 09:35:00 AM i blogged....... ----- -------- TITLE: WOW!! :-D AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 8/02/2006 10:45:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I had such a great time in Dublin. I feel so much better :-D So HAPPY!! I will post some more when I've slept a while etc. I've got work tomorrow so over and out. ----- -------- TITLE: (Once again) Ups and Downs. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 7/29/2006 01:36:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Last night was good and bad at the same time. Hard to explain really. Once I forgot about being upset I danced/drank/danced some more and had a good time. Then whenever someone mentioned anything to do with mum etc I got really down. Mum + Stu were ment to be coming to Dan's Birthday meal on Sunday but I don't know if they're going to turn up. I spoke to Dad about it and he said just let her cool down but I want to ask if she's coming. I don't care now if she's annoyed/disapointed at/with me but I just would like my mum to be there. *sigh* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 7/29/2006 06:15:00 PM last night rocked.

so u were feeling a bit down when i asked.


bah - i didnt like leia anyway....... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 7/30/2006 11:34:00 AM ((hugs))
I don't know what else to say except I love you.
Chris ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 7/31/2006 11:28:00 AM you love me?

chris, i'm sorry i just couldnt ;)

karl -x- ----- -------- TITLE: I can't sleep AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 7/28/2006 12:48:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've just got a lump in my throat from crying. I'm at Dan's again tonight and I'm really glad, I know I should be at Jackie's but that's the whole point. It's not home, this is the nearest place I can get to a 'home'. *I'm stupidly crying again* I'm not liking it at Jackie's. The only way I can try and explain it is, it's like I'm/we're trying too hard to make it home that it's gone waaaay off the mark. I miss Buckingham. Family. Mum, Dad, me and Zach. A whole FAMILY. I don't have one anymore. It's broken. Never to be repaired. I get so jealous when I look at Sue, Dave, Dan, Chris and Frankie and how I wish so hard to be a part of it, it still feels like I'm a tag-a-long. I want a whole family. I want a place called home. I want to stop crying. I want sleep but I can't. . . (sorry for the two posts in one night) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 7/28/2006 11:20:00 AM You are loved but you can't feel it. I hope you take some time and search for the good inside of yourself and keep on trying to feel the love around you.

Just because your mum doesnt say so she is proud. the only reason you 2 argue (i can see) is she justs wants to push you to make sure you do better for yourself, and try not to make mistakes.

Well done for not doing anything silly.

I have noooo hangover today, not doing to bad eh?!?!

but i did get to work at gone 10 ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 7/28/2006 09:40:00 PM hey I live with my family and nobody seems to know what the hell's going on. I barely speak to my Dad, he never asks me anything about my life or what I'm up to or even how I am.
I bicker constantly with my Mum, partially to do with my illness though.
Michelle is a pain in the arse popular beauty-queen girly 15-yr-old bitch who thinks it's funny to be mean to me.

But I see where you're coming from and understand I don't really understand your life. But keep strong. You've got a very loving boyfriend, a bunch of crazy mates (the one above looks good!) and a Christian family who love you!!! xxxxx ----- -------- TITLE: Ups and down's AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 7/27/2006 11:41:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Had a really good time at Toni + Chris's tonight. Made me really happy to see them again as I've had a kinda difficult week (or two... or three...) Chatted about lots of stuff, like war and marriage! :-D ... Then I got a text from my mum saying why wasn't I at Grandma and Grandad's 'do' tonight that she told me about on Tuesday, that I told her I wasn't going to. The text is= "Grandma and Grandad were expecting you tonight but once again you failed to tell them. It was Grandad's bday so he was very disapointed more so coz you hadn't bothered to let him know" (*thinks* how was I supposed to know??) So I text= "But I told you. Surely you could have told them seeing as it was you that invited me, not them" So she texted back saying "What! you mean that a text at 5:30pm! I told you to let them know and you knew that. Don't blame others for being selfish." Great. now I feel shit again. Seriously, I have been feeling so crap the past couple of weeks. Coz of work, family, the weight of Dan going to Portsmouth etc, sometimes I wishI could just ...I dunno. TBH I want to cut myself again, but I know I would hurt more people than I would myself. I went round to mum's on tuesday... was good and very bad at the same time. Had a row coz I was so upset that she's not there for me when I need her etc. Then we just carried on as normal, as if nothing had happened and talked about Stu, and my old room being refurbished etc. She's really upsetting me ATM, all I want is her to be there for me not have a go at me for not turning up to some thing I got told about 2 days before and I already had plans. I really just want a hug from her and for her to tell me she cares for me and loves me and is proud of me moving out and getting my NVQ etc. Dan's family and T+C have been so great, supporting me and loving me etc but I want my mum... *I'm crying* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 7/28/2006 09:33:00 AM {{Hugs}} Sorry my love cant think of anything better to say but to give you a hug, I love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 7/28/2006 11:21:00 AM You are loved but you can't feel it. I hope you take some time and search for the good inside of yourself and keep on trying to feel the love around you.

Just because your mum doesnt say so she is proud. the only reason you 2 argue (i can see) is she justs wants to push you to make sure you do better for yourself, and try not to make mistakes.

Well done for not doing anything silly.

I have noooo hangover today, not doing to bad eh?!?!

but i did get to work at gone 10 ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 7/28/2006 09:32:00 PM Sod your mother (sorry, but it's how I feel in a harsh way). And don't hang out with me if you want cheering up unless you want silly impressions and tales of big hairy gayness. And nobody wants that!

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» ----- -------- TITLE: See his love- Tom Lockley AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 7/09/2006 05:05:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: See His love nailed to a cross Perfect and blameless life given as sacrifice See Him there all in the name of Love Broken yet glorious, all for the sake of us This is Jesus in His Glory King of heaven, dying for me It is finished, He has done it Death is beaten, Heaven beckons me Greater love no one could ever show Mercy so undeserved, freedom I should not know All my sin, all of my hidden shame Died with Him on the cross, eternity won for us Such love, such love Such love is this for me. We sang this at the Celebration this morning. Such a cool song :-D (And Olivia loves it!!) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 7/11/2006 12:14:00 PM :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 7/22/2006 03:42:00 AM hey i just came across your blog looking for this song..do you happen to know where i could find a copy of it because i sing it in my church and i would really enjoy a copy of it ----- -------- TITLE: I'm still here! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 7/06/2006 11:48:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and still at Uniglobe. My apraisal went ok, I didn't ask for a pay rise but I wish I had done. Got a few pointers on how to improve, Jo was a bitch but Alex and Mandy were really nice :-) It's my day off today, Dans going to be back in about 20 mins and we're going to see Pirates of the Caribbean 2 (yay!!) and then going to the doctors :-( but anyways, I'm goind to get some breakie now (yes I know the time this has been my first proper sleep in about 2.5 weeks!) Oh and sorry if I don't update much I can't go on 'personal' sites at work. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 7/06/2006 07:41:00 PM That's fine lass, thanks for letting us know you're OK. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 7/07/2006 11:39:00 AM Personal? Stop dating and buying herbal viagra. They keep trying to sell me the stuff. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 7/09/2006 10:18:00 PM it rocked eh, great film ----- -------- TITLE: Worried about tomorrow AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 7/03/2006 04:29:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: but had quite a cool weekend. Karl picked me up from work, we went to the pub with John, Andy & Amy to watch the footie. Shame we lost but oh well, (IMO it's a game!!! I wish I could have shouted that out in the pub when people were crying that we lost but ho-hum). Then spent the weekend at Dans, went swimming with Frankie before church and managed to grab a few hours of the sunlight that I see everyone in but can't be in myself. Then churched (on my own (ish) may I add!!) Now I'm back at work again and really worried about tomorrow. I've got my appraisal with Mandy and Jo. I feel kinda sick with worry. Chantall in the Bristol office said I should ask for a pay rise because of passing both my exams, but I just think they're going to complain about how I'm doing a crap job here and not pulling my weight :-/ What kind of questions do they ask? What do I have to say? Is it like a parents evening but without parnets to back you up etc? (*thinks* well mine always were digging at each other when they met at parents evening but they did agree that I should try harder etc) I really don't know what to do. Am I having it in the office so Paul, Stacey (work experience girl) and customers can hear us? If not, where?? Is Jo asking me questions? ARRGH! I don't know what to do!! :-S ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 7/03/2006 05:36:00 PM Hi Kita - just found your post - how was it?

It's great meeting the people here, but I miss you too. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 7/03/2006 07:03:00 PM Just realised - today is Monday - appraisal Tuesday? Darn jet lag!

Will pray for you lass. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 7/03/2006 07:15:00 PM FWIW an appraisal *should not* introduce anything that you haven't heard before, and *should* be an opportunity for you to talk about how you feel and see your job.

That's the theory, anyway.

It also ought to be conducted in complete confidentiality so that you're able to speak freely. No-one should be talking to you about your career with other employees listening in. Whetherthat happens is another matter, but if your comapny has even a shred of professionalism then that's how it should be. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 7/04/2006 10:59:00 AM huggles!!! let me know how it goes.

havent updated for a while i bebusy n not on blogs v much

love ooooooooooo

ps i havea james!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 7/04/2006 06:49:00 PM Hi Kita, I hope it went well. It is still Tuesday morning here (just) but the working day must be over for you as you are 7 hours ahead. That seems so strange!

Shortly we are off to Sakatoon to find a craft shop (among other things)!

Take care
Love Chris ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 7/05/2006 03:52:00 PM Come on, come on, we're like anxious parents now!

How are you, how did it go? Are you still there or have the teddies well and truly left the building and you're looking for another job (jk).

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: bbbbooooorrrrrreeeeedddddd AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/29/2006 03:15:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: so bored at work. bored Life sucks bla bla bla so bored. Even forums and blogs are boring because no-one updates them. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pugwash DATE: 6/29/2006 03:30:00 PM If you are that bored why don't you have a read of a developing short story called 'Still a million miles from you...'

Go to the profile page on my blogsite, and click on the fiction50 dialogue at the bottom of the screen.

Have a read and then give me your critique! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/29/2006 03:31:00 PM the musical mode froum is busy check that ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 7/01/2006 02:35:00 PM RAZZZZ!

Hi lovely Kita - from a tired, sleepy and daft Toni here in sweaty Canada. I've been up since 5am (don't ask!) and it's presently 7.30am - 7 hours behind.

If you have a chance, don't let your victims - I mean customers - fly Air Canada. Especially via Toronto.

:~(

Anyway, have a hug from me. Say Hi to Dan for me too.

TTFN and chin up lass. ----- -------- TITLE: Really busy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/29/2006 10:09:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I have been so busy with rubbish stuff at work (like all the filling etc). Sorry I haven't been emailing/texting/phoning people back. I forgot and then when I remember I can't get to my phone/computor etc. I'll update properly soon. p.s. big hug to dan for doing the laptop last night. p.p.s. big hugs for the Ertl family as they're traveling to Canada today to see Randall and co :) my prayers are with you all. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/29/2006 10:26:00 AM dont offer hugs to anyone else then :P xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/29/2006 10:34:00 AM hugs to you too Jon!! :)
((hugs)) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/29/2006 10:56:00 AM Score :P ----- -------- TITLE: Chest pain again AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/27/2006 03:46:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: And it's really not very nice. Each time I get it it's worse than the last. But the Dr's keep saying there's nothing I can take etc apart from taking paracetamol every 4-5 hours etc. Which is pathetic coz I want it to stop not just numb the pain. ouchy this hurts. and it's not the first time. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/27/2006 05:02:00 PM prehaps its something you will have to grow out of, in the mean time looks like u will just have to put up with it :-( ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 6/27/2006 07:22:00 PM I had thought it had gone, but obviously not. Hope you feel better soon - we'll have to have a think (and pray) about this.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 6/28/2006 11:12:00 AM Ditto ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 6/28/2006 02:30:00 PM sorry life sucks. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: rach DATE: 6/28/2006 03:49:00 PM Hey talking about the doctors have you been about your moles yet? Coz it is better to be safe than sorry!

Yer and I think Jon couldbe right that is prob's something you will grow out of, but sorry to hear they have started again!

Rach X ----- -------- TITLE: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/26/2006 02:36:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Sometimes I just want to quit this crap job. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 6/26/2006 04:31:00 PM {{HUGS}} ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 6/26/2006 04:36:00 PM y? hug. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 6/26/2006 06:57:00 PM You're learning.

That's why you're there.

Handling the crap bits is part of the training that you're getting.

Sorry for when it stinks. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Rach DATE: 6/27/2006 02:17:00 PM Sorry to hear that.

Do you wanna meet up thursday, coz i have finished my exams thought we could do some beading, coz my new beads should be through by then : )!

Rach XX ----- -------- TITLE: haha!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/24/2006 02:37:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: SCIENTIST: God, we dont need you! GOD: Is that so? SCIENTIST: Yeah it is, cos we can do everything you can do? GOD? Meaning? SCIENTIST: Well, we can create life from nothing, just like you did. GOD: Really? SCIENTIST: Yes, we can "breathe life" just the same as you did , so we dont need you! GOD: Can you give me a demonsration? SCIENTIST: OK!(scientist bows down and starts compacting mounds of earth into a shape of a man) GOD:Hey! Get your own soil son... Just had to laugh at this :D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/24/2006 04:28:00 PM o...k :P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 6/25/2006 04:47:00 PM ha ha ha, that's excellent!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/25/2006 06:13:00 PM well surley the scientists could make there own soil out of compost....soooo ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/25/2006 06:24:00 PM but God created the compost, the vegeables and grass that compost is made oout of. Then surely they can't make soil... ----- -------- TITLE: Woodstock AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/17/2006 11:01:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It's been great for me so far. I love living in my own place. It's still kinda weird, like I ask Jackie if I can get a piece of fruit or something but that'll come over time. My Dad came and saw the room etc yesterday and I am sooooo happy!! It's so nice that both Mum and Dad can visit me in the same house, even though it's not at the same time, it's still lovely. It was Dee's (my step-mum) birthday on Wednesday so I gave Dad a necklace that I'd made. It's so usefull being able to make birthday pressies! Anyways I've got to get back to work, I wish I was outside sunbathing like most people are doing today. Oh well, woodstock carnival tonight. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 6/20/2006 11:15:00 PM i'll send you some risk assesments if ya like, and steal some h+s about our office.

i'll email it

karl ----- -------- TITLE: College Work AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/16/2006 10:27:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:

I'm spending most of my workdays doing college work at the moment and I am getting no help what-so-ever from my 'mentor'-Jo.

I've just asked her to help me with our Health and Safety policy at work. She said we don't have one, so I asked the MD (Fred) and he rang Jo and said "we've got a poster at the back of the office, that's our policy".

It says in the poster (which may I add is titled: 'What you should know about Health and Safety Law') -If there are five or more employees; draw up a health and safety policy statement.

I brought this to Jo’s attention and asked her what I should do.

(and I quote) "Ever since I’ve been working here all I’ve been told is that I’m responsible for the health and safety of the office and I haven’t been shown anything. Just use your noddle and make it up".

Thanks Jo, that helped a lot. Not.

Can any of you guys help me out?

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 6/16/2006 10:39:00 PM Yes.

We'll talk. ----- -------- TITLE: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/16/2006 09:23:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I just feel numb. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 6/16/2006 11:44:00 AM {{HUGS}} ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 6/16/2006 11:46:00 AM email jon? xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 6/16/2006 10:45:00 PM You were VERY tired last night - that can't be helping. I've noticed that when I get too tired I am also more likely to feel down. It can be difficult as I don't like being in bed, but I'm beginning to re-assert self discipline and self control with bed times etc.

Message to Dan - you can help here too. Not many people can be like us, staying up 'till 1 or 2 (or later) and putting a full days work in AND another late night. Chris needs 7 1/2 hours every night just to be 'OK'. I think she'd do 10 hours a night given the choice.

FWIW we went to bed about 10.35, lights out around 11.10, I finally slept around 1ish and woke at 4.30.

:(

Guess I have had a decent amount of sleep recently. ----- -------- TITLE: Exam results!! woooooo!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/09/2006 08:55:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I got two distinctions!!! I passed both of them with the highest marks so I am sooooooo happy!!!! :-D Me, Dan & Livi went to T,C + B's last night for our 'Thursday 4' meeting. It was so nice to catch up with everyone, I love being there, it's just a really nice/lovely feeling when you walk in etc :-) Oh and I just wanted to quote a verse from Romans 8 because it's Chris's favourite verse and I managed to find it yesterday evening.
'For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.'
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 6/10/2006 01:16:00 PM As no-one else has posted it yet - congrats (again).

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 6/10/2006 06:37:00 PM Well done.

(((Kita)))

Krazy ----- -------- TITLE: Work + Exams = ARRRGGHGH!!!!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/08/2006 09:00:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Yeah I've got two exams today. Starting at 11:00am. My new assessor is coming to meet me aswell as her boss to do my exams and coursework etc. Bet I get loads of work that the crappy old assessor didn't give me. I've got a busy day so I'm going to crack on with my revision till I have to serve a customer. Hope everyone's enjoying the weather, wish I could. It looks gorgeous today :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 6/08/2006 09:25:00 AM Good luck my love xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 6/08/2006 10:32:00 AM Good luck hon. I'm sure you'll do brilliantly.

Krazy ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jon DATE: 6/08/2006 11:04:00 AM goooood luck ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 6/08/2006 11:11:00 PM Suprise for tomorrow morning, well done on your results my love xxx ----- -------- TITLE: It feels so much better to blog AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/07/2006 09:41:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I haven't blogged for a while and I can't wait to release everything onto this blog. ~ I've put on quite a bit of weight since last year or even over the past couple of months but I'm comfortable with it. It's not as if I'm fat or anything. But I went back home yesterday (mums place) and Zach told me to exercise and loose your belly. Mum told me that Stu had said that I'd put on a lot of weight. People in general are just telling me to loose weight BUT I DON'T WANT TO. Yes I need to loose the little bit of over-hang on my belly but I'm going to start biking when I get chance with Dan. I am going to start exercising more but that's just to keep fit not to loose a huge amount of weight. Oh and also I HATED THE FIRST NIGHT AT MY NEW PLACE. I was soooooo looking forward to it. Really excited and it felt like a completely new start, no 'past' to hold me down, new place=new start etc etc. And I hated it. Just because there was no 'friendly' face there I knew, it didn't feel like... I dunno. It kinda didn't feel 'right' but I knew it did at the same time. It is getting easier. I slept like a baby last night but only because I talked to Dan. I am missing people so much. Like Toni and Chris I can't wait till tomorrow so I can see you both again coz I'm missing you both like mad!! I'm missing company more than anything. Last week was amazing, I loved waking up at Dans house and just the 'family' atmosphere, with Chris grumbling coz he didn't want to get out of bed and Sue shouting at him and Frankie to get up etc. I just miss it. I got up yesterday morning and this morning in silence. No-one speaks because there is hardly anyone to talk to. Apart from Jackie but she's busy sorting herself out, drinking coffee and feeding the cat. Sarah-Louise is either asleep still of is leaping around trying to find her college work and essays to hand in. But no-one talks makes big conversations. I miss my mum and Dan most of all. Just because I am so used to them being around me and now they're not. Well I know if I ring either of them up they would be round in an instant (- thankyou Dan for yesterday eve). I'm supposed to be there for a reason but as yet I can't see it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 6/07/2006 11:17:00 AM Thats ok my love,

{{HUG}}

Mwa xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 6/07/2006 01:10:00 PM sounds tough.
I can't wait to see you. Human contact is something I'm seriously lacking ATM as I'm at home for study leave.

And I don't have anyone to call who'd shoot round in an instant to see me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 6/07/2006 07:10:00 PM Oh Kita - we'd have loved you to be with us. Maybe you could start coming to circuit training with us here in Somerton on Wednesday nights? 7.15-8.30ish, then dinner with us after?

Good idea about the getting fitter too.

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: Long time, no posting. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 6/02/2006 09:27:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:

I've had a really busy (but fun) week.

But anyways I have been busy.Will update properly soon. ----- -------- TITLE: Moving out tonight AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/30/2006 01:30:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: (Please excuse all the typo's in this blog, I've got a plaster on my finger!-paper cut! lol) whoooooooooooooooooooo!!! Im moving out tonight! Thankyou to everyone who has helped me pack/clean/move in general. And thnakyou to those who have offered etc! Speak soon ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 5/30/2006 08:29:00 PM get in my belly! ----- -------- TITLE: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/24/2006 11:26:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Why can't I ever find a place called home? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/25/2006 08:31:00 AM Kita - I truly wish for better things for you, and I think you WILL find a home. I wish WE could make things better for you.

Let me remind you of a bible verse:
13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14 People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15 If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.

Hebrews 11.

FWIW it's normal to not feel completely at home here, even when you're settled and married in your own home.

Is there anything we can do to help with your move/preparation? We're around this evening if you want more hands or anything. You've done so well lass, and come so far. Life is still changing, but your growing and moving on and that's really uncomfortable sometimes.

Just wishing I could help. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 5/26/2006 12:12:00 PM Home is deep within and where those you love are within reach.
Stay patient and the home within you will grow. ----- -------- TITLE: I've just realised AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/23/2006 05:02:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I have no ambition. All I want to do in life is A) marry Dan and build a family with him B) do Charity work and C) build a stronger relationship with God. Thats it. I don't have a clue what I want to do in a job. I don't know what line of work I want to get into. I know I want to learn more things but what? I haven't a clue. But I'm still young. 'Suppose I can just get older and see what happens. *edit* I was on the bus this morning, half asleep. Just thinking about the future and I've got so many questions that can't be answered. Like am I ever going to be able to afford a nice house like the ones on the Banbury Road? Or Will I still be in this job this time next year? Will I ever be able to speak fluent German? Will I have children in the future? So many things I want to ask and be answered. Seems strange that I can't know the answer till they happen. Would life be boring if you knew what would happen next? Or do you think it's good to be prepared? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 5/24/2006 01:01:00 PM :)

Life would be boring if you knew what happened next as nothing could be unexpected/new/exciting.

Love you

Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 5/24/2006 02:10:00 PM I have no future. I think my exam results will confirm that for me!

We can be hopeless people together. I have those similar ambition (serve God, have Dan's, sorry, someone's kids...) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 5/28/2006 09:42:00 PM 1) I think those are pretty good ambitions.

2) We would never cope with knowing the future. (God gives grace for today, not for tomorrow, next week, next year). ----- -------- TITLE: Yesterday AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/22/2006 09:09:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I just wanted to say a specail thankyou to Sue Hadland for yesterday. She just talked to me and really helped me understand a few things, helped me get things right in my head. *hugs* I also wanted to say thanks Livi and Louis for all the hugs yesterday. Sorry I'm being really, like, petty (for lack of the 'right' word). My prayers are still with Toni, Chris, Ben, Dan and the rest of both of their families. ----- -------- TITLE: Summertown Street Festival! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/20/2006 10:14:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It's today! I completely forgot. We've got a 50's rock n roll band outside work, balloons everywhere and a Policeman walking on stilts!! Okay I've just spotted Tweety-pie and Sylvester across the road handing out yet more balloons and flags. Everything is blue and yellow, people are walking round with their faces painted. This is what happened last year. It's the opening of Oxford's artweek. For those of you that don't know. This is what Sumertown looks like=

But then imagen banners over the shops and restaurants, balloons to every post and tree and then loads of circus people walking about all over the place! This music is quite cool actually but I bet I get annoyed with it by the end of the day! lol! On a different note, me and Dan are wokring for Picnix tonight :-) I'm really looking forward to it. It's a buffet thing so it won't be really hard work but should be fun :-)

I'll update later if I'm not to busy at Uniglobe.

----- -------- TITLE: 100th post AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/17/2006 10:33:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: And it's a nice one for once! lol! I got this email through yesterday, "Remember The Wizard of Oz? Dorothy ran away so that old meany Myra Gulch wouldn't take away her dog, Toto. Dorothy's return was interrupted when a tornado hurled her into the land of the Munchkins. From there she journeyed to the wizard, and then home. The whole adventure was both wonderful and terrible. As a child, I was mesmerized and initially thankful when the Good Fairy, Glinda, pointed Dorothy down the yellow brick road. But when the Wicked Witch of the West appeared, I was terrified. And finally, when the Wizard of Oz demanded Dorothy bring him the witch's broomstick, I was fainting with fear. Today I marvel at the story and at how, on the road, Dorothy was joined by those who impersonated her needs: the scattered Scarecrow longing for a brain (wisdom), the stiff Tin Man aspiring to have a heart (love), and the cowardly Lion seeking courage to be king of the forest! Returning home to love, I also have many fears: abandonment, loss of loved ones, failure, disillusionment, hurt, anger, pain, vulnerability, and death. As is Dorothy's in the film, my journey to welcome my fear is unfolding. Growing old, I recognize the road more clearly: let wisdom guide me into a network of loving friends. These relationships inspire me with courage to disempower fear.

So, I ask God to put the spirit of these friends within: May Wisdom guide our steps. May Love see us through. And may Courage sustain our hope".

I just thought that was so cool. It made me smile. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/18/2006 05:03:00 PM Congrats on the 100th post!

:) ----- -------- TITLE: Work=Stress AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/15/2006 07:52:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Home=Stress ARRRRGH!!! I'm stressed!!!!!! Sorry my posts recently have been very low etc. Grrr... I should change my name to "I have no respect". (Mum's not happy I missed tea tonight. My phone's broken and I forgot to ring her). I need to relax. I need to calm down. Grrrr... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/18/2006 09:18:00 AM Sorry Kita, but we're off for tonight. ----- -------- TITLE: I had a nightmare last night AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/14/2006 09:59:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It wasn't v.nice at all. To cut a long story short, I dreamt that someone arranged a marriage for me, to a (not to be prejudiced at all but) Pakistani bloke. I couldn't get out of it at all. However much I tried. But also I was still in sixth form, taking Drama and Mr Pelling was taking all my lessons. It was really weird, coz all of the dress rehearsals were lessons but they were on stage and so was my life. Mr Pelling was showing us how to act etc and he was showing us how to improve in our lives aswell as drama. He was really criticizing everyone's performance, but when he came onto me he said to me "I will be lenient to you because you're engaged to 'him' ". I *think* I had read in BBC news or something that 'he' abused his wives etc and I was just about to become one. Mr Pelling (in real life) has never been very nice to me, except one day I was upset and he was really nice and like a shoulder to cry on. It was really strange. But yeah back to the nightmare, Mr Pelling was comforting me and kind of warning me of what I needed to get out of. But I was still on stage, like a show or something. It was horrible. Everyone was watching me but not helping, just laughing when I mucked up, like some sort of sick comedy. I was really scared. I had to go home to this guy. Then the man turned up at school/stage and forced me to marry him then and there. Because of this guys beliefs it now ment that I could have sex with him even against my will. He went back and I carried on with the lesson and the audience was still watching me. They could have stopped the marriage but they didn't step in and help me. Mr Pelling warned me agan not to go home because of what my 'husband' was going to do. But I couldn't not go home. Then Dave (Dan's dad) woke me up, thankfully. I was so scared afterwards but so thankful that I was in Dans room and not at my house (because the dream was that real I would be even more scared). But hey ho. Only a (very vivid) dream. That I'm finding hard to forget. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/15/2006 12:57:00 PM I think we need to keep praying for you after everything that's happened. Could be that stuff is still swimming around in your subconscious and looking for ways to get out.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 5/17/2006 07:20:00 PM :O

hugs ----- -------- TITLE: In the end AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/13/2006 09:23:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -everything turned out okay. I de-stressed (a bit) and managed to enjoy myself. Im downstairs now with both Candy and Morse half asleep, Dan trying to find some breakfast and others listening to music on the TV. Okay Dan's given up on the food and is trying to fall asleep on Morses bed= "Morse, your bed smells" says Dan. I'm so tired. Chris and co have gone to music school. Sounds like they had a good time last night tho :-) Anyways I'm going to watch some TV. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 5/14/2006 01:38:00 PM Boy am I glad I stayed in with James instead! Sounds like it was fun then...

Any party where you're unhappy makes me unhappy, sorry if it went a bit pecks-up for you. Mine should be better because at least you're not hosting it in any way, shape or form.

But please don't trash anything in rebellion ;-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/14/2006 02:55:00 PM "Pecks up"?

LOL @ Livi.

Yep good pectorals will help them stay up in later life, especially after having children. I recommend excercise at least twice a week. ----- -------- TITLE: Party AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/12/2006 09:03:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm at the party now and I am really stressing out. All I keep getting from people is "your brother's pissed" or "I've got the munchies, make me some more food" and when me and Rach make food all the lads come in and make comments like "ahhh the women in the kitchen where they should be, have you done the washing yet?" etc etc. I try and ignore the comments and make them food and when I do, I try and take it to the table and they repay me by tripping me up. And people tell me to stop stressing out and have a good time?!? Sorry but YOU could have cooked, try and stopped Zach from getting so pissed or stopped my dog from eating the food and drinking people's beer. I know I'm stressed at the moment and I'm sorry to all the people I've snapped at tonight. This post isn't intended to be aimed at any single person. Or anyone for that matter. Oh and now people are talking about me behind my back. I can hear you. *thinks* at least Tom isn't here yet. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: ~*~rozy~*~ DATE: 5/13/2006 08:54:00 AM sorry if i did any of the above, though im sure i didnt. hope that its not too bad this morning, was cool to see ya there! thanks for listenin as well and not legging it like most other people lol!!

Will ----- -------- TITLE: Penis reattached after maid cuts it off AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/09/2006 10:51:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Surgeons have reattached the penis of a Saudi man who paid the price for trying to have sex with his Filipina maid and she attacked him with a knife, a hospital source said on Monday.

"This is a sophisticated operation. You are dealing with an organ in a difficult area and you want to try to return to its efficiency," said a spokesman at Riyadh's Takhassusi Hospital.

Earlier this month newspapers reported that the maid removed her employer's manhood when he tried to molest her in the middle of the night as his wife was sleeping. The maid is now in police custody.

"It's one of the rare cases ... but they did it (the operation) last week and it went smoothly," the spokesman said. "The hospital has done this kind of operation before, but only after people had car accidents."

I found this on Reuters Oddly Enough website this morning. All I could think was ouch! and hahaha!! Good on her!! lol!

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 5/09/2006 05:22:00 PM I hope they let the maid off! Some of these Eastern countries can be a bit funny about womens status & so on. It wouldn't surprise me if she is in serious trouble! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 5/10/2006 03:19:00 PM Herrow!!! I've just cracked up about the 8-inch long present from Karl - I can't wait to find out what it is!!!

And this story kind of goes on with the joke/threat I've been making for about 3 years of 'do X again and I'll castrate you with a pair of bricks'. ----- -------- TITLE: Vickers Pub and Restaurant AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/08/2006 10:28:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I quit Vickers last night. I was just so annoyed with Tom flirting around me and trying to get me into bed the whole time and also Mev telling me how to do my job properly, that I just handed in my notice. I'm working next Sunday but that's it. I've worked there for nearly 3 years, I should know how to do my job etc! Mev and Tom were just annoying me all night and it wasn't the first time. So I quit!!! hehe!! I'm going to be working at Picnix over the summer when I can (and when Sally asks me to). So I can bring in some money that way. In the Winter if I need some money they've said I can always go back to work at Vickers. I thought it was a good decision :-) It was a weight off my chest and I feel so much betteer that I don't have to worry about leaving Church really early or "what's Tom going to say this week?" etc etc Oh BTW he asked me out!!! haha!! lol! In his dreams! (sorry I'm so bitchy about it, I've told him how I feel and it's just getting on my nerves now) Oh and also on Friday it's Chris's birthday (Dan's bro), and he's having a party. Zach's invited and can bring a friend. Guess who he's invited?! Yup, you guessed it. Tom. Oh yay!! Joy of joys. NOT. Hopefully he'll forget about it and won't turn up. Well I pray he'll forget about me! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 5/08/2006 04:33:00 PM "and they called it puppy love!"

wooo your house warming gift arrived.

hint - its about 8 inches long :P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/09/2006 09:01:00 AM Should I be scared?! lol! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/09/2006 01:00:00 PM Bread knife?

;)

Congrats on escaping BTW. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 5/09/2006 05:24:00 PM Yay! :D ----- -------- TITLE: I wish... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/05/2006 02:50:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I wasn't so stressed. I wish I was at home doing beading. I wish I was outside in the garden at home doing beading. With an ice-cream in my hand. Strawberry ice-cream. Sitting in the sun. Relaxing. ... *sigh* Not at work. With the air-conditioning on. Doing work. Watching everyone walk past in vests and shorts etc. Sitting at my desk. In an uncomfortable chair. In a smart shirt and neck-a-cheif. *edit* Uggh! Im so stressed at work. Paul's now doing some business travel so he's booked up with all that. So I'm doing all the retail and am soooo busy and bogged down. I'm managed to file everything, take the post, do 2 passports, 1 VISA (russian) and 1 flight in the space on 1 hour! I'm really hot and bothered. I need some water/OJ. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 5/06/2006 12:04:00 PM I'd like to see you trying to do beading with an ice cream in your hand, LOL!

BTW your beads have arrived, but they all seem to be big ones so I am worried they may not be what you wanted. You can pick out some from mine if you need to. ----- -------- TITLE: All sorted out AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/05/2006 12:24:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: But I now have a bigger situation that I really need some advise on. BTW Abraham has got the sack and I'm getting a new tutor person at the end of May. But yeah, the 'situation' is that I've been offered another job in Kidlington. At the Co-op Travel Center . But now I'm moving to Woodstock I can't get to and from Kidlington everyday for work. The pay is about £2 more per hour. There's a good chance that I can complete this NVQ and then get a promotion to a Travel Consultant and then onto manager etc. They also have a marketing department so I can try and get into there and the regional manager who I spoke to yesterday about the job said that if I work hard etc I will mst probably be able to get in there as I'm doing all the promotion for Uniglobe. But I still don't know. Paul (colleague @ Uniglobe) is also applying for the senior manger's position in the Kidlington branch so this office would have to find 2 more members of staff, which is kinda really harsh. But the main problem is transport. I could bike to and from work in the summer and learn to drive but there's no guarantee that I would pass befor ethe weather got bad (which is quite early seeing as it's England). I could get the bus from Woodstock to Summertown, then get the bus to Kidlington. Which I don't mind doing at all. But should I go for it or not? I've got to tell David (the regional manager) soon otherwise he'll open the job to the public etc. HELP!!! I NEED YOU ADVISE!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/05/2006 03:59:00 PM Your office is losing 2 members of staff?

You're experienced now and doing a lot of the promotional work. Press for recognition and one of the replacement positions instead of just being a trainee.

8-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 5/06/2006 12:23:00 PM Gosh, that is difficult, I HATE making decisions like that & I really struggle to hear God, but persevere in asking Him & I'm sure he'll guide you.
If it wasn't for the transport issue I'd say go for the new job, but that is a problem. Learning to drive isn't really an answer either because you would have to buy & run a car which is a major expense & hassle. What about a moped?
Otherwise, Toni's advice was good if you think you could push for it. ----- -------- TITLE: *SCREAMS* AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/04/2006 02:18:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! Abraham was 1 hr late so I rang his mobile. After 15mins of constantly trying I got through. Asked him what time he was coming and HE'D BL**DY FORGOTTEN!!!!! Ab:"oh... I thought I'd changed the date?" Me:"yes you changed it to today" Ab:"oh..." Me:"Did you want to give me a call back to arrange another date?" Ab:"Yes I'll give you a call in 1/2 an hour" GRRRR!!! I am so angry!!!! This is the guy who's ment to teach me how to act in my job. He's ment to teach me how to be w travel agent. But all he's doing is re-arranging dates and appointments and never sets me any work. I'm ment to meet him every month and he's ment to set me coursework. I havent' seen him in 2 months and last time he set me the same work twice. I had to phone him up and tell him. I am so angry. Oh and what about my exam??? I honestly don't know. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 5/05/2006 10:01:00 AM It's oh so quiet... shhh... shhh...
It's oh so still.... ;-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/05/2006 12:51:00 PM Livi, Have a great time im Munich!!
See you soon ----- -------- TITLE: This is how I seem to feel at the moment. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/04/2006 12:43:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I wish it wasn't.

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/04/2006 01:42:00 PM (((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: Building work = Headache AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/04/2006 12:30:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm getting nervous about my exam now. I've got all the maps out. All the 'Tourist Attractions & Events for the World' books out. I'm searching like mad on the net (well I have been all week). But I'm still nervous. I might take time out to pray. Might be a good idea. But this bl**dy building work is very distracting. Exam conditions my bottom!! I don't know whether I want my exam postponed till another day or whether I want to take it today and get it over and done with. It'll be my choice when Abraham (my trainer) get's here coz he's pants and can never make a decision (nor turn his laptop on, I had to turn it on and tell him how to work it last time!) *sigh* I'm looking forward to T+C's tonight, even though we won't see very much of Chris at all :-( Should be good anyways. Love to all xXx ----- -------- TITLE: nooooooo!!!!!!!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/04/2006 09:23:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm in the office today and I have an exam about 1 o'clock and THERE'S BUILDING WORK NEXT DOOR AND UPSTAIRS!!!! I can't even hear myself think never mind if the phone's going or not?!!!?! This is not happening!!!! How are we ment to serve customers when we can't hear what they're saying? This is ridiculous!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 5/04/2006 11:53:00 AM Sorry, what's that you say?

CAN'T HEAR YOU!

;-) ----- -------- TITLE: Kinda busy ATM AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/01/2006 09:02:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Yesterday I spent the day packing up my room with Dan, then I went to church @ T+C's and then to work @ Vickers in the evening. Today Rach came over, we spent the day playing with beads etc :) and I'm now at the Hadland's house. Sue cooked a lovely meal and we're watching snooker. Sue's cooking = :D Snooker= :( Tomorrow I've got a day off work so I'm gunna hopefully finish my room and ring Jackie (landlord) to make sure room's still there for me. Then Wednesday I'm back to work. Oh yay *sarcastic* Hope everyone's had a good bank holiday. Kita x ----- -------- TITLE: Writing, Opening a Deep Well AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/28/2006 12:58:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: "Writing is not just jotting down ideas. Often we say: "I don't know what to write. I have no thoughts worth writing down." But much good writing emerges from the process of writing itself. As we simply sit down in front of a sheet of paper and start to express in words what is on our minds or in our hearts, new ideas emerge, ideas that can surprise us and lead us to inner places we hardly knew were there. One of the most satisfying aspects of writing is that it can open in us deep wells of hidden treasures that are beautiful for us as well as for others to see." From Henri Nouwen.org ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 4/29/2006 06:03:00 PM have you ever tried free assosciation writing?

all you do is set yourself 10mins or so, and just write

write down anything. You may get a few good ideas or you may get junk, but at least you are writing!

you may be suprised what you write down, as it can reveal thoughts and feelings you have in your head.

Ta

Karl ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 5/01/2006 09:09:00 PM That's cool Karl. im gunna try that when I get 10 mins peace! lol! ----- -------- TITLE: House in Woodstock AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/26/2006 01:11:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Me and Mum went to see the house yesterday evening, we were only in there about 10 mins but all is good! In fact GREAT! My aim is to move in mid to end of May, it all depends on how quickly I can clear my room and pack. Mum was fine about it. She going to work full time now coz of Zach leaving school aswell. But all is good. she kept trying to persuade me to move into a flat in oxford center but I really don't want to do that coz I won't know anyone. It would be dangerous walking home at night on my own and I just wouldn't feel safe. But woooooooo!!!!!! Im moving out!! :D On a different subject, recently a couple of people I work with have been getting on my nerves. Not the usual ones but people I generally get along with and it all to do with the same thing. They're married and have girlfriends/boyfriend or are going out to speed dating sessions?!! I thought marriage was for life? What is it these days, just a fling and a ring? Nothing else! I get so angry with these people! I had a shouting match at Vicker on sunday coz this guy was saying 'as long as they dont know each other then everything is fine'!!!! Grrrrr!! When I marry a certain 'wee' person I will stick to my vows and believe in what I say when I say 'I do'. Why say that you will "love, comfort, honor and keep [him/her] For better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health. And forsaking all others, be faithful only to [him/her]" ? If you're not actually going to do any of those things?!?! Rant over. Lunch is nearly over so got to go and ring Daniel :) P.S. My phone is broken, Don't call it, you won't get through/ Email me or ring my house/dan's mob :-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/26/2006 01:37:00 PM :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 4/26/2006 10:34:00 PM what bout me??

*devestated* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi divvy DATE: 4/27/2006 03:27:00 PM MY this site is still pink!!!


*blinks blearily*

Mehr Deutsch heute! Verdammt es!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi again!!! I'm so sexy!! (weird mooood) DATE: 4/27/2006 03:30:00 PM PS according to your user pic you are in fact 4 people, one of them being me!

Why not use the one of you being picked up?!!!! Then it's 4 people and a pair of socks! LOL!!


AAARRRGHH socks are after me!! Actually, God told me not to wear my good ones this morning, which is good because the not so nice ones I have on ATM have a bit of CRAP on them!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Nero_Maddox DATE: 5/03/2006 10:57:00 PM Hey, you don't know me, but I came across your Blogger through a random search I did on the site.
I just wanted to say I agree with you on the marriage part. I hate how it seems some people don't take it as seriously as it needs to. ----- -------- TITLE: House/Room in Woodstock AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/25/2006 01:56:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm going with mum to see the room tonight in Woodstock. I really hope everything goes well. I really want to move out. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 4/26/2006 07:32:00 AM well.... was it nice? ----- -------- TITLE: Emotionally weird day AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/23/2006 11:58:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I slept in till very late this morning/midday! lol! Was a good sleep, i really needed it :-) Church was good, I liked the way the Pastor from Witney didn't quote the PDL but used the Bible more :-) At Vickers it turned very strange. Theres this guy there that really likes me and I've found it kinda hard to tell him to stop liking me. If that makes any sense. So yeah, I've spoken to him before and last week I told him 'no' straight out. I thought that he would be really strange with me tonight but he wasn't. In fact he was the complete opposite! Me and this guy have talked about God before and today I really managed to tell him what God has done for me and how He can make this guy happy. At church I picked up this leaflet on'Why Jesus?' and i gave it to this guy. He scanned over it and we talked quite a lot about eternal life and stuff. It was really good :-) In the end he's going to go home and read this leaflet and alos he said he might pray about it!!!!! So can you guys help me out praying for this guy please? Pray for healing and that he welcomes Jesus with open arms and an open heart. p.s. Sorry I'm not leaving his name. I need to respect his privacy :-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/24/2006 04:03:00 PM Thanks Kita - that's great. Will try to remember to pray.

BTW how's your ribs etc? ----- -------- TITLE: Pain AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/22/2006 10:21:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: My ribs really hurt. Hopefully I'm getting a doctor's appointment Monday morning coz I've got the morning off work. I woke up this morning with the pain in my chest, it had also spread through my back and I couldn't use my left arm coz it hurt so much. Not good. I'm really hurting right now. ----- -------- TITLE: Really nice day AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/22/2006 08:45:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Dan was taxiing for his Uncle Justin and family so I went along. They were going to this really weird restaurant near Windsor called The Fat Duck (just read the menu and find out why!!) so me and Dan, whilst the others were in the restaurant, went to Windsor waterfront. It was gorgeous! The weather was lovely, me and Dan just spent the day walking around, hand in hand. It was so perfect :-) All we talked about was how we wanted to spend our lives with each other :-D Like we saw an Art Gallery and both said we would love this painting of a sunset in our living room when we buy a house together :-) and when we grew up and had kids we would never send them to Eton College! lol! I really do love him. p.s. Sorry this is a very soppy post! :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 4/23/2006 10:38:00 AM good luck with the future plans hope they all get fufilled...i had a very accident proan day, ill tell u about it someime.

Jon ----- -------- TITLE: Cherie Blair spent over £7,000 for her hair to be kept immaculate! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/21/2006 09:19:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I couldn't believe it this morning when I read on the BBC news website that Cherie Blair spent £275 a day on her hair during the 2005 election!! A Labour spokeswoman said: "So what?..we won the election."

She spent nearly the same amount I get year on her hair for a month! If someone can actually tell me what she's done and that she deserves to spend that ridiculous amount of money on her hair, it would be greatly appreciated.

How can one woman spend £7,700 on her hair!! It just doesn't make sense!!

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/21/2006 11:33:00 AM What she's done is to appear in public on a daily basis, having to face the media and appear smart and cool in support of her husband. If you substitute the word 'publicity' for 'hair' then it all makes sense. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 4/21/2006 11:33:00 AM Wow you get more than me. I bet I have more hair than her, too.

Perhaps she should go to Dixons about that bikini trimmer... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/21/2006 12:13:00 PM For her head?

*GRIN* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 4/21/2006 07:42:00 PM would be a lot cheaper if she did! ----- -------- TITLE: Headaches AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/20/2006 03:13:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I keep getting them. I am drinking lots of juice etc and eating enough but I KEEP getting headaches. It's not very nice :-( I've got one now :-( bit pants really. ----- -------- TITLE: Thought I'd update you all on the housing situation. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/20/2006 09:15:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I talked things through with mum last night, we're both going to see the room and talk things through with Jackie (the landlord etc) on Tuesday after work. Mum was okay with it I think. She's going to let my room out so last night I was clearing it, taking posters off the walls etc. On my days off from now on I'm boxing my stuff up and painting my room a creamy colour. Fun! not. But it'll be worth it in the end :-) I had a nice talk with Zach last night aswell, he said to me "I've always wanted you to move out but now you're doing in I want you to stay. It'll be strange with you not living here anymore". I thought that was kinda sweet (as a 16 year old boy said it!) On a different note I got asked my DOB on the bus to work today, that never happens! I always pass as 15 on the bus everyday nearly! So instead of 16/02/88 my new birthday is 16/05/90!! lol! The driver still believed me though! lol! I just don't see the point in spending £4.20 return for an adult or £2.70 for a child return if I can pass as 15 years old most of the time! Better get back to work now though. Have a good day. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/20/2006 10:01:00 AM Hmmm. We can talk about this later, if you're up for it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 4/20/2006 02:57:00 PM Oi! We have to pay full price and you earn more than us!

And you're older than me, you can't pass for 15!

AND you wear a suit!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 4/20/2006 02:57:00 PM Oi! We have to pay full price and you earn more than us!

And you're older than me, you can't pass for 15!

AND you wear a suit!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/20/2006 03:20:00 PM Livi, livi, so good she posted twice.... ----- -------- TITLE: This post isn't going to make much sense, it's not ment to. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/18/2006 10:03:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Being at home just doesn't feel 'right' anymore. Like I don't want to go home but I do at the same time. I slept in my room last night but I came home at gone midnight. I dunno, I just miss being at home sometimes but I love it at Dans. When I go home it's not the same as it used to be. I miss Stu being there, that's for sure. But my whole house just doesn't seem the same. It's like things change and all I'm doing is getting stuck in the past, but trying to run ahead at the same time. It's like I'm about 15 years old but 20 at the same time, I just don't know what to do. Or how to act. How to put things right again. But they're out of my control and I can't change them. I've just got to sit back and watch it take its course. I don't know what I'm talking about so I'll shut up now :-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 4/18/2006 11:53:00 AM Confused people all round, and I don't necessarily mean due to your strangely written post.

Home doesn't feel the same to a lot of us anymore, but I have nowhere else that is home. It's strange sitting in the same room which has seen so much of my life, mainly the bad times as I don't really associate having much fun in my room.
There's a whole world out there...
And Heaven will be there one day. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 4/18/2006 02:03:00 PM Home is where the heart is! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 4/19/2006 09:44:00 AM If everything was gonna be the same in life, imagine what you wouldnt have achieved by now.

Dont worry bout things, just take them as they come - sometimes it is good to sit back and look at things for there face value and not read too deep.

IIRC - Pauline Kezer once said -

"Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights."

Love Karl! ----- -------- TITLE: Busy day ahead AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/16/2006 09:20:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: It's not only Easter today, it's my brothers 16th and I'm going to Dan's nan's with Dans whole family for a meal :) Thats enough of the calendar update, I must of had a bad dream just before I woke up this morning, coz I woke up in such a grumpy mood. I went downstairs and being 9 O'clock everyone was still asleep so I wrote Dan's Easter card and grabbed the egg and put it at the end of his bed and tried to wait and let him wake up. I woke him up about 2 mins later coz I couldn't wait!! lol! I'm really looking forward to my first Easter in Church and as a Christian. I would have never thought last Easter I would be where I am now! :) I'm so glad that I found God. I wouldn't know what to do without Him. Anyway, I'm gunna go and try and wake Dan up again coz its now 1/2 past 9! (Ok I'm being v.harsh, if he's tried I should let him sleep but oh well!) Happy Easter and God bless. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 4/16/2006 10:40:00 AM Its days like today I find it hard to believe....I know it is a question of faith....Ill just have to see how everything goes I suppose. Bit hard to get your head around something like today when your mind is constantly on something else. Church would be a good idea for me to go to today right? But Im not sure I can do it...It was lovely to read this post this morning, seeing how you have changed since last easter and what a good freind you have become. Thanks for everything Kita, I hope with yours and the Churches help etc I will be able to have Faith and have some sense of purpose to my life. Happy easter. Jon xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/18/2006 11:59:00 AM Are you going to confess online to the water?

;) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/18/2006 12:55:00 PM Toni! How do you know about the water?!?!
arrgh!!! LOL!

was very funny and it definately woke him up ;P ----- -------- TITLE: Mum and Stu AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/15/2006 10:15:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Split up at the end of last week. I just thought you all should know. I went home this morning after Dan and Chris's party and found a bag of Stu's stuff by the front door. I know I haven't put much emotion into this post or quite a few before this, I'm finding it v.hard. Stu was a great person and he did make mum happy. I just remember when they first went out that she had a smile on her face that I hadn't seen in a long time. When we all went to Scarborough over the summer she just went on long walks and spent so much time with him, and me and Zach were so happy for her because her face was just so bright and cheerful. Like I knew I could ask mum if I could go to a party or something when Stu was round coz she'd never say that I couldn't go, just because she was so laid back with him there. And once again she can't even talk civilly to yet another bloke. I know I'm blaming mum for everything that went wrong in her and Stu's relationship but it's only coz she didn't actually tell me, Zach did and I had to ask. And yes I don't know the in's and out's of what happened, but I really did think that one day Stu would finally move in and marry mum. ... Never mind. I just want mum to be happy. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/15/2006 11:23:00 AM Sorry to hear that Kita - I'll be praying for you as a family. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 4/15/2006 09:03:00 PM I'm so sorry. Hang on in there. XXX ----- -------- TITLE: At Work AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/12/2006 10:52:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Nothing much is happening in my life at the moment, I'm moving out, Meeting Dad for lunch, Zach's birthday on Easter, Going to the races (horse) on Monday w/ the family + my lovely boyf, ... okay I can't think of anything else I'm doing! Get back to you later... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/12/2006 10:37:00 PM Sorted then!

Congrats on the move - hope your mum's really OK. See you tomorrow night. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jeego DATE: 4/19/2006 11:22:00 PM Hey, you have a great blog here! I'm definitely going to bookmark you!

I have a work at home idea site. It pretty much covers work at home idea related stuff.

Come and check it out if you get time :-) ----- -------- TITLE: Happy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 4/04/2006 01:42:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I met my Dad for lunch today, it was really cool :-D He's found me a bedsit in Woodstock that I'm visiting tonight. It's in a family home (I think just mum and 17yr old daughter) near the primary school. Im going on my own, seeing the room and cheking the price and everything. I'm really excited because things look on the up etc but I'm nervous and worried at the same time that if I do decide to move out that things will go all wrong or I will upset mum or something. I'm really looking forward to being independant, and having my own room. And yes I think I can afford it :-D On a different note, mum's gone away for a few days to Scarborough with Stu and Zach but tis all cool, I'm kitting to pass the *very little spare* time I have ATM! :-D I cooked for Dan again last night, I managed to burn the rice, but was all okay! I saved it! lol! It's his turn tonight :D I've got college tomorrow so won't be online at all, I'll be busy doing an exam I think, on health, vaccinations and stuff anways I g2g= work's calling :D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 4/04/2006 04:25:00 PM Glad it is going well for someone! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/04/2006 06:35:00 PM I'll be praying you're guided tonight over the bedsit.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 4/05/2006 12:23:00 AM Don't you have your "own " room at home. How must your mum feel when you want to live with someone else's mum. Get a proper place of your own. how can you be so cruel to those you love Christian? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 4/05/2006 08:59:00 AM I guess you don't know much about her relationship at home? Her Mum has repeatedly talked about downsizing and actively trying to get Kita to move out and on which all seems fair enough but on her wage this is the only option affordable. If you have any better suggestions, I'm sure she is all ears. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 4/05/2006 07:13:00 PM who is anonymous!? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/06/2006 12:33:00 AM First rule of internet conversation - DON'T FEED THE TROLLS.

Someone that posts anonymously and makes unhelpful comments to provoke people is a troll - one of the lowest forms of on-line life. Ignore them, and eventually they'll go away. Treat them like their comments might have any value at all and they'll keep coming back.

Can I suggest that no matter how dumb and hurtful, or for that matter how sensible these comments might be, we all ignore them from now on. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 4/06/2006 12:12:00 PM Livi I was the first one but not the second one. Sorry if my comment offended anyone or they took it in the wrong way! But I had nothing to do with me, and I can promise you that!

Rach x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 4/06/2006 12:18:00 PM Hey Kita,

Could you drop me an email with what you want to do 2moz? As I will need to make arrangements!

Oooo! I got a letter through from a Nursery saying; "I'm writing to let you know that we all thought you would fit in very well here at Toddlecare, which is very important to us. We are therefore hoping to receive an application from you" YAY! Im getting somewhere. Oh and it is Didcot, which is cheap for flatts etc.

See you soon
Rach x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 4/06/2006 12:20:00 PM Rachel - I think the first comment was OK, except for the lack of name. ----- -------- TITLE: Last night AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/31/2006 09:42:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: was good :-D I really enjoyed just catching up with T, C + Ben. And I am soooo looking forward to Saturday, going to HobbyCrafts with Rach and Chris :-D I don't really have much more to say, I could be depressing and say loadsa stuff that a lot of you don't want to hear so I won't babble on :-P Have fun! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: karl DATE: 3/31/2006 02:29:00 PM :p

whats hobby craft? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/31/2006 02:35:00 PM it's a crarft show in the NEC in Birmingham :D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/31/2006 04:27:00 PM Good to see you both again too! We've missed you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 4/01/2006 09:35:00 PM wibble!

I was stuck at Boots all day... ----- -------- TITLE: A tough few days AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/30/2006 03:23:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: at home and work. But I don't want to talk about it. This post is just to say I'm not in some unknown world etc, I am here, in Oxford. Just I've been busy at work and can't get on the net much at all. Hope everyone's ok. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl lankford DATE: 3/30/2006 06:15:00 PM helllooooo! ----- -------- TITLE: Busy but nothing to to at the same time AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/25/2006 11:11:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Work is so boring ATM, like there's ntohing to do apart from paper work so I'm actually busy with that. But also Jo's back at work so I can only email and blog ect when she's either not looking or she's not in the office! I need to get the net at home... I'm really looking forward to Sunday, church then youth group which Hannah C, Dan, Me, Rich and Anna (hopefully) are 'leading'. And we're watching VeggieTales!!! wow!! lol! Tonight I'm going to a blue's and jazz concert with Dan and his family which I'm really looking forward to aswell. I don't know whether I'll like the music etc but worth a try ;-) - nah, should be fun :-D p.s. just thought I'd tell you, I'm allergic to Dan's trumpet. I've come up in blisters on my lips again because of the oil he puts on the trumpet and then kisses me after playing. GRRR!!! I've got swollen, bumpy, yucky lips now!! bluegh! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/25/2006 09:42:00 PM unlucky. You sound attractive! Lol! mwah! xxx *air kiss!* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/28/2006 09:52:00 AM Hi Kita.

Hope your lips are OK now. I'll make no more comments about your last post for fear of compromising myself ;)

Missed you - glad to be back. ----- -------- TITLE: My day off work AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/22/2006 01:04:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and loving do nothing! :-D I'm round Dans (as always) and we're all on our computers! hehe! Geeks!! Dan's composing some music stuff, Jon's sitting next to me and is all excited coz Radiohead's website is being updated, Chris is downstairs playing Army men games and I'm here blogging :-P I love it when we're all like this though; geeky but fun :-P I'm back to work tomorrow and so is Jo so I won't be able to blog or check my emails much at all. Bit pants really. I desperately need the net at home!!!!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/23/2006 09:44:00 PM please text me. :-( ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/24/2006 12:48:00 PM sorry! I've just tried and I've got 6p credit. I'll top-up after work and text you then.
hope everything goes well for you.
Praying that things go well today etc
Kita x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/24/2006 08:02:00 PM sure... :( ----- -------- TITLE: Do you remember the story of Mary-Ann Leneghan AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/21/2006 11:10:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: who was abducted, raped and then stabbed in Reading? The six men who did all of this to Mary-Ann and her friend (who survived and gave vital evidence in court) were found guilty on Monday. But just read this. I just don't understand how a human being could do that to another. Yes I don't know the back ground to the convicts lives etc but still. "As well as being hit, punched and stabbed, the two friends were made to strip naked, had boiling water thrown over them and were made to smoke heroin and crack cocaine." How could you do that to someone?! Dan told me last night to try and look for the positives in situations. I suppose if I try really hard I can see that if Mary-Ann's friend hadn't survived then the 6 men wouldn't be convicted. But I just don't understand why one human could do that to another and then "snigger and make faces" in court! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 3/21/2006 12:30:00 PM that's because He doesn't exist! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/21/2006 12:40:00 PM Not another useless comment, from whomever you are? At least have the decensy to leave your name and comment in the right bit! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/21/2006 01:09:00 PM But yet you still gave the God we believe in a capital letter for His name?
Why?
If you don't think He is almighty etc, why give Him the honour of a capital letter?
Or maybe He does exist and you don't want you believe in Him? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/21/2006 01:10:00 PM Well put!
Now I remember why I try to avoid arguing with you my love! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 3/21/2006 10:17:00 PM What has that got to do with the article???

We give Him a capital as to show He is more important, like the polite you 'Sie' in German.

I guess! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/21/2006 11:49:00 PM yes we do because we honour Him but if someone doesn't believe then why give God a capital letter? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/23/2006 09:39:00 AM mickey taqking I guess. because they're SAD!!!! Crawl off. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/23/2006 09:39:00 AM mickey taqking I guess. because they're SAD!!!! Crawl off. ----- -------- TITLE: Monday Night Group AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/20/2006 10:05:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: was good to catch up with friends but for me, nothing else. Dan and Ben loved it. I not only didn't like it, I hated it. Why ask a question where there is no answer?! Why pick out stuff in the Bible that contradicts itself? TBH I'm looking in my Bible at the mo and asking loadsa questions and can't find the answers. Before my baptism I could just ask a Q and then God would show me the answer in His verses. I would ask God for help in a situation and He would show me a passage etc etc. But when I ask questons ATM there is no answers. ATM I don't feel like God is answering my questions. I don't feel like I'm walking by His side. Even when I try and pray about it etc. ----- -------- TITLE: I pushed Dan over the edge AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/20/2006 04:27:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: ... of his phone! "I've done it and I'd do it over and over again!!" mwa ha ha ha ha!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Spam DATE: 3/20/2006 04:46:00 PM Spam ----- -------- TITLE: Toni's blog? AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/17/2006 02:15:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Can anyone get on it today? I can't. This keeps coming up everytime I try. "You are not authorized to view this page You might not have permission to view this directory or page using the credentials you supplied. If you believe you should be able to view this directory or page, please try to contact the Web site by using any e-mail address or phone number that may be listed on the Homepage(); tertl.blogspot.com home page. You can click Search to look for information on the Internet. HTTP Error 403 - Forbidden Internet Explorer " ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/17/2006 03:58:00 PM I get the same

Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/17/2006 04:08:00 PM Are you getting my emails Dan?
xXx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/17/2006 08:39:00 PM Blogger has had a fault - been rectified in the last hour.

Don't worry - I'm still here. ;) ----- -------- TITLE: Nothing's really happening in my life ATM AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/16/2006 12:52:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I went home last night and saw mum, which was coolio. Dad popped round (well obv. didn't come into the house, but just stood on the driveway) to speak to me and zach, which very very coolio as I hadn't seen him for a month :-) There's a new lady at work (part-time) called Jenny and she's very nice. Jo's gone to New York for a week so YAY YAY YAY! I can blog and email! :-P urmmm... T+C's tonight which I'm really looking forward to. TBH I've been really 'away' from reading my Bible etc for ages now and like Dan said today we both' can't wait to jump back in the fire'. I'm tired. And bored at work, but whooooo I'm a specialist in Germany! lol! I took a test with a training company and passed with something like 95% so WHOOOOO! I've got a certificate and everything! lol! (Oh and I passed the enjoyEngland one. It's a new thing to get people to visit places like Cornwall instead of France etc.) I forgot to put my rings and bracelets on today and I feel bare! I keep going to fiddle with my ring Dan gave me and it's gone! :-( I'll put in on later tonight. Nothing else much to say... Happy birthday to Jon on Sunday. Over and Out. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/16/2006 01:32:00 PM "my ring Dan gave me and it's gone!"

8¬0

You could've told us?

;-)

Yes, we're really looking forward to seeing you again tonight too.

Congrats on the Germany bit - glad you've done well. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/16/2006 01:58:00 PM No not like that!!! lol!
It was a christmas pressie :-D ----- -------- TITLE: The sun is impressive and God dwarfs it. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/14/2006 08:21:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've just read 'Here I Am To Worship' devotional 30 day thingy-ma-bob and I love it. I'm only on day two but there's one word for it "wow". It's helped me so much :-) :-D ~***~ "The Lord reigns, let the earth be glad; let the distant shores rejoice... His lighting lights up the world-" Psalm 97:1+4 When I walk through Oxford and look at the countryside we live in and think how beautiful our land, God created, is. I know I am very fortunate and live in a tiny, picturesque and quite well-off Village in the heart of England but just look at the beauty of this world;and God created it. "The sun (and the earth) is impressive. And God dwarfs it." I can't even imagine how amazing and almighty God is. "He created the sun, the moon, the stars and this very planet we live on" the book states. I'm listening to Sigur Ros right now, just thinking how (for lack of a better word) beautiful it is, and God made music! He gave us ears to listen. He gave us voices to sing. He is amazing. Song I recommend you listen to is Sigur Ros, Saeglopur. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 3/15/2006 06:13:00 PM Wow!

And wow again.


Words fail me! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 3/15/2006 06:14:00 PM On another subject entirely, your clustrmap is interesting! Is that Russia? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/16/2006 11:04:00 AM :) :) :)

Told you I would! Hope work is going well

Love Dan x ----- -------- TITLE: Hehe!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/13/2006 10:16:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Now it's your turn. Click here ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/14/2006 09:36:00 AM lol! Way too much time on one's hands!? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/14/2006 07:31:00 PM You wouldn't believe the amount of hassle trying to find this sign online has caused me. ----- -------- TITLE: Hey guys AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/13/2006 01:04:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've been so busy with work etc I haven't managed to blog etc at all. I'm so looking forward to getting back into my old routine, Mondays Night group, Lazying about on Tuesday, Wednesday with mum, Thursday T+C's, Friday dunno really!, Saturday Chill, Sunday Church and Vickers. Can't Wait! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/13/2006 01:18:00 PM Lovely to see you're back, safe and sound. Really looking forward to you coming over too. Dinner, our place, Thursday, if that's do-able. ----- -------- TITLE: I'm baaaaacccccckkkkkk!!!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/10/2006 10:20:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: and SO tired! I can't post for long as I've got to work etc but I got back last night and it was so lovely of Dan's Dad to pick me up and Sue to cook etc :-) And I loved the greating when I got to Dans; he ran out and gave me the BIGGEST hug ever! :-D But I'm sad because I'm going to London this afternoon for an awards dinner etc with work. I'm back on Sunday but too late to go to the Celebration with church :-( I had a great time in Blackpool. I worked solidly from breakfast in the morning (we had to be up and eating breakfast at the latest 07:15) and we went to bed no earlier than 23:30 every night. We worked throughout the day but it was so so fun :-) Not really looking forward the this works 'do' as everyone will be a lot older than me and the whole thing is based on getting drunk, which I'm not taking part in. But ho hum, pigs bum!! lol! I hope everyone is safe, well and enjoying themselves. Till Monday (when I'm v.busy at work so might not be able to update)... Byeeeee!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/10/2006 01:17:00 PM Oh, no. You're back! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 3/10/2006 02:22:00 PM welcome back.

did you try chips n gravy?

karl -x- ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/10/2006 02:40:00 PM no I lived on chips and chicken nuggets the whole time!! yuck!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 3/12/2006 09:13:00 PM lol! student lifestyle put into practice there! No supernoodles? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 3/13/2006 01:43:00 PM Hey Kita my loverly!

I replied to your email like you wanted me to! How are you? If you have time sometime this week at work reply to my email or something!?! Speak to you soon! What are you and Dan like hey :P what you gonna do when he is at uni? Well I am telling you that you are not getting a job down there, coz we are sticking to our plan!!! Right??

Rach ----- -------- TITLE: there's no point AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/03/2006 10:27:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: in me posting online anymore because it just causes offence. So from now on I shall only post things that won't offend anyone. This isn't directed at any specific person at all. It's just my opinion on this that have gone on recently. Love too all and I'll reply when I can... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 3/04/2006 03:35:00 PM 'From now on I shall only post things that won't offend anyone.'

You'd have to say nothing ever again to achieve that!

Seriously, it is only sensible to be careful what you say & how you say it so as not to cause offence, especially to your friends & loved ones.

However this is your space & you should not feel that you can't express yourself in case someone takes offence.

In other words, take care not to GIVE offence, but if other people TAKE offence anyway, then that is their problem! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 3/04/2006 03:35:00 PM PS That photo doesn't look like you look now! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/05/2006 09:01:00 PM me typing 'fart' will offend someone, though hopefully no-one here!

PS Fart ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 3/08/2006 07:11:00 AM In theory something can only be insulting if it was meant to cause offence.

It's your blog hon, and you are entitled to your beliefs. Don't let anyone else convince you otherwise.

Krazy ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/08/2006 09:28:00 PM Fart!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/09/2006 04:13:00 PM Welcome back for the evening, lass. Hope you have/will have a good time.

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: I want to make this VERY clear to a certain person AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/03/2006 03:08:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I love Dan. I love God more. But that doesn't stop me loving or caring for Dan any less. *This is only directed to one person. Sorry if anyone else takes this the wrong way or it causes anyone offense etc.* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/03/2006 08:34:00 PM BTW it's spelled 'offence'


I love you! I love you all!

But there's someone I love a bit more!

(BTW it is God, not a random joke here) ----- -------- TITLE: Feeling much better AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/03/2006 09:02:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: after last night. I just felt so headachey and sick yesterday it was horrible but I have slept it off (hopefully) and I will be ready for Blackpool v.soon. Talking of Blackpool I am leaving to go on Monday morning, Dan's driving me to Glouster Green bus station to get the bus at 07:15, I get into Victoria Bus station in London at 10:00. I'm then catching the bus to Blackpool with my college buddies and I will be doing the same trip in reverse on Thursday. I will be back working again on the Firday and then leaving work early to catch the train to London for Uniglobe Awards Dinner and returning on Sunday. I hope I wont be too tired for Church on Sunday! Dan is being a star though, I'm back on the Thursday late afternoon and having to work again at 09:00 Friday morning, so he said he's going to wash and iron my clothes and cocktail dress so I can wear it again for the awards dinner with work! How good is he?! awwwww! On a different subject, Katherine, Hannah, me and Dan went to the Ertl's last night for some more Bible study, I really enjoyed it. It had me thinking about things I'd never thought of before, and things that I need to focus on etc. Was very good actually. But I miss Livi being there and wish people like Jon and Rach would just try it out :-) ? come on you know you want to?!?! I'm back at work now and not looking forward to tonight (meal with work zzzzzzZZZ!) but I get to see Dan after so it's not too bad :-P Laters peeps! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/03/2006 09:26:00 AM The boy tries, love you x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/03/2006 10:38:00 AM "Feeling much better after last night. I just felt so headachey and sick yesterday it was horrible but I have slept it off"

Hey - didn't we pray for you to get better?

Good to hear you're recovered. :-)) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/03/2006 10:53:00 AM yeah sorry. Prayers helped a lot. Thanks Toni (Chris and Ben)
:-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/03/2006 01:04:00 PM Hey, we're just really glad about the way you're so open and willing to receive from God - It's really good for us too!

:¬)) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 3/03/2006 01:53:00 PM "wish people like Jon and Rach would just try it out :-) come on you know you want to?!?!
" thats unfair....really.

Glad ur feeling better. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/03/2006 02:20:00 PM I don't see how ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 3/03/2006 02:33:00 PM do you have any idea the shit i went through last night...no, and I have "tried it out" as kita put it. I will make my own mind up, and for your information I would of loved to come last night as kita knew, so...there for it is slightly unfair..and what are "people like jon and rach"? well? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/03/2006 02:35:00 PM James says he won't wash and iron my clothes for me. Charming.
"Cos they're still already on you"

So Dan is the domestic goddess! And I wanted to live with you (Kita)! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/03/2006 02:42:00 PM Jon I said 'people like Jon and Rach' because I know you'll love it that's all. I didn't mean to cause offense. Sorry if it did. I hope and pray thinggs get better at home for you and that one day soon you'll be able to come and join us at T+C's, that's all I ment by 'trying it out'.
*hugs* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 3/03/2006 02:45:00 PM thank you kita, im glad you explained it, sorry to get angry. Thanks Jon x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 3/03/2006 02:55:00 PM Jon - No I dont as you have not told me ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 3/03/2006 08:32:00 PM big fish little fish cardboard box big fish little fish cardboard box big fish little fish cardboard box big fish little fish cardboard box big fish little fish cardboard box!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 3/04/2006 03:29:00 PM Kita
I am so glad Thursday evening was useful for you, we found it a bit difficult - lots of uncomfortable subjects (Sex & Money!!!)
It was good to see you, I had really missed you over the last week. And I miss Olivia on Thursday's too! ----- -------- TITLE: Answers AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/01/2006 12:18:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: to questions that people have been asking: I'm not allowed during work time to surf the net for personal use. (No hotmail or blogs etc) Ever since my Baptism I've been slowy walking away from God and couldn't find my way back but last night I found Him again :-D Work is really bad ATM, I'm not getting along with my manager at all and it's getting to me, upsetting me really. I need to get back to work because I'm running late on lunch :-S byeeeeeeee ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/01/2006 01:31:00 PM We'll talk tomorrow night if you want, but if things get bad DO call us if you need us - don't struggle on 'alone'.

I know you won't read this, but I hope you have a good afternoon.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 3/01/2006 01:38:00 PM Thanks Toni,
Basically I am still reading blogs but only on my lunch hour.
ATM my manager is on lunch so I can quickly reply to your comment :-)

Thankyou
(((hugs back))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: karl DATE: 3/02/2006 01:13:00 PM we did lunch! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 3/02/2006 02:31:00 PM bow bada bow wow woooow!

Foley fell over!

Baggy got caught swearing and got told off! How we laughed!

I've got German later and ATM my boyfriend is not here! ----- -------- TITLE: At Daniels AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/27/2006 08:24:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: house ATM, listening to Floyd and updating blogs etc with both Dan and Jon. They're doing geeky stuff I don't understand! But they are teaching me some HTML stuff. Tis fun! :D Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I'm not allowed to go onto personal sites etc but I will still check blogs every day etc, sorry if I can't comment on them as much as I did before. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 2/27/2006 09:36:00 PM I wrote 'ALISON IS A GEEK' on a piece of paper and gave it to Alison and Alison loved it and Alison stuck it to the inside of her folder!

My friends are mostly geeks! I guess I must be one too, we're a merry and intelligent yet crazy bunch!!! Like Bananas!!! (ate 2 today! bananas that is, not geeks!)

Oh, borrowed Jacqueline's yr 12 yearbook, there's a pic of us sweeping up after a rainbow drop fight! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 3/01/2006 09:20:00 AM Are you banned from surfing at work then?

Take care lass - look forward to seeing you then.

BTW was Sunday good? ----- -------- TITLE: I want to read my Bible!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/25/2006 10:27:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: "Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' "Matthew 22:37-39 I so miss reading my Bible at the moment. His words are described as the food of life and ATM I need some.

I miss picking up my Bible and reading His words, talking to Him, knowing Him more and more everytime I read it.

I know what I'm doing as soon as I get home tonight :-)

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 2/25/2006 12:40:00 PM why has it not been available to you? How are u? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/25/2006 01:17:00 PM I normally carry my Bible around everywhere with me but I left it at home 2 weeks ago and haven't picked it up since!
I'm okay, ish. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/25/2006 01:17:00 PM u? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 2/25/2006 02:13:00 PM ah well at least you can go home and hava good read :-) Im ok, hows work? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/25/2006 02:26:00 PM boring really. Nothing much happening.
I'm going out for a meal with my Dad and his family tomorrow for my 18th which I'm looking forward to :-)
What have you been doing? You haven't updated in a while.
Kita :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 2/25/2006 02:30:00 PM nothing to update, not been out, not been at dans, not seen anyone so nothing really to report. Cool, so what you doing this evening quiet night in with te bibble....? Cool meal, food cool, mm food, hungy. jon boreded ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/25/2006 02:39:00 PM Yeah you can tell you're bored! you never comment on this site! :-P
I've posted on MM BTW
Tonight I've gotta rush home, talk 2 Zach 4 a mo, then Sue's cooking a lush (well she does everytime but especially lush) meal tonight, So I prob won't be able to spen that much time reading etc.
It's strange, since I've been baptised it was like I've strayed away a bit, but last night I prayed properly, which I haven't done in ages and it felt so much better.
I dunno how He does it but it really does make you feel so good (for lack of a better word).

Hows things going from your side? What r u up to tonight? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/26/2006 10:40:00 PM FWIW I've noticed that after people are baptised they often have an especially hard time.

Take care Kita.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Godzheart DATE: 2/27/2006 05:11:00 PM Thanks a lot Kita for your prayers. God Bless ya richly. ----- -------- TITLE: I just don't see the point anymore AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/24/2006 01:52:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: in working here. I try my hardest and then get told off for not doing better. I can't explain it wihtout going into detail- which I don't want to do. ATM I really don't want to work here. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 2/24/2006 02:34:00 PM Having been on the phone, I think I can guess what happened, sorry to hear it

Love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/25/2006 10:31:00 AM Lass - FWIW there have been a few jobs I've done where I've had to keep my mouth shut and just get on with it. In fact there was one where I thought if things didn't change I wouldn't be able to keep going much longer!

Keep pressing on there, despite it being hard. I'm sure that both the education you're getting and the experience are all part of your training. And remember that Blackpool with it's sucky "St. Trinians" theme isn't far away ;-))

Love

Toni ----- -------- TITLE: I wish I was here right now AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/23/2006 01:13:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 2/23/2006 04:32:00 PM When we going? Love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/24/2006 08:39:00 AM Blackpool?

Kiss me quick hats?

Chips and mushy peas?

Donkey rides - donkeys on donkeys ;¬)

N I C E.

:-/

;¬) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/24/2006 09:01:00 AM no. Scarborugh. I love it there and yesterday I just wanted to escape there.
Good to see you all last night.
Kita ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 2/24/2006 11:26:00 AM I was in Oxford. Watching Munich.
Interesting... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/24/2006 12:18:00 PM Bunking off with Jumbo.... er I mean Jimbo?

I missed you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/24/2006 12:20:00 PM Kita - it was good to see you too.

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: Racing Dan AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/22/2006 01:50:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: ATM I'm racing Dan to update our blogs seeing as we haven't udated in a while! I haven't really got much to say apart from I'm at work. Bored and playing PacMan coz Jo's not in today :-P I got my letter through regarding Blackpool training conference yesterday. I found out the theme is 'school reunion' etc! Just think about it; people go to college to egt out of school so when last year they did a theme on Disney it was okay. This year for school leavers and college 'go-ers' they do 'school reunion'. It sux!! :-P g2g race hehe! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 2/22/2006 02:00:00 PM I won, wooo! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Karl DATE: 2/22/2006 02:28:00 PM hello kita!

i'm bored 2

Karl ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 2/22/2006 03:48:00 PM I drove round Headington and some prat on a moped/ scooter undertook me (going left instead of right around the vehical in front) and stopped in the line at the lights and answered his mobile!!! What a p***k!

And so many people were on their mobiles when driving. I. Hate. It.

On the plus side, no stalling! ----- -------- TITLE: Work. Paper work. AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/21/2006 02:33:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: SOOOOO busy at work now I've got back. I keep trying to update here but can't get into it before another mound of paper work appears on my desk :-( That's all I've been doing all day= paper work. *Sulks* ----- -------- TITLE: Updates and work! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/17/2006 04:11:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've booked 4 days off work for my 18th!! Thankyou to everyone for wishing me happy birthday and hopefully I will see most of you tonight! :-D I g2g Dan's here to pick me up from the Ertl's house, after me and Chris made beads :-D Had a really fun day! Oh and BTW I went out with my family last night for a meal and was really really good! Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/17/2006 04:32:00 PM :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 2/18/2006 08:33:00 PM hey, not sure exactly when your birthday was but happy 18th!

Laura x ----- -------- TITLE: Valentines and Insurance AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/15/2006 09:32:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I had a really good time last night. I thought it was going to be crap because I had organized everything to perfection but then me and Dan had to change plans at the last minute because mum decided to gatecrash our meal >:-( But in the end we went round to Dans and his mum cooked a gorge curry for us and then me and Dan watched a film and fell asleep together :-) He got me a dozen roses and a box of Thorntons White Choc truffles!! :-P Yum!! I had a really good time, we could have chosen a better film but I didn't know what it was about and wanted to watch it. Twas 'The Pianist'. But never mind! I'm at work now and I got my insurance exam results through in the post this morning; I passed! :-D and I thought I'd failed! YAY! Also for my birthday I am going to Old Orleans on Friday and everyone is invited! PLEASE come along and bring a friend! 19:30-late! Cya there ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/15/2006 10:39:00 AM Well done with the exam result.

You know we're out this Friday for someone's birthday, so we can't make it. Otherwise you'd have to think of a way of getting rid of us wrinklies.

;¬) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/15/2006 10:54:00 AM Toni, me and Livi are coming round on Friday to do beads with Chris!
And you both would be very welcome to come to Old Orleans if you weren't going somewhere else :-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/15/2006 01:17:00 PM Yes, she was gearing up for it. :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 2/15/2006 06:43:00 PM She I told you I made the hint to him! I really enjoyed Sunday!

This is for 2moro:

happy birthday to you.....happy birthday to you........happy birthday dear kita........happy birthday to youuuuuuuu!

Happy 18th Girly! Welcome to the Club have a fabbity time! Just think 18 = freedom woooooooooohooooooooooooo!

We sooooo have to get that flatt together!!!

Rach XX ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 2/15/2006 08:50:00 PM Sorry that comment yesterday was really out of order. I'll try working really hard these next 2 days to make it Friday with you and Chris, but if I do I don't know how I'm gonna get there yet...

*burried under work and starting to feel stressed again* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/16/2006 08:46:00 AM Happy birthday to you - even if you don't read this today.

:-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 2/16/2006 02:03:00 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 2/16/2006 09:19:00 PM nappy smurfday! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Randall DATE: 2/17/2006 03:03:00 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

From Canada.



cold cold canada today!! ----- -------- TITLE: Guess what?.... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/14/2006 09:23:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: go on... guess!!! *chanting* I GOT ROSES!!!!!! :-D :-D :-D for the 1st time ever!!!! I'm so in love with Dan!! :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/14/2006 11:28:00 AM Well I got pizza (for lunch) courtesy of ac Dr. Dressendorfer.
















































:D for you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 2/14/2006 02:32:00 PM I love you to xxxxxxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 2/14/2006 08:53:00 PM whoop de effing do

sorry I'm really mad atm. Turns out I've completely failed my German mocks. ----- -------- TITLE: Baptism AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/12/2006 04:55:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: =WOW!! I dont know what to say!! I feel so spiritual, amazing... I dont know how to explain it. Just WOW!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 2/12/2006 06:18:00 PM How about 'wet'? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/13/2006 11:15:00 AM Nope - not wet now.

But how are you (and your mum) today? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/13/2006 11:50:00 AM hey Toni,
bout mum, I went home last night and she was already in bed. When I got up for work this morning no-one in the house had woken up yet. So I honestly dont know what is going on. :(

I'm going home straight after work today to see what's going on.
From what Zach said I think it's just mum over-reacting etc.

Never mind!
Love to you and Chris ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/13/2006 01:56:00 PM Thanks Lass.

She seemed OK with us yesterday afternoon, although Chris was really worried she'd put her foot in it with her. She asked if everything was OK with you 2 now, and of course your mum asked "what are you talking about"? I think she did eventually dig back out of the the hole, but it was a bit sticky for a moment.

Well done for going back last night though. That was sensible.

BTW do you think this is why she didn't come back to Dan's place for dinner? She also offered for Chris and me to go over for coffee some time (no date fixed yet) which we might take her up on.

(((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/13/2006 02:05:00 PM Thanks Toni,
Chris didn't put her foot in it, it's just mum always thinks that I'm bad-mouthing her. But it ok, promise!
me and Dan are going back to mine tonight instead of normally going out, I'm home tomorrow and wednesday so it shud be fine :)

Yeah would be good if you n Chris wud come round sometime. I knwo Mum would like it :)

Have a safe trip to Germany tonight. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 2/13/2006 07:54:00 PM Yeah Mum often thinks I'm bad-mouthing her too. Sometimes the truth isn't nice, but it's not the same as deliberately being rude. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/14/2006 07:49:00 AM I guess the truth is that when you're a son or daughter you have an access to a person that the rest of the world doesn't. When your children are small, all those mistakes you make stay in the family and hidden from the world's eyes. But when someone grows up they may communicate personal mistakes to the outside world. In that situation a parent could feel very exposed - all their faults that only family see are suddenly on 'public' view. And if they don't know or trust the public that are hearing about them.... well, you can imagine.

I think most of us KNOW we're not perfect, but it's a little uncomfy when you have it proved in front of other people. I know you'll understand this.

Hope you and Dan have an OK time there.

Love to you both. ----- -------- TITLE: Still feeling grotty AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/12/2006 09:51:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I woke up this morning not only full of cold but dizzy and hot. But not only do I feel physically ill emotionally I feel just 'run down'. Thats the only way to explain it; run down. Maybe it's just nerves and excitement for today? ATM I just want to fall asleep and wake up monday morning. I really want to get baptised but it's like everyone watching me, if I muck up everyone is going to be there; laughing. Also Sue and Dave have invited Mum, Stu and Zach for dinner tonight :-S ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: frankie DATE: 2/13/2006 07:09:00 PM haha u got wet mwahahahahahahahahahaha ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: frankie (shorty) DATE: 2/13/2006 07:10:00 PM haha u got wet mwahahahahahahahaha!!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/14/2006 09:22:00 AM oi!!! Frankie!!!! :-P
How did you find my blog??!?!?!
:D ----- -------- TITLE: The Kings Centre, Baptism AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/11/2006 03:06:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: For you guys that don't know where the King Centre is in Oxford. Here's a map and here's a webiste that will give you directions. It starts at 14:00 and finishes about 15:30 ish. Hopefully see you there! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 2/11/2006 10:55:00 PM I hope that you weren't too ill to cook & the meal went OK. I also hope you are feeling better.
BTW well done for trying so hard with your family, you have courage & humility. Do try to keep to what you said about giving more time to them, especially your Mum. I only hope that she begins to appreciate how lucky she is to have you!
Love Chris ----- -------- TITLE: Pants AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/10/2006 12:55:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -I've caught the cold thingy. So I'm overdosing on Lemsip drinks and Tunes sore throut sweet and lots of Vitamin C. Praying that both me and Dan will be fine for Sunday. And tonight for that matter, I can't serve a meal if I can't stand up to cook it with all the sneezing etc. Ugghh. Now I know how Dan feels but Im not too bad ATM. Dan's ill in bed, bless him. I really hope with me taking all of this stuff then I will be fine to work tomorrow, I can't afford not to be in work; there's only me and Paul working tomorrow (Jo and Isalda are away). Oh pants! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/10/2006 01:30:00 PM Hope you feel better soon.

You should know better than to perform mutual osculation with an infectious person.

;¬) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 2/10/2006 09:41:00 PM I was gonna say that. DON'T KISS EACH OTHER!!! ----- -------- TITLE: Patching things up AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/09/2006 10:31:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -with family is harder than I originally thought. I'm trying to make an effort with mum and homelife before I try things with the extended family. I am cooking for mum and Zach tomorrow so hopefully things will get better (seeing as she's actually letting me use her kitchen). I know I need to try harder with them, and I know I'm not around enough. So from now on I am having a night-in with mum at least once a week, hopefully twice (or more). It's just strange, she never wanted to see me before I found a decent socail life, so why does she make a fuss when I do have a good social life?! Never mind, it's not worth worrying about the past, now I just have to make things better for the future. ... except Grandma's scarey when she's angry!! :-S ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/09/2006 11:10:00 AM Grandma Joy?

Scary?

Actually, yes, I can quite imagine that!

And well done for reaching out to your mum again. I have to keep reminding myself when I'm online that you're the slender 17 YO that I know, and not someone with a lot more years experience. But then I guess you got the years of experience squished into a relatively short and painful period.

Oh, and your spelling helps too ;¬)

(((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: Things AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/07/2006 08:50:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: just seem to go past so quickly ATM. Like 1 day passes and it seems like a week ago. Things from a long ago came up today. Tis very strange, I don't know how to explain it. Trying not to put my foot in it; Today I remembered things from when I was about 10 and Mum and Dad were still together. Its not a bad thing but sommetimes I wish they were still together. -*I've just seen an advert on TV on "How To Divorce Without Screwing Up Your Children"!! I can't believe it! Why don't they do a programme on 'How To Make Your Marriage Better' or 'Keeping Your Marriage Happy' it annoys me so so much* I'm trying to concentrate on why I was going to blog in the 1st place, but I'm finding it hard. I need to sort things out with my family, there's been a huge missunderstanding. I don't know how to put this correctly. Can you please pray about my family. I honestly don't think they will be coming to the Baptism. Or my Birthday for that matter. Basically, I've changed my mobile phone and hardly anyone apart from close friends know my new number. Mum knows it. People have been phoning home for quite a while now and I haven't got the messages, even when I was at home. I got the message about a week or so ago and people have been calling for about a month ago. To cut a long story short; people are annoyed with me because I have made a 'wrong choice over family or friends' and church and my home life. I'm not spending enough time at home and too much time with Dan, friends and people from Church. Can you please pray about it. I don't know what to say. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 2/07/2006 10:36:00 PM Praying for you now.

Hang in there lass. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 2/07/2006 10:49:00 PM Ditto
love Chris ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 2/08/2006 11:27:00 AM Ok will do, email me if you wanna talk about it, or if you just wanna chatt! Oh I left you a message on Jon forum thingy!

Rach X ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 2/08/2006 07:01:00 PM "Can you please pray about it. I don't know what to say."
I have been praying about it & I think you should say sorry.

I know that is easier said than done, but an apology can be very disarming. If you humble yourself, & say that you are sorry to have hurt your family, and that you do love them very much, & really want them to be there at your baptism & birthday, then I think that could make a world of difference.

You do also need to give them a higher priority in your life. I don't mean to sound critical, I just want the best for you & for God to be glorified in your life.

I will continue to pray.

Love, Chris ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 2/08/2006 07:58:00 PM wibble ----- -------- TITLE: Vertigo AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 2/05/2006 12:36:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: was amazing! I loved it! If anyone wants to check out what happened go to www.vertigo-ox.com and theres a movie of what happened on the 1st Oct 05 and info etc of what happened last night. I had such a good time worshipping etc. If anyone wants to come to the next one it's on the 1st July 2006, 19:30 - 21:30 but the cafe place is open till 22:30. It was sch a laugh and great worship, though I didn't like QUENCH that much, I couldnt focus properly on the main reason everyone got together. I just think it's amazing, so many Chritians all supporting each other in 1 room, singing, praising, worshipping all together. All focused on 1 person; God. I felt like crying, shouting, singing, everything all at once lastnight. It just was great and I am SO looking forward to Soul Survivor. I have to know he dates we are going to Soul Survivor NEXT WEEK otherwise I can't have the dates off work. So can you lot let me know whats going on otherwise I'll book the 1 st week and can' change it :-P Can't think what else to say... Happy Birthday Chris and Frankie! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 2/06/2006 12:05:00 PM JESUS LOVES YOU!!!


Yeah Quench really didn't seem to do much. One song and then a Dead Or Alive cover really doesn't count as a proper performance really, I thought they'd at least have them instead of the house band.

But still. JESUS LOVES YOU!!!!!! LMAO!!!! (or LMBO if we're going for clean living!) ----- -------- TITLE: Forgiving but not forgetting AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/31/2006 10:26:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -is very hard. Randall put on his blog some words Henri Nouwen said about 'Healing Our Memories'. But ATM I'm finding it hard. Everyone around me has been so great. Even people that have only said small things or just given me a tiny hug when I needed it have helped so much. But how do I forgive him?! Why did he do that?! I'm so angry at him, so annoyed... Reading my Bible has helped such a lot, telling me to love my enemy (in Ephesians, I can't find it ATM). ~***~ On a different note, I had a good long talk with Dan last night, trying to write our testimonies, talking about the past, present and future and how God was with us from the start, how he knew us from birth and is going to shape us in the future. T+C we need your help with writing our testimonies. I don't know what else to say, work is distracing me and I can't concentrate. I need the net at home! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/31/2006 12:04:00 PM Just open up your heart. If you want I'll have a look. Mine was a bit too long so don't worry too much about adding every detail. When we were writing ours with Tammi and Vic I remember jokingly saying 'chapter 1' at the beginning!!!

It'll be fine. Talk to me!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/31/2006 10:51:00 PM We'll be glad to help. I suspect it'll be a case of "what can I leave out" rather than what to put in. Obviously you'll need to be careful about what you say too, but we can help there too.

As for forgiveness, I think you're doing great, and as you release more of the feelings to God he'll bring healing and restoration. I've struggled in this area too, and appreciate sometimes it isn't either automatic or easy.

:-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Randall DATE: 2/01/2006 03:15:00 AM Hang in there Kita. Keep leaning into God every chance you get.

I prayed for you tonight. ----- -------- TITLE: Can you answer this question: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/30/2006 09:18:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: If there's a risk that it could turn out badly at the end, is there any point in carrying it on? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/30/2006 11:20:00 AM Yes if there is the danger it can go right

I love you

Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 1/30/2006 11:23:00 AM email me?

luv Jon x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/30/2006 02:00:00 PM It depends what it is, the possible rewards of it going right and the consequences + likelihood of failure.

Then there's faith. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi (loves you!) DATE: 1/30/2006 08:08:00 PM well, if the situation is jumping off a cliff I can assure you it's not worth the rush off falling.

YOU ARE GETTING BAPTISED! YOU CAN'T BACK OUT OF IT NOW I HAVE FRIENDS COMING!!!

I had a mini dilema like that when I first started going out with James. There was a risk I could do somethng bad to him and hurt either him or me (don't ask what I have no idea now!), but I chose to risk it.

Sum up the 'risk'. Weigh out benfits and potential loss (I did this with therapist!) then make a decision. Call in others for an outsider's wiew.
Pray too!

Yeah, like Jon, email me. I may be avoiding my blog for random days... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi (loves you!) DATE: 1/30/2006 08:08:00 PM well, if the situation is jumping off a cliff I can assure you it's not worth the rush off falling.

YOU ARE GETTING BAPTISED! YOU CAN'T BACK OUT OF IT NOW I HAVE FRIENDS COMING!!!

I had a mini dilema like that when I first started going out with James. There was a risk I could do somethng bad to him and hurt either him or me (don't ask what I have no idea now!), but I chose to risk it.

Sum up the 'risk'. Weigh out benfits and potential loss (I did this with therapist!) then make a decision. Call in others for an outsider's wiew.
Pray too!

Yeah, like Jon, email me. I may be avoiding my blog for random days... ----- -------- TITLE: Updates AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/29/2006 02:35:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I must appologise now coz I haven't updated in a while. I just haven't had anything to say. Richard and Anna's was really cool on Friday but I've been busy doing paperwork at Uniglobe so I couldn't say anything. Looking forward to Church today :-) See most of you then... Laters... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/30/2006 09:31:00 AM Kita - it was lovely to see you yesterday, although it was a little too fleeting. Hope today goes well for you.

:) ----- -------- TITLE: I don't know whether I like this: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/25/2006 11:02:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:

"Rapper Kanye West, unafraid to speak out over personal slights and more serious charges of political persecution, wears a crown of thorns as he poses as Jesus Christ on the cover of the next issue of Rolling Stone. West says being outspoken is a key to his success. "If I was more complacent and let things slide, my life would be easier, but you all wouldn't be as entertained," he said." The report says. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/25/2006 12:26:00 PM Personally I'd ignore it. It's just one lot of meeja hijacking another lot of meeja. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: ~*~rozy~*~ DATE: 1/25/2006 04:19:00 PM what is it that u dont like? i think maybe that it was NOT a good idea lol, but at the same time i know he is a deeply religious man, so maybe this is one of the ways he shows it? dont mean to cause offence!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/25/2006 09:07:00 PM erm... Prob not best idea to pose as Jesus, but maybe he's meaning a different angle.

Have a kiss and a dance! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 1/27/2006 01:19:00 PM Hmm...I'm an athiest, but I generally thought Christians frowned upon people who liken themselves to Jesus like that. Tis a bit gruesome too.

Krazy ----- -------- TITLE: Sleeping AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/25/2006 09:07:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I slept so well last night thanks to Chris. The PJ's were soooo warm and I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. Recently I haven't slept well at all, I've been waking up in the night and having bad dreams etc but last night, as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out!! In fact I had a really good time last night, talking about changing to be more like God and to please Him. That sounds wrong but I don't know how else to explain it in a couple of sentences. Basically, for me, I needed to change such a lot and I knew I could never do it on my own. Over that past 7 months I have;
  1. Stopped self harming
  2. Stopped getting drunk
  3. Stopped doing 'bad things' basically

But I know that I still have a long road to walk and I am no way near the end (if there is one!!), but I'm going to carry on walking with the Lord and carry on changing to be a better person...

*Sorry I've just got distracted some tickets have come in the office and I had to do some work for a couple of secs!!*

urmmm... where was I?

I'll get back to you later.

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/25/2006 12:26:00 PM Glad you slept well.

:-)) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 1/27/2006 01:20:00 PM Glad things are going well Kita.

Krazy ----- -------- TITLE: Busy But Fun AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/24/2006 04:40:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've had a really good hrad working, fun day today. It has gone really quickly and got a lot of work done. Looking forward to seeing the 'Thursday' lot tonight :-D should be fun! G2G back to work for another 15/20 mins. Over and out..... *twist* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/24/2006 10:24:00 PM It was lovely to have you over.

Thanks. ----- -------- TITLE: Matthew 7:7-8 AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/22/2006 01:16:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened" ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: hannah spanner DATE: 1/23/2006 05:40:00 PM now thats exactly what i needed to hear!!
has made a crap week a bit better!!
see you soon my lovely!!
hannah crocko ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/23/2006 10:03:00 PM ...Twist... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/24/2006 08:25:00 AM And shout? ----- -------- TITLE: A lot better AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/21/2006 10:28:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I feel a lot better today. Less stressed, less tired and apart from being at work right now it would be fab. I stayed the night at Dan's last night and was so tired I nearly fell asleep at the dinner table! Seriously! Everyone just said, look, just go to bed! I did and I am very very glad. I feel a lot better. Ben I'm sorry I didn't go ice-skating yesterday. And Rach n Livi, I'm sorry I did't text you both back, I was nackered! Hope everyone else slept well. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Rachel DATE: 1/21/2006 01:22:00 PM hey kita...did you get my email? If you did, I am sorry, but we are unaible to cook at my house, due to the fact that the rest of my family are ill. Sorry. See you soon. Rach x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/21/2006 02:35:00 PM sorry I haven't replied. I've been busy at work.
Kita x
BTW that's fine about T tonight.
x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 1/21/2006 03:43:00 PM glad your less stressed and things are ok. Sleep is good ;) hehe

Jon xx ----- -------- TITLE: Stressy AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/20/2006 01:14:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Sorry about yesterday, I just had a crap day at work, I was very tired (still am tired) and also things were not to great at home and other things etc. So I'm sorry if: A) I snapped at you B) I said something I should really not have said or C) Things didn't go aswell as they should have done because of me, Jon, I hope you're ok and you've talked to someone. Also I'm sorry bout yesterday Dan, I'm glad the exam went well, praying for you still Rach, looking forward to Saturday, thanks for inviting us Livi, praying that things go well with James about the ex-sh-er thingy and also hoping to catch up soon Ben, I'm also sorry i can't make it tonight, I'm very tired and ATM you wouldn't like me at all!! -sorry about the short end of this posty, Clients come into the office. g2g byeeeeee!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/20/2006 02:04:00 PM Kita - if you want to get out and come over, you'd be welcome. ----- -------- TITLE: Bad Day AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/19/2006 03:56:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I have had THE MOST WORST DAY IN HISTORY (in my opinion). Everything is my fault. Everything is going wrong. I feel useless and so annoyed I am trying SO hard to do what's best but all I seem to be doing is wrong or i seem to be in the way the whole time. I can't get anything right and it feels like evryone's shouting at me. I am not going to Dan's tonight I am going home and being by myself as that's what people want. I am just so fed up, p*ssed off and upset. Work's stressing me out. I can't get anything right. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/19/2006 04:33:00 PM Kita please tell me what is up and come over tonight, I'm so worried about you

I love you xxxxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/19/2006 04:46:00 PM Who wants you to go home? The Kita I know and love would be getting out early to get the bus here.

I hope things get better, God bless

I love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/19/2006 10:43:00 PM Kita - you have many things right.

I tried to call you a couple of times this evening but your phone was off :-(

Did pray for you though. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/20/2006 09:53:00 AM :-( hmmm hmmm *wimpers*

Go see this friend of mine. He's good at dealing with problems and has a house full of warm friendly people and a mad dog! And he knows this guy called Jesus so he'll be able to help you!
At least you haven't got to listening German papers to do at home. Grrrrr......

BTW I don't know if this new blog addy'll work. Same blog, different addy ----- -------- TITLE: Working AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/18/2006 04:06:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Busy at work so I'm sorry if I haven't email you today, or haven't texted you either. I'm sorry. I've g2g, learning new things. This morning I wrote a whole big post but didn't finish it when my boss caught me on it so hopefully I'll post it tomorrow. Hope you all are having a good day. Not working too hard I hope ;-) Kita x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/18/2006 04:30:00 PM That's fine - hope work is going well for you and you're learning lots.

Toni ----- -------- TITLE: Bouncer and Hovis AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/17/2006 01:47:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
my pet! my pet!
Wow! Look what I've got thanks for Jonksy!! :-)
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/18/2006 10:56:00 AM After last night it seems kind of appropriate that you have a virtual pet called bouncer.

Now, can I have a glass of water please? ;¬)

Being serious for a mo - how did you get on with your mum this morning? Chris told me about your converstion and the party. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/18/2006 02:43:00 PM You got any nice jugs? ----- -------- TITLE: Baptism AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/16/2006 10:58:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm really looking forward to my baptism but I am so nervous! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/16/2006 02:04:00 PM So are we.

:-)) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 1/17/2006 11:08:00 AM Just relax and enjoy it. If it's something you want, it should be fun.

Krazy x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/17/2006 12:07:00 PM when is it??
You coming in with dan and Jon today??
Rach x ----- -------- TITLE: Well... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/16/2006 10:19:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I'm sitting in Dan's room alone (he's gone to physics), listening to Floyd and I've decided I hate this CPU. Tis annoying and I can't work it. Had a good weekend really. Kinda fun :-D Rachs partaayy was v.good and made everyone smile!! I'm working at Vickers today 12-closing. I need money so have resorted to working on my days off work at Uniglobe. Hoping for a pay rise on my 18th, I know i get an exta 50p per hour at Vickers but I need one at Uniglobe really. *missing Dan* But can everyone pray for him in his physics exam on friday, I know he'll do well but everything helps. Chin up chickens :-P ----- -------- TITLE: I feel... AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/14/2006 01:21:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: angry, annoyed, awake, bitchy, blank, busy, confused, cranky, creative, depressed, dirty, drained, envious, excited, exhausted, full, fustrated, geeky, gloomy, good, grumpy, guilty, hopefull, indifferent, irritated, jealous, lazy, lonely, loved, moody, nervous, okay, pessimistic, refreshed, rejected, restless, sad, scared, sleepy, stressed, thankful, thoughtful, tired, uncomfortable, weird, working and worried. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/15/2006 03:23:00 PM Wow that's pretty intense.

I know what'll cheer you up: imagine a hall full of teenagers, alcohol, loud music and cowboys and indians! Now think of Ali...!!!!

Hope you feel more
loved
excited
hopeful and
refreshed soon! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/16/2006 10:51:00 AM Hope today is a better day for you too.

See you tomorrow evening? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/16/2006 11:03:00 AM Yeah sure we're coming! I'm looking forward to it.
sorry to hear your weekend wasn't great,
hope this week better for you.
Kita ----- -------- TITLE: I'm sick of it! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/13/2006 02:27:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: arrrgh!!!!! I'm going to go MAD!! 1st of all the Oxfam offices above us are being renovated so we've been having drilling and hammering ALL MORNING! Now they've managed to set the fire alarm off for the whole building and ARE STILL BL**DY HAMMERING!!! It's driving me insane! I've got a splitting headache, ringing in my ears because of this alarm and GRRRRRRR!!!!!!! i'M NOT VERY HAPPY!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 04:12:00 PM Try BluTack.

In your ears. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/13/2006 08:22:00 PM that may be tricky to remove. Like putting chewing gum in your hair.

Cheeky comment: would you know about that Toni?! Sorry I couldn't resist! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 10:50:00 PM Pardon? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/15/2006 03:19:00 PM ;-) ----- -------- TITLE: "Do not be afraid" AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/13/2006 10:17:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I know I shouldn't be afraid but I am. It helps to know the LORD is with me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 11:48:00 AM (((hug))) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 11:59:00 AM BTW your ability to find useful verses and then link to them through your blog page creation is impressive. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Olivia DATE: 1/13/2006 01:05:00 PM Can I have one??? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/13/2006 01:07:00 PM "Can I have one???" one what?! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 01:40:00 PM Liv - here's a (((hug))) specially for you.

And here's a (bit of) a verse for you.

From Acts 9 v19 I served the Lord with great humility and with tears, although I was severely tested.

Seems kind of appropriate really. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/13/2006 02:12:00 PM Sorry didnt email earlier, have now

Love you xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/13/2006 02:54:00 PM SEEE - Toni got it, I wanted a verse!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/13/2006 02:56:00 PM okay okay!! I'm just thick! :-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 03:41:00 PM Not thick, just focussed. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/13/2006 10:52:00 PM BTW Nikita - if you ever wondered what your spiritual gifting might be, I wouldn't mind betting it's finding the right verses for situations. ----- -------- TITLE: Quite weird really AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/13/2006 09:32:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:

Searching blogs this morning I found at Randalls place "Things you probably didn't know. ...or want to know". I clicked on the link and found loadsa other stuff, like; St Patrick, the patron saint of Ireland, was not Irish More money is spent each year on alcohol and cigarettes than on Life insurance Sir Winston Churchill was born in a ladies' cloakroom after his mother went into labour during a dance at Blenheim Palace, It is illegal to play tennis in the streets of Cambridge, There are over 30 000 verses in the Bible, William Shakespeare married Anne Hathaway on 27 November 1582, he was 18 at the time, When young and impoverished, Pablo Picasso kept warm by burning his own paintings, In the story of Cinderella, her slippers were originally fur, but they became glass because of an error in translation, According to Genesis 1:20-22 the chicken came before the egg

Some of them are really cool! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Olivia (no 'q'!) DATE: 1/13/2006 01:04:00 PM William Shakespeare married Anne Hathaway on 27 November 1582, he was 18 at the time - this is because he got her pregnant! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/13/2006 01:06:00 PM no way!! i didn't know that!! woah!! scarey! ----- -------- TITLE: Experience AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/12/2006 04:00:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've just realised how many life experiences I've had adn learnt from. In the office a couple of minutes ago a fuse just blew in a lamp and no-one knew what to do, I had to show them. This isn't the 1st time. I'm the youngest in the office but I'm the only one (excluding Isalda who has her own kids etc) who knows how to cook, clean and basically look after myself if I was on my own. I kinda think it's a bit pathetic when you're about 25-30 and don't know what to do if a fuse blows, or other stuff (I can't think of an example!). ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/12/2006 04:48:00 PM Guess I know who I'll want around when I'm 25-30!!


Love you

Dan ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Oliviq DATE: 1/13/2006 01:03:00 PM Tough luck she's living with me! I need a cook, cleaner... and Michelle's not up for it! ----- -------- TITLE: Understanding AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/11/2006 10:31:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I know now that I lived in darkness, I know now that it was wrong and I wasn't thinking. But the pain inside only God can take away. I also have to accept what happened and move on. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/11/2006 02:32:00 PM Ah, Ecclesiastes!

It may take some time, be patient.
And help me to stay on track too!!! Love you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/11/2006 02:40:00 PM yeah Livi! Tis one of my fav verses!!

Of course I'll help you, just shout when you ever wana talk n I'll be there in a flash...
*thinks*
Well maybe not a flash, a bus or Dan's car is more likely but hey! never mind! lol!
:-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/11/2006 05:02:00 PM hey kita darling,
listen i don't know whats going on at the moment but i want you to know that i love you and am here for you if ever you want, well, anything!
you will always have my prayers and my friendship so keep pressing forward!
hannah c ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/12/2006 11:42:00 AM There in a flash... on a bus. Riiiight I don't see the 2 connecting! LOL! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/12/2006 02:45:00 PM 'I also have to accept what happened and move on.'

Absoloutely!

And with God's help, & a little help from your friends, you will!

Lots of love, see you tonight,
Chris ----- -------- TITLE: Thoughts and feelings AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/09/2006 01:04:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: This weekend I've had a lot to think about and get my head round. But thankfully I've had a lot of time to think about what happened etc, and also great friends to help me talk it through with me. I'm finding it hard but in time I know I'll be able to face what happened. Most of you will know what I'm going on about it, if you know me and also read this blog, if you don't then I'm sorry and to put it bluntly I haven't told you for a reason; I can't. I really want to blog everything and get it out my system. But I'm fighting not to. Sorry. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/09/2006 02:32:00 PM :,( ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/09/2006 07:11:00 PM Kita - It's sensible not to discuss stuff yet. There may come a time when you're free to, but for now it's best to keep it off line. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 1/09/2006 11:11:00 PM I know nothing, as Manuel would say, but I find a good thing to do is to write everything down on paper, to let it out, rip it into shreds and then burn it over a candle (carefully).

But if you're not ready to tell people, then don't. No-one should pressure you.

((((Kita))))

Krazy ----- -------- TITLE: Question to everyone = AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/05/2006 04:19:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: 'Do you think someone can self-harm without physically hurting themselves?' ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/05/2006 04:32:00 PM We can certainly put ourselves through a lot of mental anguish - I certainly have in the past.

Maybe this is something we should talk through later instead, esp if Liv can't make it.

(((hug))) again. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/05/2006 04:38:00 PM Toni, I know that it would help me a lot, but I've never been able to talk about it.
I just find it very hard and would just listen to you all talking and not be able to say anything myself.
Just to tell you... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/05/2006 05:25:00 PM Yes - Trying to think why but hard to type it really

Love Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/05/2006 05:32:00 PM Maybe you've never felt yourself to be in a place where you can say how you've felt without scaring/offending people? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/05/2006 10:05:00 PM Kita, there was only one person other than the doctor who I ever told (this was willingly) in detail what I did to myself. And that person sadly was Sarah, so we never got to talk about it much when I got better.

You can talk to me. I know what you've done some pretty horrible stuff to yourself, but you're not the only one, and while we may both shock each other, you can tell me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/05/2006 10:06:00 PM And yes, there is harmful behaviour which doesn't have to involve physically damaging yourself. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 1/06/2006 08:23:00 AM Hey hon,

You probably can, but (this is going to sound painfully obvious, so I'm sorry) try not to. On top of all the other s*** that goes on in life, you don't need that as well.

I know I'm not your first choice, and talking doesn't seem like what you want to do right now, but I'm here, alright?

Krazy x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Rach DATE: 1/06/2006 09:04:00 AM Hey Huni,

Why do you wanna know, you ok send me an email, we can talk about it. If you need any help with anything, then just say and i will help.

Hows you, did dan give out the invites last night? How are you? Are you coming out saturady?

Rach xXx ----- -------- TITLE: Please excuse me AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/05/2006 01:03:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: - if I go really quiet or snappy today. I went home last night and things didn't go too well. It was my fault. But I just don't understand things at times. And I'm just finding it very hard. So I'm sorry to everyone that I meet today as they won't like me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/05/2006 01:50:00 PM It's OK Kita - we all have days like that, where despite what we want, it all seems to come out bad.
#
Chris and I were talking last night in the car. I said something, she didn't like it. I said I was the bad one out of the pair of us. She said I was probably the kinder one of the pair. I suggested I was both the kinder one AND the bad one, and that I needed her to keep me in line.

You get the picture.....

So come to those that love you, and will hug you, even if you have slightly spikey edges ;¬) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/05/2006 02:14:00 PM I must admit, I still dont see how it was your fault ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/05/2006 10:01:00 PM I don't know what happened so... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 1/06/2006 08:03:00 PM I met you that day & I liked you!
Chris ----- -------- TITLE: Words and no words AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/05/2006 10:07:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Isaiah 1:16-17 (New International Version - UK) 16 "wash and make yourselves clean. Take your evil deeds out of my sight! Stop doing wrong, 17 learn to do right! -" This passage just spoke to me so I thought I'd blog it. . . I can't blog properly today. I'll try again later... Hope everyone's okay. p.s. Toni, Chris- Is it still on for tonight? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/05/2006 10:40:00 AM Yes!

Looking forward to seeing you all again.

:-) ----- -------- TITLE: ROAR!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/04/2006 12:39:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -said the lion. Moo! said the cow Baa! said the sheep. Well can you tell I'm bored or do I have to spell it out? "I-T spells it" sorry! ~ I don't really know what to say. . .. ... .. . I'm looking to get the net at home and wondering whats the cheapest but best 1 I can get/afford. Part from that, I've been busy but not much to comment on. Slept home last night for the 1st time in 2006. Weird. I'm doing the window displays in my office, advertising Valentines Day for f*** sakes! It's only just gone New Years and now everywhere is advertising for Valentines Day!! Well I am kinda glad seeingas my Birthday is not long after ... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/04/2006 01:13:00 PM Woof Woof Ribbit Woof Woof

Mwa, Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/04/2006 03:25:00 PM Not sure what kinda animal makes all those noises...! ;-)

Valentines Day... groan again. Last year I was in Austria skiing on 14/02 and everyone was ILL!!!! Plus Guy beat me at pool as I remember...
Bonded a lot that week. Fell off a chair lift too! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/04/2006 03:43:00 PM :):):) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/04/2006 03:52:00 PM "Blonded a lot that week. Fell off a chair lift too!"

LOL

;¬) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/04/2006 03:55:00 PM lol :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: livi DATE: 1/04/2006 09:18:00 PM OI!

LMAO!!!

Blonded... cheeky beggar! Get back to lab tidying! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/04/2006 10:55:00 PM "LMAO!!!"

Olivia - just how long has your bottom been detachable?

;) ----- -------- TITLE: Adios Amigos AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/03/2006 09:24:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: 'Twas Rach's 18th on the 1st so we all went out for drinks last night to celebrate. It was me, Dan, Jon, Rach, Will, Sarah T and Penny. Was so fun!! :-D We started out in the Copa bar (opposite the New Theatre) but I got I.D'd so couldn't drink that much. I introduced Rach and the others to 'Jelly Baby' drink. (WKD original, Bacardi Breezer orange and Smirnoff Ice original all mixed together) It tastes like jelly babies! It's so yummy except you can't taste the alcohol so it gets you very drunk, very quickly. I've learnt from experience. We moved onto Old Orleans for cocktails, (purple rain is gorge!!) and I managed to spend more money than I should have done but was very funny to see Dan drunk :-P We caught the bus back to Kiddy (we as in, Jon, Rach, me and Dan) and Dave picked us up. Was so funny to listen to Dan trying to have a intelligent convo with his Dad! lol! Me and Rach were sober, Jon was tipsy/merry and Dan.... well yeah! lol! But we had a really good time. I went to bed early after feeling ill, but I had a good time and I *think* that I might be going to Old Orleans for my 18th (?!?!) what do you think? Love Kita xXx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 1/03/2006 10:39:00 AM I still wouldn't say I was that drunk, no hangover, dont feel ill at all. Guess you may have to try a bit harder my love! Lol! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/03/2006 11:11:00 AM Dan is that a challenge?! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Krazy DATE: 1/03/2006 11:12:00 AM Glad you had fun.

Krazy ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 1/03/2006 11:18:00 AM It was fun! and yes orleans for your birthday good plan, book the resturant or we shall cos the food also is stunning. Glad you had fun.

Jon x ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/03/2006 11:32:00 AM KK, sounds good!! :-)
I've just booked the 16th 17th and 18th off work so I can PARTAAAAY!! lol! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/03/2006 11:34:00 AM Kita - can I do the boring parent bit, and gently remind you of what you were so glad to escape from. Love you guys too much to stand back and say nothing.

Boring parent bit over. ;) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 1/04/2006 03:23:00 PM Old Orleans? Groan... ----- -------- TITLE: My New Year So Far AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 1/02/2006 04:26:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -has been okay. well good but I was hoping that something amazing would happen or something would like 'jump out' at me. But it didn't happen. As you would expect really. To tell the truth I should be spending more time at home. I went home today for 20 to 30 mins to pick up some clothes and then back to the Hadlands. I've spent nearly all of 2006 here so far But i know that it's not fair on mum. "you have to book time to spend with your daughter now" Also was really nice to talk to Dad at New Year. It didn't happen. But ATM i'm where I want to be and I never want to be anywhere else. ~***~ My heads confuddled. I want to help but can't. I want to put everything right but I don't know how. I wish I could turn back time. But I wouldn't be here now. . . ----- -------- TITLE: Happy New Year AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/31/2005 10:54:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
I just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year!!
If I'm not seeing you tonight, have a good one and enjoy yourselves!!
----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/01/2006 01:02:00 PM Thanks Kita - same to you.

:) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 1/02/2006 10:44:00 AM Wow, what a crazy colourfull post. Have a good one kita, even though I saw you on the eavening couldnt find you at 0:00 ----- -------- TITLE: Working on New Years Eve AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2005 03:25:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Can I ask you all something? Do you think it's stupid of me and Paul to come into work tomorrow for 3 hours?!?! Business here is soooooo quiet and there's no point in me actually being here today. SO WHY DO I HAVE TO COME IN TOMORROW?!?! It's just plain stupid! grrrrrr! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: ~*~rozy~*~ DATE: 12/30/2005 07:25:00 PM hey kita, nice new blog! im in the same boat as u, work 2day was empty, what is the bloody point of 2morow? look at it as more money, and it will be better! i mean u dont have to work 8 and a half hours 2moz!!

happy new year!

Will :-D ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: K DATE: 12/30/2005 08:02:00 PM I've gotta work tomorrow too, but for a few more hours. I don't want to work though because I want to spend some time with James before I drag him along to Dan's! Arrgh! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 12/30/2005 08:03:00 PM that was a mis-type. My name is not 'k'! It's me!!!! Livi ----- -------- TITLE: Now its your turn!! AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2005 01:12:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Name - Nikita Jade Redding Birthday - February 16th Age - 17 Height - 5'5 or 6ish Eye Color - blue Hair Color - Naturally Blonde but died brown Favorite Food - fruits Favorite Color - pink Favorite Place - ATM The Hadlands house Favorite Number - 16 Favorite Country - Germany Favorite Band - Pink Floyd Favorite Movie - Pirates of The Caribbean Favorite Singer - ATM Elton John Favorite Instrument - urmmm, all of them?! Favorite Playstation/Xbox/etc game - soem shooting one, (I dont play them v.often) Favorite Computer Game - soap bubble on ZeroDegreeBurn Favorite Drink - Oranje Juice or Strawberry Milkshake Favorite Music Genre - urm? Soft rock? Worship? soppy stuff!! Favorite Store - Debbenhams coz they've got everything Favorite Letter - J, coz its nice to write Favorite MTV Show - dnt watch it Favorite FUSE show - huh? What nationalities are you? - English, tiny bit of scottish and extremely small bit of chinese! Favorite lyric from a song - A dream is a wish your heart make, when you're fast asleep Favorite Amusement Park - Alton Towers Favorite Waterpark - Thorpe Park What year are you in? - I would be in year 13 What school do you go too? -I would be at The Marlbro' but I left Doyou still watch cartoons? - yup :-) What`s your favorite decade? - this 1?!? What colors are your bedroom? - Purple and Orange What colors do you want your bedroom too be? - cream Favorite Sports - dance and badminton What type of computer do you have? - i dont know... What type of internet do you have? - dunt How much did you weigh when you were born? - 7 something Are you creative? - yeah Do you like DIY? - kinda Can you sew? -in sm,all quantities Can you knit? - kinda Ever beaten anyone up? - yeah 2 guys but not at once!! lol! Ever got beaten up? - well.. Who is your best friend? - Dan, Livi, Rach etc etc Who did you last text? - Dan Who did you last talk too? - Isalda- im at work What are you listening too right now? - car driving past the office Who`s birthday was last? - Dave's Who`s birthday is coming up? - Frankie's then mine!!! Do you wear glasses? - nope Do you wear contacts? - nope Would you consider yourself 'deaf-dumb-blind'? - stupid dumb but not really anything esle!! lol What was your last vacation? - SCARBOROUGH!! WOOO! Do you like your bus? - my bus? HUH? Stagecoach is crappy, Grayline's better Do you like the kids in your neighborhood? - yeh, im one of them!! hehe! Do you often get mail? - not really Are you always outside? - when the weather's nice, but im never home Ever counted to 1,000? -not out-loud! hehe!! Ever counted to 1,000,000? - nope i dnt think so When did you learn how to read? - when i was younger! my first ever book i read was Bambi and I cried! lol! Who was the smartest person you knew? - Teachers, they have to be Ever been in love? - yes What was your first screenname? - kita16 First email address? - same as now When did you get your first computer? - i haven't got one personally but mum got 1 just before Dad left What was your favorite show way back when? - cant remember Do you like sunsets? - yeah Do you like snow? - YES YES I DO!!lol! Did you ever rake leaves just to jump in them? - noep i dnt think so Ever build a snowman? - when the snow deep enough but I always remeber Dad helping me and Zach make one and then I smashed it and felt soooooo guilty afterwards!! lol! Ever played a guitar? - tried Who`s your favorite guitarist? - Toni ;-) Who`s your favorite singer? - Livi ;-) What`s your least favorite store? - summit like Game Ever came close to dying? - yes Ever saved someone`s life?- not that i know of Ever snuck into someone`s house? - yeh Ever snuck into someone`s back garden? dunt think so Ever got a knife held up to you? - ... Ever got a gun held up to you? - no Ever held a gun? - no n never want to Ever held drugs? - yes Ever done drugs? - yes, and i wish i hadn't but I cant change the past and I dont do them now Ever had sex? - yes, same as above Ever stole something? - yes, same as above Ever lost something you borrowed? - yeah! library books! lol Ever eaten animal food? - nope If so, what kind? -i said no didn't I!! Do you listen to the radio? - yes What`s your favorite radio station? 99.1 (Radio 1) What`s your favorite school subject? - art and drama What`s your least favorite subject? - science! Ever failed a subject? - yup, German lol What`s the lowest grade you got? - EE at GCSE Health and Socail Care Ever went to summer school? - yeah to take my Cycling Proficeincy (sp?) Are you a dark, gloomy person or a perky person? - urm? you guys can answer that!! Are you unique? - everyone is unique What`s the first Greenday song you heard? - time of your life Ever been to a wedding? - yeah Ever been to a Bar Mitzvah? - no Ever been to a Communion or Confirmation? - no What`s the last movie you saw in theatres? - Wallance and Gromit Who was your first crush? - James somethin inyr 5, I broke his arm coz he wudnt go out with me!! biytach! What gives you a natural high? - worshipping with best buddies and dancing Ever got stoned? - yes Ever been pressured to do something? - yes- getting stoned Ever been to a five-star restaurant? - probably When was the last time you ate fast food? - just now I had cheeseburger and fries! yum!! :-P When was the last sleepover you had? - I slept at dan last night Are a good, average or bad student? - Average Do you want a tattoo? - yeah Do you want a piercing? - yeah I want my seconds done for my ears What`s your religious beliefs? - CHRISTIAN!! woooo! Where did you discover your favorite band and how? - Dan, listening to it 24/7!! hehe! Ever been to a club? - yes Do you listen to music that`s sung in a different language? - no not usually Where do you do your food shopping? - Sainsburys Do you like cemeteries? - no Did you ever own a drumset? - no If you could be in a band, what instrument would you play? - keyboard Whatname would you pick for yourself? - i cant b botherd to think coz its never going to happen Im not musically talented in any way at all!! What boy`s names do you like? - Jacob, Seth, Aaron What girl`s names do you like? - dnt know How many people are 'gangsta' at your school? - I dont go to school What`s your favorite place to eat in town? - Pret a Manger What`s your favorite place to eat fast food? - Pizza Hut What`s your locker combination? - I dnt have one Is your school over-crowded? - not really, sixth form is Ever got suspended? - nope Ever been exspelled? - nope Ever got detention? - yup Ever participated in a spelling/geography/etc group? - nope Do you look at the TV guide or the TV guide channel for TV listings? - tele text What`s the longest survey you ever took? - this one What types of movie do you like? - sad, scary, chick flicks, comedy..all kinds Did you ever go pool-hopping? - no When`s the last time you been to a cemetery? - urm... duno, dont really make a habit of visiting htem Ever visited the hospital? - yeah Ever had to be rushed to the hospital? - yes Did you ever run away? - never made it out the front door, Dad found me How many houses have you lived in? - 5 or 4 What is your dream vacation? - Australia, The Gambia etc Have you ever had a car crash? - yes Did you ever almost drift out to sea? - in Scarborough yes, What is the longest amount of time you were away from home? - 3 weeks Ever slept without air condishioning on a really hot day? - yes , I dnt have air con at home If so, did it take long to get to sleep? - as long as it normally takes Do you make stupid faces in photos? - I stick my tongue out Do you have your own computer? -no Do you have your own phone line? - no, but i got a mobile Do you have a TV in your room? - not allowed Ever bought something, wore it once and it just sat there in your closet? -all the time Do you hate it when your grandparents buy you a bunch of stuff you don`t need? - yeh my nanny and grandada do that all th time but I thank them ect and Im polite! lol! Do you daydream often? - always Did you ever fall asleep in class? - yup What are your nicknames? - Kita, never Niki Did you ever meet someone online then met them in real life? - no Doyou go in chatrooms often? - never Are you afraid of heights? - nope Do you have a mobile phone? - yes If so, what model is it? - Nokia something or other When`s the last time you`ve been to the beach? - Scarborough when we went up about 10 days ago!! Can you surf? - Surf-no bodyboard yes Snowboard? - no Ski? - noooo Are most of your teachers male or female? - Male at College Did you ever ride a horse? - used to in Buckingham Did you ever go camping? - yea, a lot Do you like to swim? - If it's not cold What kind of car do your parents have? - Dad- Citroen C4 Mum Suzuki Ignis What time do you wake up? - late as possible What time do you go to bed? -10-11-12-1 ish Are you tired? - yea kinda Do you want this to over? - yes ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Rachel DATE: 12/30/2005 03:29:00 PM Well Kita however darft you think I may be, I def aint as darft as you, do you really think I would do that for myself, I would not have the concentration! So what is happening monday then???
Rach xXx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 12/30/2005 08:00:00 PM I'm sorry that was too loooooooong to read... ----- -------- TITLE: Quote of the Day AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2005 12:57:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
"Missing someone gets easier every day because even though you are farther away from the last time you saw them, you are closer to the next time you will." I saw this quote of some quote of the day thingy. It just made me smile. Enjoy! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dan DATE: 12/30/2005 01:08:00 PM Thought that might

Dan xxx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Anonymous DATE: 12/31/2005 10:23:00 AM Sounds good, but not true IMO.
Chris ----- -------- TITLE: Houses and Homes AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/30/2005 09:34:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I had a really nice time at the Hadlands last night. Had lush food, watch movies and just spent time with everyone. It's that kinda thing I can't do with my immediate family. If I spent time with my family it'll all end up in tears and all of us would go to bed in a huff. I know this sounds really cheesey but I really do just love the Hadland family. They are so lovely and everyone feels welcome there and it really does just feel like a 'home'. I dont get that feeling anywhere else. But then it gets me really *searching for words*... jealous. Coz I haven't been brought up in a family like that. When I went to Dads house, it was so unwelcoming. Like a *cold* atmosphere and all I had to do was put up with a load of stick that Dee and Dad gave me. Tackley home just feels like a place to stay. Nothing else. It's nice to catch up with mum, but if we spend more that 3 hours together we just argue and *edit* Sorry Im just not going there. *Change of subject quickly.... can't think... AAhhh!!* *runs away!* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 1/01/2006 08:21:00 PM (((hug))) ----- -------- TITLE: New Years Resolutions AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/29/2005 04:23:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY:
Your New Year's Resolutions
1) Get a pet pony 2) Eat more whipped cream 3) Travel to India 4) Study finger painting 5) Get in shape with midget tossing
What Should Your New Year's Resoluton Be?
----- -------- TITLE: Just a comment AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/29/2005 09:44:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I've changed the settings on this page so everyone can now comment. C'est bon? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jon DATE: 12/29/2005 10:19:00 AM ahah, that is better, was going to send you an email about that!

Jon xx ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/29/2005 10:49:00 AM hehe!! :-P ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Toni Ertl DATE: 12/29/2005 01:38:00 PM Tres Bon. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 12/29/2005 02:17:00 PM Ist gut, ja? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/29/2005 02:21:00 PM Ja Das ist gut....
Ich denke!!

Was bist du gehe Freitag nacht Livi? ----- -------- TITLE: Cold Frosty Morning AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/29/2005 09:26:00 AM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: I got up ontime this morning!! *shock horror!!* :-P Had a shower and ran for the bus. ... after 20 mins waiting, it still hadn't turned up. I hadn't dried my hair and at that time I had frost growing in it. Oh yay! joy! Not. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Livi DATE: 12/29/2005 02:16:00 PM you got up on time?! *falls off chair and crashes to floor in shock*

*gets up*

You had frost in your hair? Aww I'm sorry darling, that can't be good! I got up about an hour after my alarm (trying to get into slight routine but I keep going to bed really late!) ----- -------- TITLE: Back To Work After Christmas AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/28/2005 04:14:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: -But I have a LOT to tell!! I'll start from the beginning and apologize now for the long post coming up! Christmas Eve, Dan came to my Grandparents house (Grandma Joy etc) and the whole family was round. Grandma cooked a lush dinner (Jacket potatoes, cold meat etc etc)and we played muder in the dark!!! Was very funny! :D Cameron, the youngest cousin at 4 yrs old, wouldn't part from Dan! hehe!! And Dan didn't get annoyed that much with him! wow! lol! Christmas morning was kinda boring. Everyone was cranky for being woken up early! But about 18:00 things started to get intersting...My (great) Aunt Dorothy had given the grandchildren (us kids) £30 to give to a single charity we think needed it most. We went round the room, and each kid voted secretly for the chrity they wanted. I voted for OpenDoors. But as nobody had ever heard of it in my non-christian family, I decided to make a quick plea and tell them about what OpenDoors did. Then we voted again. There was 5 kids voting, 2 didn't vote for OpenDoors, 2 others changed their mind because of what I said, with the guidance of the Lord. £30 is now heading to OpenDoors. This caused a big discusion with my family. Like "If there is such a thing as God, why do so many people worship other 'Gods'?" and "If there is such a thing as a 'God' then why do young people die?" "Why did the Tsunami happen?" etc etc I prayed to God to guide me with what I needed to say, to show me the right verses, and to help my family understand the Christain faith. He did. He guided me. He showed me the verses, I quoted them to my family, and He helped them understand why I became a Christian, and I hope and pray that the Lord can give them more hunger to search for Him. After the discusion,Brooke (my 11 yr old cousin) said that she believes in God. Uncle David said he thinks something is out there and wants to find out what. Uncle Craig wants to keep 'open minded' but thinks Christianity is the way forward. Brooke and Ginny, the only other girls that voted for OpenDoors, on Christmas Day, decided they want to come to BCC youth group and want to become Christians. Dan phoned as soon I'd finished talking to my family. I ran upstairs and actually burst into tears! I was SO happy!! I think felt the Lord speak through me! It was scarey but amazing! I was quoting from the Bible, I was talking to Craig, Grandma, David, Ginny, Brooke, Grandad and Mum about God!!! It was AMAZING!! MeRrY ChRisTmAs!!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Chris DATE: 12/29/2005 01:52:00 PM Kita, I am so proud of you!
Your post actually made me cry!
Chris ----- -------- TITLE: New Blog AUTHOR: Kita DATE: 12/28/2005 03:55:00 PM STATUS: Publish ----- BODY: Ok peeps! I have a new blog! Feel free to comment whenever you like... please no offensive comments etc etc etc, blah blah blah!! Leibe zu alle! Kita xXx ----- --------